Hello Chang’an

Chapter 440: A love affair arises in my heart

As Wei Shuyi spoke, he raised the white jade wine jug in his hand and invited, "I have a jug of good wine here that I keep privately."

Cui Jing did not refuse.

Even if he had to avoid the crowd and talk alone, Wei Shuyi was still very particular about it. After finding a deserted place, he ordered Changji to place a small table, two futons, and get a white jade wine cup with the same color as the wine pot in his hand. .

"There is no wind tonight, so it's a good time to sit across from each other and admire the moon." Wei Shuyi took the lead and sat down cross-legged, looking at the bright moon on the side of the mountain not far away with a smile.

Cui Jing sat with the moon behind her, without crossing her legs. She bent one knee and sat down with a casual posture: "You are the only one who has the moon in these places. This is your way of hospitality."

Wei Shuyi retorted: "That's wrong. It's obvious that I'm the guest. You've seen the moon in Youzhou a lot. When I first arrived in your noble place, you asked me to enjoy it for a while. Why not?"

Wei Shuyi said, and when he looked back, he saw the moonlight appearance of the person in front of him, and his smile faded slightly: "But with Governor Cui's face here, I don't think Wei will have time to look at the moonlight."

Without any concealment, he said: "It actually looked more pleasing to the eye on the day of triumph. If I had known that, I wouldn't have said much to remind you that day."

Cui Jing did not hide that her patience was running out: "If you delay in talking about the serious matter, I'm afraid I won't be able to wait until you open your mouth."

He was not interested in watching Wei Shuyi display his talent for keeping secrets. He guessed the purpose of Wei Shuyi's invitation, so he uncharacteristically agreed to talk to him alone.

"Don't worry, I have the moon all to myself, at least I have to pour you a drink, otherwise it would be too rude." Wei Shuyi said with a smile, picked up the wine pot with one hand, covered his sleeve with the other, and poured wine into the wine cup with a graceful gesture. It is neat and pleasing to the eye.

When pushing one of them towards Cui Jing, Wei Shuyi asked: "Cui Ling'an, are you not afraid at all?"

The question was very sudden and went straight to the topic, without any foreshadowing or innuendo.

But Cui Jing believes that this is another kind of temptation, a more cunning temptation.

Cui Jing did not avoid or pretend not to understand, but asked calmly: "Why are you afraid?"

Wei Shuyi laughed in his heart. This was to test how much he knew - Cui Ling'an was willing to come here, but in fact he was testing him.

Wei Shuyi did not answer for the time being. He drank a glass of wine first. It seemed that only in this way did he have the courage to say: "I was already extinct from this world, but to die and be reborn... is called strange."

In the middle of the night, avoiding the crowd, talking about such a topic...that is, the person sitting across from me is Cui Ling'an. The person's rebellious aura is expected to be a challenge that no evil spirit dares to invade -

Wei Shuyi was so emboldened for himself that he asked in a normal manner: "The ghost returns to the sun, are you really not afraid?"

Cui Jing looked at him for a moment and said in a correcting tone: "In my opinion, she is not a ghost."

An unreal smile flashed on Wei Shuyi's face: "...What is that? The reincarnation of a star? Or is it an immortal or a god?"

Cui Jing: "She is just her."

After Wei Shuyi looked at those cold star-like eyes for a moment, he smiled slightly: "Cui Ling'an, you didn't say sorry to me this time?"

The year before last, in Dayun Temple, when he asked about this matter, Cui Ling'an said to him uncharacteristically: "I'm sorry, I can't talk about this matter."

At this time, Cui Ling'an said to him: "You already have the answer, why should I deny it anymore."

"That's right, according to your temperament, if you just want to deny it, you won't go out of your way to agree to drink with me here." Wei Shuyi poured himself another drink, and there seemed to be a sigh in his voice: "Cui Ling'an, I knew it was too late."

That sigh that was blown away by the wind, I couldn't tell whether it was regret or something else.

If he had known earlier, he might not have trapped himself...but when is it too early? No matter how early it is, it seems like it can’t be earlier than the early spring two years ago, right?

It all seems to have started from then on.

Wei Shuyi picked up the wine cup and showed it to Cui Jing.

Cui Jing then also picked up the cup and drank it all by himself.

When Wei Shuyi put down the empty wine cup, he said: "You and I won't talk about those well-known emotions. But there are a few questions that I have wanted to ask you for a long time-"

"Do I have to answer you?"

"Of course." Wei Shuyi raised his hand to show Cui Jing the wine cup in his hand: "If you drink my wine, you can't drink it for nothing, right?"

"..." Cui Jing lowered his eyes and said, "In the future, I will set a family motto not to drink wine from others, especially wine from people named Wei."

"Good." Wei Shuyi nodded affirmatively with a smile: "But now the debt has been owed, and it is impossible not to answer."

He asked on his own: "When Hibiscus Flower Banquet asked for marriage, you already knew the secret of 'her', right?"

Cui Jing answered frankly: "I'm aware of it."

Wei Shuyi asked in a different way, with a slightly complicated look on his face: "...then you know that 'she' is the former Crown Prince, and you still have feelings of love for her, so don't you find it... hard to accept it?"

There is no need to ask why he is sure that Cui Lingan "still has feelings of love", after all, this matter is obvious to all.

Cui Jing was still honest: "Some."

It was difficult for him to accept his arrogance.

Seeing Cui Jing's calm face, Wei Shuyi became more serious: "Then...how did you overcome it?"

"No need to overcome." Cui Jing said without changing his expression: "There is no conflict."

He looked up to her and admired her, the two could coexist.

"..." There was a hint of admiration in Wei Shuyi's eyes - there was even "no need to overcome". Is Cui Ling'an's orientation so "easy to live with"?

After digesting it for a while, Wei Shuyi asked in a complicated tone: "What about 'her'? Can 'she' accept your admiration for 'her'?"

After all...this is never a one-sided issue, but a two-way street.

Can 'she' accept someone who is also a man and admire 'her'?

Cui Jing glanced at Wei Shuyi, who had a strange expression, and said, "I don't know."

He wasn't sure what she was thinking, and he would not speculate on her or answer any questions on her behalf.

Wei Shuyi fell silent, feeling extremely complicated.

He originally thought that Cui Ling'an was the only one who could relate to such an incredible mental journey, but now it seemed that the other party was far more "open-minded" than he imagined - Cui Ling'an didn't even notice that he fell in love with a man's soul. pressure.

However, even if it was just out of curiosity, he still wanted to ask—

"Now..." Wei Shuyi asked in a somewhat difficult voice: "Do you think of 'her' as a woman, or a man? Or... a hermaphrodite?"

He looked at Cui Ling'an like a mirror, trying to find a way out for himself in this mirror.

But the mirror's reaction was unusually silent.

"..." Cui Jing stared at Wei Shuyi quietly for a long time, and a torture sentence slowly appeared in his mind - is this the smart person he never denied?

Cui Jing began to question her own vision.

He also questioned the mother-son relationship between Mrs. Duan and Wei Shuyi.

Seeing that Cui Jing didn't answer for a long time, Wei Shuyi tried to ask: "...Why, can't you tell the difference?"

After a long while, Cui Jingcai said: "...No comment." Mrs. Duan never told her son that his relationship with Wei Shuyi was unlikely to be better than Mrs. Duan's.

Furthermore, Mrs. Duan would rather see her son struggling than tell her, perhaps because she has some unspeakable secret - he is an outsider, so he has nothing to do.

He originally only planned to answer questions based on what Wei Shuyi already knew. He did not intend to reveal what Wei Shuyi didn't know on behalf of Chang Suining without authorization.

This was in line with Cui Jing's usual style, so his expression became calmer and calmer.

Wei Shuyi's expression became increasingly difficult to describe.

No comment…

So, it involves a personal weird and private orientation, right?

Indeed, it was a difficult question to answer, and he admitted that he had taken the liberty of doing so.

For a moment, the air was filled with condensation, and both of them were silent.

After a long time, Wei Shuyi finally spoke and said, "I guess you don't care about this at all."

"Cui Ling'an, above all, I'm far inferior to you." Wei Shuyi poured himself a drink and sighed: "Not only this, but everything you do is like this. Once you make up your mind, you dare to abandon all distracting thoughts, regardless of gains and losses, regardless of questions. The consequences ahead…”

Either because of the atmosphere or because of the drunkenness, Wei Shuyi rarely revealed a truth that had been buried in his heart for a long time: "Actually, I have always envied you."

"Not only do I envy you for being fearless, but I also envy you for knowing what you want so clearly." Wei Shuyi said, "You have a light in your heart, but I don't have one."

He has been regarded as a child prodigy since he was a child, and every step he took thereafter was very steady and easy on the established path, whether he was in the imperial examination or serving as an official... what others couldn't ask for was within his reach, or perhaps because of this, he Even though I have obtained all this, I have never experienced true joy.

Cui Ling'an joined the army, and he was rebellious, making a lot of noise, but also being unwavering... He had never had such a feeling.

When he was rebellious at a young age, he also had a sudden idea to break away from the shackles of the world. A few days before the exam, he burned all the ink and ink in his books. However, when he heard his father sighing, his mother asked him, "What kind of disease do you have?" And the incomprehensible frown on his sister's face... He suddenly felt that it was suddenly boring.

Then he sighed nonchalantly: [It was quite boring just now, but I feel better now after burning it]

So everyone dispersed as usual.

His life seemed infinitely bright and everything was ready, but to him, it was so boring.

Until, in the spring of two years ago, in Hezhou, he suddenly met a soul who was very special at first sight. The more we got along with him, the more interesting he became, and the more he wanted to explore it.

Thinking of this, Wei Shuyi was suddenly in a trance, and a way out seemed to be emerging in his mind.

At this time, he heard Cui Jing say: "I also envied you."

Wei Shuyi looked up and asked with a smile: "When you were young, right?"

Cui Jing said "hmm".

"I know." Wei Shuyi said with a smile: "You have a strong temperament, and you were taught by the Cui family at a young age that you can't express your likes and dislikes. The more you envy you, the more indifferent you act, so you always pretend to be with me. An indifferent look."

Cui Jing: "But I'm not pretending-"

Wei Shuyi laughed twice and raised his hand to pour wine for Cui Jing: "But you don't have to envy me anymore. You have the path you want to take, and you have a way out in your heart."

Cui Ling'an, who lost his mother at a young age and was lonely, envied his healthy and harmonious parents and his unfettered and relaxed childhood.

"But people are so strange..." Wei Shuyi said: "What you envy me is my ordinary and boring life. I saw you lonely when you were young, but when you grew up, I became the loneliest one."

Although the two have known each other since childhood, they have never talked like this before. Just when Cui Jing had a slightly different mood, Wei Shuyi said: "But I am okay now, and I finally have a place in my heart." A place where you are never alone.”

"Your words just now have enlightened me a lot." Wei Shuyi slowly exhaled and said, "For a person like me who sees all things as boring, I have such an opportunity. It's because God has shown mercy to me in this barren life. Add a touch of vitality.”

It's hard to get rid of this worry, so let's just keep it in mind and see how long he can take care of himself.

"It doesn't matter how long you can deal with it -" Wei Shuyi let out a long sigh of relief again, as if his shackles were removed, he stood up with a wine cup in his hand, turned around and looked at the surrounding fields and the stars in the sky: "After all, this trip to this world is worth it."

These words fell into Cui Jing's ears with nothing more than three words - don't give up.

After Wei Shuyi drank all the wine in the cup, he turned around and asked, "Cui Ling'an, what do you think?"

The person who answered him was Cui Jing's back.

Wei Shuyi: "How could you leave after just a disagreement?"

Cui Jing said without looking back: "The wine debt has been eliminated."

"I haven't had time to thank you for your kindness!" Wei Shuyi always knew how to make people angry.

Cui Jing: "..."

Seeing the figure striding away, Wei Shuyi smiled and said "tsk": "There are times when the dignified Governor Cui can't tolerate others."

As soon as he saw that he had the idea of ​​"being a traitor", he turned around and left.

He finally saw that not only was he unable to tolerate others, but he also had no confidence at all.

It's rare in the world for Cui Ling'an to be so unsure of himself.

Therefore, this does not mean that there is a person born in the anti-bone. It is clearly that a love is born in the anti-bone.

Wei Shuyi smiled to himself and sat down, feeling relieved of the tension and tangle of recent days. He poured and drank until there was no more wine in the pot and the moon was hidden behind the mountain.

In the military camp not far away, the bonfire had dimmed.

Chang Sui Ning was on her way back to her tent. Chang Sui An followed her and asked slightly nervously: "...Ning Ning, are you really not drunk?"

"Brother, do you think I'm drunk?" Chang Sui Ning said, "I have a long drinking capacity, and I only drank one glass of fruit wine."

At the celebration banquet, Chang Suining did not drink alcohol, but she was still very cautious about those hard-to-handle spirits.

This glass of fruit wine was specially found by Wu Chunbai after the last banquet, and he paid his respects in private. Chang Sui Ning didn't want to refuse this offer, and since he had already planned to go back to the tent to rest, he drank it with confidence.

Hearing her say that she was "a good drinker", Changsui An felt a little relieved: "As long as you're not drunk..."

I vaguely remember that when she was in the capital, Ning Ning's unforgettable drunken experience was caused by a cup of fruit wine.

Recalling this old incident, Chang Sui'an couldn't help but think of the tragic experience of Governor Cui that day.

As soon as this thought appeared in his mind, Chang Sui'an saw a familiar "tragic figure" standing quietly in front of him, as if waiting for someone.

Looking at the face of the handsome young man who was not born tragically under the light, Chang Sui'an was inexplicably excited - he had drunk the fruit wine, and the person who was being beaten had also arrived. Why did he have an ominous premonition that everything was ready?

Good night! (Forewarning in advance, I will write a little bit of the emotional line tomorrow. There is only a little progress in the main emotional line. If you don’t want to read the emotional line, remember to skip tomorrow’s update and return to Jiangdu immediately~)

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