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The voice of the Holy Book Emperor was not heavy, but there was a deep persistence in it, as if this question had been lingering in her mind for too long. She had asked it countless times in her heart, insisting on hearing an answer.

Li Suining paused slightly and reminded: "Your Majesty, my mother-in-law is the ninth mother of the Zhong family. This matter has been decided at the return ceremony."

"Yes...I know." The Holy Book Emperor was afraid that she would leave right away. Looking at the back, he gave in and said: "But you must have heard of Ashang's story...if you were her, would you hate me?"

Li Suining did not move for a moment, as if he was thinking about whether to answer "instead of" Li Shang.

The Holy Emperor's voice was hoarse with guilt: "The reason why she married Beidi was because of my mother's request..."

"That's not right." Li Suining corrected calmly: "She is recuperating for Da Sheng."

The Holy Book Emperor: "If she really thinks so, why doesn't she want to recognize me?"

Li Suining stood still for a moment and finally spoke.

Then let's make it clear, come to an end, and finally give each other an explanation.

"Her original intention was indeed to prosper the country. At that time, she thought about it and it seemed that there was no better way."

Li Suining's voice was very soft, as if she was telling someone else's story: "But many people advised her not to agree. Her teacher said at that time - if there is no better way, then choose a not so good way, and let's do it for the time being. Use expedient measures, and then we can figure out a solution together. Why does one person have to be the best at everything in this world? "

"She refuted the teacher, but late at night she couldn't help but fantasize that maybe we could actually find another way together. After all, in addition to the teacher and subordinates, she also has a powerful mother—"

"She thought at that time that if her mother did not allow her to get married, then she and her mother would discuss a 'not so good way', so she waited for her mother to come find her."

The Holy Emperor was a little stunned. At this point, she didn't dare to listen to the next sentence, but the sentence still came into her ears clearly:

"Her mother really came to look for her, and she addressed her as mother-in-law just like your majesty did -" Li Suining's voice was still calm: "That mother-in-law is not as tough as before, but she seems to have really become a mother-in-law." The ordinary mother-in-law showed a fragile and ashamed look that she had never seen before, and asked her to get married. "

"At that time, she suddenly had a very strange feeling. She would not be touched by such a request. But she felt inexplicably that such words should not be said by a mother-"

"The world's demands and expectations for mothers are always too high, and she suddenly feels that she shouldn't be so selfish and harsh."

"But she suddenly thought that over the years, she never seemed to have made any demands or requests from her mother. On the contrary, she had always just fulfilled all her mother's expectations. Is it really too much for her to expect this just once?"

Li Suining: "So at that moment, she suddenly felt aggrieved."

"Fortunately, the grievance was only for a moment, and she quickly figured out one thing -" Li Suining: "Her mother is an unintentional person."

The grievance is to ask for attention and love, but these unintentional people cannot give it.

At that moment, she suddenly let go of the "preference" she had received for Axiao when she was young. She only felt that Axiao was also very pitiful.

The Holy Emperor's body stiffened and he said subconsciously: "I made a mistake... I promised you that I would bring you back in three years. I planned to make it up to you, but who knew..."

"Who knew?" Li Suining tilted his head slightly and repeated these two words: "Here we go to Beidi, and we will escape death. How could your Majesty not know?"

"Your Majesty is willing to think this way to comfort her or to make yourself feel better?" "If Your Majesty said you did something wrong, you were indeed wrong." Li Suining: "But the fault is not that you failed to be a so-called good mother, but that you failed to be a so-called good mother. The mistake is that I have never seen one thing clearly - whether it is the hearts of children or the hearts of the people, these things collectively called human hearts are like fine sand. If you only want to firmly control them, they will all be lost. "

"With your Majesty's mind, you would never have imagined that Li Shang would be willing to marry Beidi. But during the few days when Li Shang was waiting for her mother to express her stance, Your Majesty became afraid."

"Your Majesty is afraid that Li Shang will waver, even if there is only a slight possibility, your Majesty will never allow such a mistake to occur, so as not to affect your layout, so your Majesty would rather beg her as a mother."

"She noticed it, so she agreed." Li Suining said: "This is the best solution, and it can repay the debt smoothly. She has no reason not to agree."

"It's just that once the two are clear, the saint no longer has to be persistent and reluctant."

"Saints are born with a lack of love and trust. It is not necessarily a good thing to force it to be delivered. You will be exhausted and your children will be suffocated." Li Suining: "It's good to not owe each other anything."

"People are born with no ability to choose their parents. In the world, only family ties are the most overbearing and unreasonable. Even if they are not suitable for mother and daughter, they cannot change them. Fortunately, Li Shang is very lucky."

"Your Majesty asked her if she hated—"

"She doesn't hate it, she feels relieved."

After Li Suining finished speaking, he raised his hand to open the bead curtain and left the place.

The Holy Emperor stood there in a daze. After a moment, her eyes moved to the window lattice. She saw the eunuchs and maids bowing respectfully, and the figure was as broad and light as the wind, and disappeared from her sight.

At this moment, a hollow fear suddenly arose in the heart of the Holy Book Emperor.

Ah Shang did not accuse, question or complain, nor did he mention Ban Zi’s experience in Beidi...

Those words were very calm, but they made her realize extremely clearly that she had really lost Ashang.

This kind of loss is far more complete than the separation between life and death.

Her daughter came back, but she also left completely.

The impact of this feeling of losing control was even worse than the moment she fainted and fell to the ground when Bian Jun conquered Gyeonggi Province -

The empress seemed to have been drained of all her strength, holding the dragon staff in both hands, and slowly sat back.

When the maid walked in, she saw the emperor clutching the dragon staff tightly, and his usually upright back suddenly bent down, as if he looked much older in an instant. She was slightly startled, but she did not dare to step forward rashly, so she could only wait by the side anxiously.

There was no chill in the evening wind, and it blew against my cheeks, like being swept by soft and clean feathers.

Li Suining was blowing the wind without looking back.

In the middle of the journey, a female soldier came to her and said to her: "The Taifu asked his subordinates to send a message, saying that after His Highness you are done with your work, you will go directly to the Taifu's place for dinner."

"Okay." Li Suining smiled and raised his leg forward: "Let's go and see what delicious food the teacher has prepared." (End of Chapter)