How to become a full-time hunter

Ahhhhhh...

In a deserted corner, Lu Man wanted to scream, but no sound came out.

The great mourning is silent.

It was like there was a wall stuck in my throat, making it difficult to make a sound. There was only a soreness spreading in my throat and quickly spreading throughout my body.

The eye sockets were also a little swollen and painful. Lu Man reached out to rub them and found that tears had already filled her face before she knew it. Fortunately, I didn't find it. Now the tears seemed to have found a flood outlet, noisy and rushing out of the corners of my eyes.

‘It turns out I have never forgotten. ’

Lu Man hit his chest. It hurt. It hurt too much.

The secret that had been hidden suddenly exploded at this moment.

Lu Mann's secret before time travel.

Lu Man grew up in a single-parent family and depended on her mother since she was a child until she entered college.

On the eve of graduation, Lu Man found an internship job. The internship period is not long, only three months. If you perform well, you can become a regular employee.

When he told his mother the news, she was sincerely happy for him. At that time, he didn't notice the relief and relaxation in his mother's eyes at all.

More than two months have passed, and his mother has not answered his phone calls and has been communicating through text messages.

Lu Mann, who noticed something strange, finally couldn't bear the doubts in his heart and secretly asked for leave and returned home.

The moment he opened the door, Lu Man was stunned: the house seemed empty, and it had not been cleaned for a long time.

Dust and paper scraps were everywhere.

"Mother?"

No response.

In the living room, Lu Man found a thick stack of medical records.

"In the middle stage of liver cancer, there is a risk of spread. It is recommended that patients be hospitalized in time.

The patient refused.

Doctor Xu X. Date XXXX"

Lu Man couldn't believe his eyes. Calculating the date, he was in his junior year.

"In the late stage of liver cancer, it has spread to surrounding organs. Patients are advised to notify their families in time.

Doctor Xu X. Date XXXX"

The date was exactly the day of his internship in his senior year!

"Liver cancer, lung cancer, hydronephrosis, and lymphoid tissue cancer.

The patient is aware and emotionally stable.

Doctor Xu X. Date XXXX"

Exactly two days ago!

At the bottom are densely packed examination sheets and CT images.

Lu Mann trembled and pushed open the door of his mother's bedroom.

My mother was lying quietly on the bed, holding her cell phone tightly in her hand.

On the ground were various boxes of painkillers.

"Mom!" Lu Man burst into tears.

Seeing that her mother's chest was still heaving, Lu Man quickly picked up her mother and rushed to the hospital.

When she carried her mother on her back, Lu Man realized that her legs, which were already thin, were swollen. No, her whole body was swollen!

Along the way, Lu Man's head was empty, and he just whispered over and over again: "Mother, hold on! Mother, hold on!"

After sending her mother to the emergency room, Lu Man slapped herself twice. "You bastard! Do you know how my mother spent the past two months alone at home!"

He lowered his head and burst into tears.

The doctor came out faster than Lu Man expected.

The doctor shook his head.

"Plop!"

Lu Man knelt down, "Please, doctor, save her. I'll borrow money. I have organs. Transplant my organs to my mother!"

The doctor helped Lu Mann up, "Don't be like this, please calm down! This is not a problem of money or organs. This is an incurable disease. Please accept it."

Lu Man didn't get up, "I'm transferring to the best hospital!"

The doctor sighed, "This is not a rare disease. Cancer is now a common serious disease. There is a mature treatment system both internationally and domestically for its treatment. If it develops to this stage, the result will be the same wherever you go. Please forgive me." ”

"Doctor, the patient is awake." At this time, the nurse trotted out.

Lu Man immediately stood up and rushed in.

"Why are you here?" Mother was obviously a little surprised.

"I... I performed well. The company hired me in advance and gave me a holiday. I'll come back and check it out." Lu Man lied.

"This is a good thing, why are you crying." The mother wanted to raise her hand to wipe Lu Man's face, but she didn't have the strength to raise her palm.

"Yeah, yeah, I won't cry if I don't cry." Lu Man choked and put her face into her mother's hand.

"Manman, we can't be cured...let's go home."

Lu Man showed a smile that was uglier than crying.

"Well, let's go home!"

Before leaving the hospital, the doctor called Lu Man aside. "Young man, the patient's physical condition may happen at any time... Logically speaking, she can no longer speak. This may be a flashback. Please be mentally prepared."

After returning home, my mother lay on the bed and said weakly: "My child, I'm sorry for you...Mom will be gone in the future, so you must take good care of yourself..."

"Mom, don't say stupid things. There will be a miracle and everything will get better!"

"Cough cough...cough cough...cough...Mom wants to drink some water..."

"Okay, I'll pour it right away."

The miracle didn't happen.

At the moment when the water is poured, the miracle will never come.

From that day on, Lu Mann was dead.

Heartbroken.

Lu Mann resented herself for not discovering the illness earlier and why she didn't spend more time with her mother during her last three months.

How lonely it is to be alone in an empty room, waiting for death to come.

What thoughts did my mother have at that time, how she ate, how she drank, how she suffered...

Lu Mann didn't dare to think about it.

He even thought about following his mother, but he didn't take action in the end.

His mother definitely didn't want to see this happen. Maybe she was watching from heaven.

But no matter how Lu Man comforted himself, the empty space in his heart would always be empty.

After handling his mother's funeral alone, Lu Man abandoned himself for three months.

When Lu Man returned to society again, he never mentioned this to anyone. He submitted resumes normally, got a job normally, went to work normally, and interacted with colleagues normally.

Only Lu Man knew whether it was normal or not.

He cherished his life, but he wanted to die. The two were not contradictory. Living for death, life is instinct, and death is the purpose.

Perhaps most people are like this, collapsing in silence, and being silent in collapse. They live as if they will never die, until they die, as if they have never lived.

Lu Man had forgotten those things in the past, but he never thought that after seeing the situation of Zhangjia Ruo's mother, these memories buried deep in his mind burst out.

"Perhaps, it's not an accident that I adapt to this world."

After becoming a social animal, Lu Man has been patient and waiting. Waiting for the day when he will calm down and explode, or take a leap of faith, or become a soul under the sea.

"After all, there is nothing to miss about that world!"

It's just that Lu Man himself may not have noticed that his long dead heart has become moist again in the hunter world.

Unconsciously, Lu Man has a new support.

He no longer lives for his mother, nor for death, but truly lives for himself.

"Well, it's bad! I came out to buy food for the two little ones!" Lu Man walked away, striding.

After he left, a star in the sky twinkled.

It was like someone was showing a relieved look.