clown game

But then again, he wasn't bored to the point of drinking cold water and waiting to urinate, he was also doing something.

Just like Bai Xiong said, Chen Xiao was checking.Check yourself, check the past, check those lost memories.

"Who am I?"

This question is still very attractive to a person with a blank memory.

Of course he will check, although there is a forbidden zone in his mind... He can't touch it, and he can't think about it.

But, that doesn't hide anything.

It's like a black hole...we can't see it because it swallows even light, but we can still see it...because we can see beyond it.

The same is true for Chen Xiao. Although he can't see those sealed things, he has already outlined the outline of the restricted area from many other things.

……

……

Chen Xiao's memory started half a year ago... Waking up in a mental hospital, it was like a fresh life that was born with knowledge had just hatched, without any memory of the past, but possessed countless knowledge that normal people would never have.

This knowledge is too messy and has no connection, it's like randomly pulling out a few puddles of water from the ocean of knowledge, and then pouring it into a big steel to stir it up.

He knew how to kill a man with a disposable straw and toilet paper and fake suicide, and how to cut open a dying man's chest and squeeze the heart to make it beat again.He can clearly infer a person's home address from his hair, and he can also measure the distance and speed of a vehicle only by perception.He had in mind the extremely detailed templates of the continental plates, and the hand-fitting process of the clockwork.He can distinguish the color numbers of various series of lipsticks, and can also identify which master they are from from the style of the book.

In short, these messy knowledge are really unusual for a severely mentally ill patient who has been wearing a restraint suit for a long time and has been locked in a single ward for more than ten years and has not seen the outside world.

Chen Xiao looked at his case file.I have also traced many related clues. These things are easy in the eyes of a Foundation field officer, but the answers he got are the same as those of the white bear.

That is... logical, no doubt, meticulous, as if deliberately placed there waiting for someone to dig.So Chen Xiao didn't pursue it further, he knew that it was meaningless, and all this would only become more real the more he investigated

And what he doubted was already reality itself.

Then, this kind of extremely subtle authenticity is like a series of walls, firmly blocking Chen Xiao in the established story, so he can only give up and turn his attention to himself.

……

Then let's talk about Chen Xiao himself. We have already talked about his all-encompassing but extremely impractical head. Let's talk about this body... This body really has nothing to do with the word "fresh".Thin, pale, atrophied muscles and a curved spine piled up into a thin, crooked image, not even as good as those beggars who couldn't eat enough.

However, Chen Xiao is not disgusted with this body... This is a very subtle feeling, and only a person who has lost his memory will experience it. The comfortable height of the field of vision, the familiar width of the stride, every inadvertent Small movements, every subconscious command, are perfectly matched with his body.He can simulate the feeling of facing the wind when running, and he can also imagine the body movements when protecting key parts when being beaten.It should be that far when you stretch out your arms, and you should be that high when you jump up. This is a habit that has been formed for a long time, and it is integrated in the depths of consciousness, and it will not change much with the disappearance of memory.

This shows that the self at this moment should be oneself.This is a very awkward sentence, but everyone should understand what it means

However, there are also differences

Like those two scars at the corners of the mouth...

From the corner of the mouth, it extends to the cheeks, and even reaches the roots of the ears as the muscles are stretched.These two scars... are very awkward and uncomfortable. Talking, eating, looking in the mirror, anyway, it should not belong to my body at all, but for some reason, it is closely integrated with myself, like some kind of scar. The totem that couldn't be thrown away was branded on his face, and even the powerful healing ability of the repair warehouse couldn't eliminate it.

Equally awkward, there are lip licking movements, occasional subconscious shrieks, and inexplicable chewing of his own tongue when he is idle and bored... Wait, although he doesn't do these movements Any sense of disobedience... However, he knows that these do not belong to him, but the traces left by an invisible force that secretly penetrated into his soul.

"Who the hell am I...?"

Or

"I...or is it just me?"

Chen Xiao has explored for a long time on this issue.

The first time...when I was a so-called "volunteer", at the gate of the orphanage...it was a gap in my memory, before I felt a trance, everything was normal, but After that, his hand was almost broken. At that time, he attributed this to his own mental illness.

Next, in the D-class containment area of ​​the foundation, the memory-eating old man who never showed up again, and the sharply reduced number of guards, it is impossible for Chen Xiao not to notice these details, and he is now very convinced that, These... are all related to myself.

The blasted wall on the top floor of the Jinding Building, the giant eyes opened in the sky full of flesh and blood, and the way to contain C-207 and send it to the Anomaly Research Institute, in every undetectable thinking restricted area, it seems that something terrible happened.

These things... are all about me.

So... what the hell was I doing in those trances?He couldn't find it no matter what, those records were strictly hidden by higher-level forces.

...someone doesn't want to let themselves know,

It's easy to guess~

However, it seems that there are still people who want to tell themselves the truth.

Like that self-proclaimed writer woman who hasn't been seen for a long time.

Chen Xiao was very sure that when she appeared in front of him again, many mysteries would be solved.

hehehehe...

He smiled softly, these things cannot be rushed.Wait, wait... Everyone knows that the longer you endure, the stronger the pleasure will be.

......

suddenly!

"buzz"

Chen Xiao's phone vibrated

Immediately after

shook again

"Buzz buzz buzz --"

The vibration started and continued, making Chen Xiao's crotch numb~

"What are you doing?" Chen Xiao muttered, he would not be immersed in this strange feeling, and quickly took out his phone.

Immediately after

"Fuck!!!!??"

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Chapter 195 The Eve of the Mission

On the screen of the mobile phone, system information appeared one after another, jingling and bombarding Chen Xiao one after another.

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