I want to kill a god before I die

However, Cheng Hai didn't really care about these things that much.His sense of guilt stemmed from the trouble he had caused, and this had dissipated when the Hand of Order appeared.

"Cheng, are you looking for me?"

There was a crack in the wall at the head of the bed, and Zi Yakumo's face appeared.

"You're back?"

Cheng Hai raised his chest, looked up at her, then stretched out with one hand, grabbed the edge of the crack, and dragged himself in.

Yakumo Zi moved out of the way and watched him fall like a snake, then put his hands on the ground and turned over in the air.

"You came back from studying Breaking (the special term for hip-hop floor movements) in an alien planet, do you have to show me your skills?" She said speechlessly.

"Isn't he handsome?" Cheng Hai stretched.

"Shuai Shuai Shuai, you continue..." Yakumo Zi said perfunctorily.

"Well, I actually don't know any hip-hop."

Cheng Hai didn't continue to make trouble, and said straight to the point: "I'm in some trouble, please help me to see if I have been tampered with by Naia."

"Nia? He came to you in advance?"

Hearing Naia's name, Yakumo Zi's expression suddenly became serious, and she stretched out her hand to press Cheng Hai's temple, releasing her spiritual power.

"No, I just used his name to deceive people when I was fighting people, maybe something went wrong..." Cheng Hai replied.

"..."

Yakumo Zi was speechless for a while.

The contract between Cheng Hai and Naia was almost like a curse, and he dared to use his name to go out and cheat.

"Have you encountered any enemies outside?"

"Well, there is a civilization nearby, which happens to be related to Naia. Those guys have conquered many star fields and are very threatening, so I found a chance and tried to blow them up."

"???"

Yakumo Zi frowned, doubts written all over her face.

What does it mean that the threat is so great, so I tried to blow them up?

Is this something two people can do? !

The two sat down on a bench, Yakumo Zi carefully checked every corner of Cheng Hai several times, and finally shook her head and said, "I didn't find any trace of Naia's existence."

"Then I can't figure it out..."

Cheng Hai looked at her, and his thoughts wandered to the scene in Katani, and he said calmly: "I killed many people, many, many. Although they were not innocent, they still made me feel sick.

When I first found out that I had a demon, I thought it was caused by this incident.So, I spent a month convincing myself that this was just a standard trolley problem and that if I had to do it a hundred times over, I would still choose to destroy them.

Finally, I'm sure I've approved the rationale for this choice.I don't have much fluctuation in the death of living beings, even if I dismember living beings by the cruelest means, I won't feel much discomfort.

Only, I was wrong.

This doesn't get me out of the confusion, I don't know what I want?How can we go further. "

"orange……"

Yakumo Zi raised her hand, hesitated to speak.

Cheng Hai glanced at her, saw that she didn't speak, and continued: "So, I changed my thinking. I often substitute the situation of Katani into the earth. If there are destroyers like me here , even if we are not defeated in the end, more than half of the human race will be killed or injured.

Apart from improving our overall combat power, there is no solution to this problem, but if it is not resolved, I will not be able to go any further.This is a paradox, and it is contrary to Lin Miaozhen's theory of cultivating immortals, so it is not tenable.

So this guess was also ruled out by me.

Of course, for insurance.I brought back all the usable things, and gave Ozzy the blueprint of the fortress. In theory, I also provided a way to reduce casualties, and I was not indifferent. "

"After even this was ruled out, I started to think about Naia. He made me feel scared, and he also had this ability to make me fall into hallucinations.

Lin Miaozhen did not check out anything wrong, but there is also the possibility that her ability is not suitable for this aspect.

She advised me to come back and rest for a while, and told me that maybe I was sick from longing and needed the company of my family.So I did, but as it turned out, it didn't calm me down.

So, I come to you to clarify. "

After finishing all this calmly, Cheng Hai looked at Yakumo Zi quietly, waiting for her reply.

"Ugh……"

Understanding Cheng Hai's appeal, Yakumo Zi just sighed, and then hugged him.

"what happened?"

Cheng Hai opened his hand, a little stunned.

"Give you a big hug." Yakumo Zi smiled.

"But it's useless." Cheng Hai frowned.

As it turned out, he didn't need that consolation.

Otherwise, when it comes to healing, it is obvious that Cheng Yiyi can make him feel more relaxed.As for Yakumo Zi, regardless of his identity or figure, hugging him will only make him feel embarrassed, and he doesn't know where to put his hands.

"I know it won't work."

Yakumo Zi stroked his back and said softly, "I just want to hug you suddenly."

Although she knew that this road was not easy to walk, she just felt distressed seeing Cheng Hai turn into such a ghost.

People always have seven emotions and six desires.

In order to get rid of his inner demons, Cheng Hai forced himself to quit his pity for life by means of almost hypnosis.It can be said that half of his soul is dead.

Chapter 139 The limit that power can't reach

"I already understand your symptoms." Yakumo Zi said calmly.

"But the question is... why am I lying here?" Cheng Hai's expression was a little unnatural.

Maybe it was the sudden burst of accumulated motherhood, and now he was placed on his lap by Yakumo Zi, which is the position of the knee pillow in the legend.

Although the touch from the cheek was very soft, it was not as romantic as it was on TV, only embarrassment in capital letters.If there is another person next to him, it will be a standard social death.

"Then do you want to lie on the bed and talk to me with another bottle of water in your hand?" Yakumo Zi glanced at him.

"Forehead……"

Cheng Hai was speechless again, why did he have to lie down?

"It's still here." He compromised.

"So let's get down to business."

Yakumo Zi paused, and suddenly asked: "What kind of person do you think I am?"

"how?"

The corners of Cheng Hai's eyes twitched, goosebumps all over his back, and he frowned and said, "Secondary two, numb, dissatisfied with desire."

I always feel that today's purple is very strange.

"Forehead……"

The corners of Yakumo Zi's eyes also twitched.

It’s okay to be in the second grade and nasty, but what the hell is desire and dissatisfaction?

She grabbed Cheng Hai's ear and twisted it hard, and said displeasedly: "I will give you another chance to reorganize the voice."

Although Cheng Hai lost part of his emotions and expressed his emotions much more slowly, he was still as skinny as ever, and it was convenient to put it on his lap for repairs.

This is probably the reason why knee pillows became popular.

"Uh ah..."

Cheng Hai thought for a while, then changed his words: "Young and beautiful, gentle and sexy."

"I've been thinking about it for so long."

Seeing that he didn't show any resistance due to pain, Yakumo Zibai gave him a white look, and then changed his words: "I want to say, I am a god, do you understand?"

"not understand."

Cheng Hai turned his head to look up, but for some reason, he couldn't see her face.

"What I mean is, you've been in contact with us for so long, you shouldn't think about God too complicatedly. It's as rigid as the Four Seasons Hades, and she also has her own preferences, let alone other gods.

We are not a product of existence based on human beliefs, but step by step through our own efforts.Therefore, as gods, we don't need to be so great that we think about the common people every day, and we don't need to be so naive as to regard all beings as ants when everything is fine.

A mortal is to me what a random stranger on the street is to you.If you have nothing to do with him, you don't bother to care what they do all day.

To get rid of demons is to make yourself more perfect, not incomplete.So the practice of hypnotizing oneself and cutting off the six desires is wrong from the very beginning. "

"Ok?"

Cheng Hai thought for a while, then nodded.

"However, your conjectures are all correct, but they are too one-sided. You only need to put them all together and you will find that your inner demons only come from one thing."

Yakumo Zi slowed down her speech, as if she wanted Cheng Hai to deduce the answer by herself.

"one thing?"

Cheng Hai's breathing stagnated, and he asked, "What is it?"

"Don't ask me, tell it yourself."

This time, Yakumo Zi did not follow him.

Judging from the magnitude of his trembling when he heard the last sentence, he knew the answer himself.

"I……"

Cheng Hai opened his mouth and fell into silence.

He closed his eyes, as if his body had left the world at this moment, escaping into the dark vortex.

In the center of the vortex is the pile of pupils with a layer of ripples more than three-dimensional, which is the image when he saw Naia for the first time.

These dense eyeballs and pieces of meat are stacked together to form a drawing that is more terrifying than hell, with the word "fear" written all over it!

Yes, the current Cheng Hai is starting to get scared.

Since he was chosen as the carrier by the will of the world, most of his fights are almost leapfrog fights.

In Yuma Township, he relied on the spiritual power of C-level gods to defeat B-level Zhuyue; in the ghost school, he designed Judge Qin to compete with the slender ghost, and used the A-level gods he obtained to defeat S-level; When Naia's shadow descended, he defeated the quasi-god with the S-level god; he even became a god in Katani, and directly killed an old Katani god.

However, when facing the Golden God, he finally encountered a bottleneck.

Although he was the final winner, compared to all the previous battles, he could clearly realize how lucky he was to win.

Without Rogge and the Seed of the World that she cultivated in advance, he might not be able to take advantage of the chaos to reach an effective communication with Katani's planetary core and seize its power.

Even so, he still couldn't kill the Golden God, which was a very serious problem.

The rewards and sacrifices given by the will of the world are equal. There is still the possibility of leapfrog killing in battles below the god level, but the difficulty will increase geometrically.

The battle with the Golden God is won, so what about the next time?

If he faced an opponent like Hastur, would he still be able to become the final winner with a planet-level combat power?

Even if it is possible, will the will of the world be able to give reciprocal rewards then?

As the loser of the previous generation, will the will of the world have its limits?

"I'm afraid... I will lose..."

Finally, Cheng Hai gave his answer.

He really didn't want to admit this. Once he showed cowardice, an indelible wound would be left in his spiritual realm, which would become an obstacle to his becoming stronger.

That's why he kept hypnotizing himself to accept inferences, wanting to prove that he has a way no matter what he encounters, and wanting to forget this fact.

Only, he failed.

Just like the endless ending, he couldn't wake up from this deep nightmare at all, so he had to push all the roots to Naia.

Although Lin Miaozhen saw the reason, he couldn't solve the problem, so he asked him to come back to look for Yakumo Zi.

It just seems that the result will not develop in the direction he wants.Yakumo Zi was originally a loser, and she lost twice. No matter how eloquent she was, Cheng Hai couldn't believe it was true.

Huhu——