Ye Wang

I really want to say that as long as we are lovers, we can ignore other people's gossip, but I didn't say this, because I am really not suitable to say that now, and I don't know what the relationship between Ma Jiao and I is now.

If Ma Jiao and I are in a relationship, we have rarely been together since three years ago.

If Ma Jiao and I are not in a relationship, we can't forget each other until now.

This is like every man's first time, every woman's first time, it is always so impressive, even if it is not the first time for the person I love now, but I will still occasionally think of it, and even feel a sigh of relief. Fan.

"Just what?" Ma Jiao said with a smile.

But even though she was talking with a smile, I could feel that there was a bit of bitterness in her smile, maybe it was because of our relationship!

My hand slipped from Ma Jiao's, I raised my head and took a deep breath.

Now I feel guilty whether I am facing Ma Jiao or Xiao Yu.

Originally we could be together, but too many things happened later, first about Zhang Dan, then about Jin Meier, and finally about Rong Jie.

Especially Zhang Dan and Sister Rong, one gave birth to a son for me, and the other conceived a child for me.

Although none of them will marry me, I always feel that I owe them, and at the same time, my children.

I can't avoid these things. When I'm with Zhang Dan, I was raped by Zhang Dan.

Being with Jin Meier is self-defeating.

Being with Sister Rong is to strengthen my position in the entire group.

Maybe this is what people say, people can't help themselves in the rivers and lakes!

"Alas! Unexpectedly, we have fallen into a quagmire before we talked!" Ma Jiao said with great emotion.

What Ma Jiao said was not wrong, our conversation did fall into a quagmire.

I sighed and said, "Let's go to my room first!"

Ma Jiao nodded and followed me into the room.

After closing the door, Ma Jiao suddenly hugged me from behind, and said softly, "Zhang Nan, have you missed me these past few years? Have you ever thought of me in your heart?"

How could I not have thought about Ma Jiao, I have thought about it on many occasions.

For example, I was surrounded by people from Lei's family, and I thought to myself, if I die, I don't know if Ma Jiao will cry for me.

For example, when I saw a beautiful woman, Ma Jiao's smile would involuntarily flash in my heart.

Another example is that I just finished my business with Zhang Dan or Jin Meier, but Ma Jiao suddenly came to my mind.

Although I know that this is a different dream in the same bed, and it is not a good thing for Zhang Dan or for others, but I really thought of it.

I used to tell myself not to think like this, but I couldn't help myself.

Maybe this is the power of first love!Even if you are surrounded by people who love you deeply, even if you love the people around you deeply, you will think of her first love for no reason.

I nodded with difficulty.

The reason why it was difficult was because I felt sorry for both Zhang Dan and the others, as well as Ma Jiao. This kind of guilt in my heart made me very painful sometimes.

"Zhang Nan, I really miss you too!" Ma Jiao said behind me.

"However, although I miss you, I can't accept your current living conditions! You have affairs with too many women, and even have children with them!"

Ma Jiao's understanding of love is different from others, she is a very pure person.

She feels that her love should be like mandarin ducks, there is only one in her life, and she only loves one in her life.

She can't accept the chaotic relationship between men and women, especially people like me.

In fact, I used to think the same as Ma Jiao, I just wanted to be with the woman I love the most and live a life like a wild crane.

But this is impossible!People are in the rivers and lakes, the path you take is not up to you to decide.

But Zhang Dan and Jin Meier took this kind of thing lightly, because there were too many people like this around them.

Zhang Dan and Shen Rui used to drive a KtV, which was full of all kinds of filth, so they felt that the relationship between men and women was abnormal and normal.

Jin Mei'er was used to those young masters in big families, so she naturally thought so too.

Those young masters from big aristocratic families, which ones are not playing around outside, there are not ten women around them, there are eight, and some even play celebrities.

In Jin Meier's eyes, no matter how a man plays outside, as long as he treats his wife well when he returns home, he is a good man.

"Zhang Nan, now that you have a child, I can't force you to do anything! And Zhang Dan has always been nice to me! So I'm going to..."

Ma Jiao didn't say the latter words, she hesitated.

I know what Ma Jiao means, but she is too embarrassed to say it.

"Zhang Nan, I'm going to hand me... give me... to you!" In the end, Ma Jiao still spoke her mind.

I was very surprised, since Ma Jiao said just now that we could not be together, why did she still hand her over to me? This seems very contradictory!

Is it...

I suddenly thought of a possibility. Ma Jiao must want to leave her most precious thing to me, just like the show on TV.

I watched a TV series before, in which a girl was forced to marry a wealthy family as a concubine. Before getting married, she gave her body to the person she loved the most.

Could it be that Ma Jiao wants to learn that too?

But if Ma Jiao does this, she will not only be sorry for herself, but also for me.

I can't do that, it's against my principles, and it would make me guilty.

I shook my head and said very firmly: "Ma Jiao, you can't do this! What you do will only make our relationship more and more chaotic!"

If I get Ma Jiao, I will definitely feel guilty, just like I did with Zhang Dan.

I actually rejected Zhang Dan before, but after that incident, especially after Zhang Dan was pregnant with my child, to be honest, I didn’t reject her at all, but accepted her, and even regarded her as a One of the most important women in my heart.

Ma Jiao turned to me and said very firmly: "No! I made this decision!"

After finishing speaking, Ma Jiao stood on tiptoe, closed her eyes and kissed me.

Seeing Ma Jiao's youthful and beautiful appearance, I really want to have sex with her in bed, but I know I can't do that.

Doing that would not only make me fall into endless guilt, but also harm her.

I stretched out my hand to cover Ma Jiao's mouth, sighed and said, "Ma Jiao, forget it! We're not...not..."