[Douluo Dalu] Hu Liena is reborn

I don’t know which day or night it is, or how many people are passing by me.There seemed to be countless people buzzing in my ears, urging me to let go of her body and bury it as soon as possible. They told me that she had passed away and should not be forced to keep it.

But I don't understand it, nor do I understand it.Obviously she is not dead yet, her body is still warm, and her heart is still beating. Why, why does everyone tell me she is dead?Obviously, obviously her face is still so fresh, as if she is about to open her eyes and call me "Xue'er" with a smile.

I stared blankly at her face, trying hard and desperately to carve her into my mind, wanting to remember her forever.I stared at her face, not wanting to miss a single moment. I was afraid that if I missed the moment, she would wake up and call me "Xue'er" with a smile.

The yin and yang changed day and night. I don’t know how long it took, but I kept holding her and hugging her like this.I was completely unaware of the people coming and going around me. It seemed that many people passed by and many people left. There seemed to be cheers and shouts resounding in the sky, and there seemed to be lamentations for the failure of the war.But what does this have to do with me?It didn't happen before, it doesn't happen now, and it won't happen in the future...A world without you has nothing to do with me.

So what about prosperity?What about destruction?The world without you is gray and meaningless.It seems that I have been following your eyes, your footsteps, and your figure all my life. Everything I do is just to attract your attention. I hope your loving eyes can fall on me. I hope your Some of the energy can be allocated to me.Even if there is only a trace, a hair, or a moment, I will be greatly satisfied. I will cheer in my heart and secretly for a long, long time. I will take it out in the middle of the night whenever I am lonely and helpless because I am alone undercover in the Tiandou Empire. Comfort yourself.

However, no.Your energy is always allocated to the affairs of Wuhun Palace, your loving eyes always fall on that fox, you always look at me with eyes full of disgust and hatred, and you never want to ask me anything. matter.I will always take the initiative to deliver news and official documents to you in order to get your cold and businesslike reply.

I can only secretly watch you teach Hu Liena with love and smile in the corner, watch you be happy because of her growth and progress, watch you be full of worries because she went to the killing city, watch you because of what she has done. Sadness and self-blame due to inhuman love.I just secretly watched you feel happy, angry, sad and happy because of everything about her, but for me, you will always only have the hatred and disgust in your eyes that cannot be concealed.

My hot and beating heart has become cold because you hurt me again and again.I told myself over and over again that you are not my mother. I only have one relative, and that is my grandfather.

Over and over again, year after year, in countless painful days and nights, I told myself this to relieve the pain and confusion in my heart.Slowly, I seem to really believe it. I believe that I no longer care about you. I believe that my heart will no longer beat for you. I believe that you will no longer cause ripples in my heart.If you tell too many lies, you will deceive yourself. I didn’t believe it before, but now I do.Even if the base is as real as an iron wall, what is fake is still fake, and ultimately it is self-deception.

When that drop of Guanyin's tear shot towards you, my heart was swallowed up by unprecedented panic.I instinctively and desperately rushed towards you and pushed you away. At that moment, I didn't think about anything else. All I thought about was that I couldn't lose you.Even if you don't acknowledge me, even if you don't love me, even if you even dislike me and hate me, I just want what I want. I just want you to live. As long as you live, nothing else matters, even the whole world.It doesn't matter if you don't recognize me, it's okay if I admit you; it doesn't matter if you don't love me, it's okay if I love you. As long as you live, none of this matters, even if it's my status or even my life.

I thought you liked strong people and power, so I went to the Tiandou Empire to lurk alone for 20 years without any complaints. I hope you can look at me a few more times when I bring the entire Tiandou Empire to you. But it failed.I had a dispute with you, and I deliberately and willfully angered you. I felt a little happy that I had succeeded, but that was fleeting.Later, I took the Nine Angel Exams and started the Angel inheritance.I feel that when I become the God of Angels and stand in front of you, you will be able to look directly at me. I will let you see how far your daughter, who has been neglected by you for many years, has grown and reached a level that no one else can in their lifetime. A position to reach and look up to, for which I also lost my grandfather.

However, I am disappointed. You have also become a god. You have become a god by yourself and through your own efforts. You are still a god who is restrained and hostile to me, the god of Rakshasa.Is this the will of God?Or is it God's will that I will never be able to reconcile with you?My heart has long been filled with bitterness, and I can’t even show a bitter smile on my face. Let’s just leave it like that. Isn’t this how the world is designed to make people happy?I won't force it anymore.So when I saw you struggling in the Shura Demonic Light, I did not hesitate to launch the strongest attack that burned the God's Palace and life force. The God's Palace has never been worth mentioning in my eyes. It just made you notice. It's just my tool. If you're not here, what's the point of leaving me alone in this world?

The God's mansion is shattered, and I am no longer qualified to participate in this battle.The moment the Shura Demonic Sword stabbed me, I felt only relief.Bibi Dong, I owe this life to you, and now I can consider it as repayment to you.I don't owe you anymore.From now on, we will have nothing to do with each other and will never meet again.

However, something unexpected happened suddenly.It is indeed as I expected, the two are unrelated and have no intersection, but it is not me and you, but you and me.

I stared blankly at your figure standing in front of me, staring blankly at you with that Shura demon sword piercing your body. My whole body was stagnant. At that moment, I didn’t have any thoughts. His mind is blank, and he just keeps asking you why in a daze.

Why did you save me, why did you save me, why why why?I asked wildly in my heart and screamed crazily in my heart why.But you didn't answer me, you just used your remaining divine power to gently drag me down, just looked at me tenderly, and just smiled at me tenderly and lovingly.Everything I had ever desired was realized at this moment, but there was no joy in my heart.If all this has to be exchanged for and at the expense of your life, then I would rather not do it. I just hope that you can live well, even if I can't get your eyes and your love.These are insignificant in the face of your life. I only hope that you can live well, even if I can only watch you secretly from the side.

I was so shocked and shocked when I found out the truth.I never thought the truth of the matter would be so sickening and dark.I suddenly thought of every quarrel and confrontation we had before, as well as that time I deliberately made you angry with your taunts.

Everything in the past was like a knife stabbing into my heart crazily and fiercely.The knife I inserted into you in the past has been returned to me doubled, several times, and a hundred times.My heart stopped beating due to myocardial infarction, my heart was pulled together, and I was painfully unable to think, speak or breathe. I really wanted to take my heart out so that I wouldn’t have to suffer so much, but I was already painfully unable to do so. Take action.

A sound of snow woke me up and pulled me out of my painful inner world.But before I could respond to her, I saw her hand lowered as she took the initiative to touch me for the first time.I quickly held her hand tightly and put her hand on my face. I cried, screamed, and desperately called her mother in response, but she could no longer hear me.For the first time, I regretted why I didn't give in earlier and call her, Mom.

I called mom over and over again until my voice became hoarse and I couldn't shout anymore.I took her body away from the person she had been attached to for her whole life, held her tightly in my arms and refused to let go.It seems that as long as I don't let go, she will never leave me. I'm deceiving myself again.I told myself over and over again that she was still alive, that she was just too sleepy and tired, so she took a rest and fell asleep. But deep down in my heart, I always knew that she was really dead, and that I was really alone in this world. There are no relatives left.I don’t want to believe it and deceive myself, but I have to believe it.So I hugged her tightly and gave up thinking and thinking. I just held her like this, and I only wanted to hold her like this.

If possible, I would like to hold her like this for the rest of my life and never be separated.Death is cruel yet merciful. It deprived me of my mother but left me alone with her.She will never leave me again