Mr. Li, Madam, she is not guilty of death

Shen Zhichu fell into fear, even she herself didn't know what she was afraid of, maybe because she was afraid that the dream was real, and that she and Li Jingshen would not make it to the end.

Shen Zhichu loves Li Jingshen, which she cannot deny. While she wants to get closer to the truth, she is also afraid of seeing the truth.

If Li Jingshen had been lying to her since the day she woke up and lost her memory, what would she do?

It's like a bird escaped from the cage with great difficulty, only to find a bigger net aimed at it after flying out, not to mention the eye-catching net, it seems that a rash move can make her annihilated in ashes.

Shen Zhichu could only comfort himself, Li Jingshen kept those things from her in order not to hurt her, all in all, Li Jingshen really loved him.

Because Shen Zhichu had frequent nightmares, Li Jingshen called Ji Shiyan over again, and they got up together at dawn.

"It's still early, why don't you get more sleep?" Li Jingshen asked.

"If you wake up, you won't be able to sleep." She hasn't slept since she was awakened by a nightmare in the middle of the night.

Li Jingshen's Adam's apple rolled, he looked at Shen Zhichu's haggard face, and couldn't help but ask tentatively, "Can you still remember the nightmare you had last night?"

Shen Zhichu shook his head: "I can't remember."

"I thought you could recover your memory..."

Shen Zhichu stared at him, and asked in a calm voice: "Then do you want me to recover my memory?"

"Just let nature take its course." Li Jingshen raised his hand to stroke her soft hair.

She nodded, and responded to Li Jingshen's words: "Well, I also think it's good to let nature take its course, forget it, after all, it's over, now that I have you, I believe you will always treat me well, no It doesn't hurt me to lie to me, does it?"

Li Jingshen's expression froze, even the hand touching her hair stopped, and his gentle expression suddenly became uneasy.

The words Shen Zhichu said seemed to have stabbed his vitals with a sharp weapon, and the pain in his chest continued to spread throughout his body. He stretched out his hand to hold Shen Zhichu in his arms, his arms trembling for some reason.

What he brought to Shen Zhichu was deception, lies, pain, and even more despair.

He can't turn back, even if there are mountains of swords and seas of fire in front of him, he has to keep going forward, even if he falls into the endless hell, he still has to drag Shen Zhichu.

"Chu Chu, I will love you well." This is his promise to her.

Love is like a thunderbolt in the chest, and even more so, the calmness of the lips and tongue. Anyone can say it, but very little can give everything for it.

Li Jingshen has a paranoid personality, and lives in an environment that lacks love all year round. He yearns for deep love and to be loved. He has had it before, but he doesn't know how to cherish it, so that he can only rely on prisoner to keep love. The method is to keep Shen Zhichu in a cage like a pet.

His love for Shen Zhichu can't be tolerant in this life, let alone let go, no matter whether he is despicable or shameless, all he wants is a Shen Zhichu...

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At the dining table, Shen Zhichu was eating breakfast absent-mindedly, it seemed as usual, but Shen Zhichu already felt that something was changing.

In the morning, Ji Shiyan came over to check on Shen Zhichu, and asked her how she was doing recently like a friend she hadn't seen for a long time.

"It's good." The two hadn't seen each other for a few weeks, and Li Jingshen didn't give Ji Shiyan a chance to chat with Shen Zhichu.

After lunch, everyone was busy with their own business. After Shen Zhichu took stomach medicine, he felt a little drowsy from the strength of the medicine.

"Go to sleep if you want to sleep."

Shen Zhichu gave a soft "um" and rubbed her foggy eyes. She usually takes a nap at this time, and sleeps whenever she can.

After watching Shen Zhichu go to bed, Li Jingshen and Ji Shiyan entered the reception room.

"Why did you call me here this time?" Ji Shiyan sat casually on a chair.

"Do you have any medicine here that can control dreams?"

Ji Shiyan looked at Li Jingshen's serious expression, and slightly stiffened his back: "What do you mean?"

"She has frequent nightmares recently, and she even called out people's names last night. I'm afraid..."

Before Li Jingshen could finish speaking, Ji Shiyan interrupted with a sneer: "You actually have a day of fear, isn't it just a nightmare? When did you become so cowardly? It's easy to dream after taking that kind of medicine."

Li Jingshen's eyelashes flickered. He is cautious in matters such as relationships, and he is always frightened. He also clearly told Ji Shiyan that Shen Zhichu would leave him as long as he regained his memory, and what he was afraid of was Shen Zhichu's departure.

Ji Shiyan asked curiously: "Whose name did she call last night? That person is very important?"

"You don't know me even if I tell you." The name that Shen Zhichu called out in his sleep was an important thing he had to admit.

Ji Shiyan understood from his expression.

"What do you need me to do?"

"The medicine she took at night feels that it has no effect. Can you prescribe other medicines that disturb the nerves, or increase the dose."

"It's impossible to increase the dose. Do you really want her to become a fool?"

"If I can keep her from leaving me, I'd rather she become a fool!" Li Jingshen almost gritted his teeth and squeezed out the last two words from his throat.

Ji Shiyan froze, looking at Li Jingshen's red eyes, he felt that he was crazy to say such words.

The harm that Li Jingshen brought to Shen Zhichu is irreparable, and the harm he said is just superficial.

"Meow~" The meowing sound from outside the door disrupted the conversation between the two of them, as well as Li Jingshen's thoughts.

Li Jingshen walked towards the door: "Anyway, whether it's hypnosis or medication, I don't want Shen Zhichu to remember everything. You'd better think of a way to make her stop dreaming..."

"It's easy to say, how can this dream be controlled..."

There were constant meowing outside the door, Li Jingshen went to the door and held the doorknob to open it, he was startled when he glanced outside, he subconsciously clenched the doorknob in his hand, his whole back was densely covered with cold sweat.

The extreme panic was as if a hand was strangling his throat, his body suddenly remained motionless as if he had been acupunctured, and his eyes were dull looking at Shen Zhichu who was standing outside the door holding the cat.

A black despair enveloped the sky, making people breathless, his throat was choked, and his eyelashes trembled slightly.

"Chuchu..." He took a step forward, as if grabbing the person in front of him.

But Shen Zhichu watched his movements, and staggered back a step while hugging the cat.

The action of taking a step back is very dazzling, which means drawing a clear line and fearing his approach.

Li Jingshen clenched his fists, unable to utter a word, he could only stand stiffly, and seemed to be hoarse for a while.

Ji Shiyan, who was still in the room, couldn't see what was going on outside the door because he was sitting in a corner, but he was a little surprised why he was standing at the door all the time.

Ji Shiyan followed: "Why are you..." He froze before he finished speaking, why is Shen Zhichu here?Didn't Li Jingshen say that she was asleep?And when was she here, and how much did she hear?

Various questions were crowded in his mind, and soon Shen Zhichu answered the questions in his heart.

"Li Jingshen, you said you wouldn't lie to me."

Li Jingshen pursed his lips with difficulty: "I..."

Shen Zhichu looked like he was about to cry or not, the tears in his eyes couldn't bear the trembling of his pupils and rolled out.

The cat in her arms seemed to feel her sadness, and stopped crying uncomfortably, and finally broke free from her arms, jumped to the ground and ran away.

"Why did you give me nerve-disturbing medicine, why must I lose my memory, even if I become a fool." At this moment, her brain was buzzing, she couldn't concentrate, and she was all stuck in what Li Jingshen said in it.

He has been lying to her all the time, tricking her into being a fool, imprisoning her here, she has thought about such a day, but she has never dared to believe that Li Jingshen, who loves her, would deceive her.

"Chu Chu, listen to my explanation, it's not what you heard..."

"Then tell me what it is!" Shen Zhichu roared loudly with red eyes, and his tense nerves suddenly ruptured, "Li Jingshen, which of your words is the truth? While saying that you love me, you will never deceive me and let me down, and at the same time I made up a lie from beginning to end, you know? I'm so scared, I'm afraid that I give my heart but live in a lie, I'm afraid that I give myself to you, but you give me a fatal blow, I'm afraid to bring me Those who hope drag me into despair!"

Shen Zhichu's voice was already choked with sobs, and she burst into tears, choking with sobs: "I have nothing... only this heart in my chest is left, do you understand?"

During this period of time, she has been deceiving herself and others. She is not afraid of having nightmares. What she is afraid of is that everything in the dream is real.

She loves Li Jingshen, and also believes that Li Jingshen loves her, but when she heard the conversation between Li Jingshen and Ji Shiyan in the reception room, her heart kept sinking into a bottomless chasm.

She clearly remembered every word he said at that time, especially the sentence: "If she can not leave me, I would rather she become a fool."

Li Jingshen stood there silently, looking at her with sad eyes, as if she had done something to hurt him.

"Tell me, which of your sentences is true and which is false?"

Shen Zhichu wiped away the tears on his face: "Is our marriage a fake? Did you forge my identity as an orphan? And what you said about the meeting, the car accident, and the relationship between us are all lies to me, right?" ?”

Shen Zhichu didn't even ask a word, and there was a tear in her heart, there was a crack in the wound that was getting bigger and bigger, bloody pain, that kind of pain wrapped her whole body.

She felt so sad, sad that the two were so close, but the connection between them was a lie, and now that the lie was broken, there was nothing left between them.

Like an air-dried stone, it looks hard on the surface but breaks when pinched.

"Chu Chu, I did all this for your own good, and for our future, you said you loved me and would never leave me." Li Jingshen stepped forward eagerly, he raised his hand, but Shen Zhichu hadn't touched yet. Then she slapped him mercilessly away from his hand.

"Don't touch me!" At this time, Shen Zhichu was like a hedgehog with thorns all over his body, subconsciously protecting himself, not caring about other people's feelings at all, just using his own thorns to stab people all over the body.

"The most disgusting thing about me is that some people wantonly control my spirit and freedom under the guise of being good for me. Such kindness is more disgusting than the maggots in the stinky gutter."

She didn't know what happened with Li Jingshen before she lost her memory, and he controlled her memory like this.

She just lost her memory, not her IQ. Since Li Jingshen was afraid of her recovering her memory, it proved that the things that happened between them had reached the point of irreversibility.

All she can guess is superficial, and there is a more terrifying truth waiting for her.

Li Jingshen frowned: "Why do you think so at the beginning? Can't you feel how good I am to you?"

"Li Jingshen, do you think I'm a fool?"

Li Jingshen looked down at her, and there seemed to be an unresolved sadness between his brows: "Don't think about it, we will be what we were before, stay by my side, don't leave me, my promise to you will never be Change, at the beginning I didn’t deny that there were lies between us, but this was just an insignificant existence in our relationship. You can act as if you didn’t hear anything and nothing happened today. Isn’t it good that we are the same as usual? "

"Zhichu, you are better than my life. If you are sad, I will be thousands of times sadder than you."

Shen Zhichu would be moved by his words before, but how dare she believe his words now.