Mr. Li, Madam, she is not guilty of death

Li Jingshen stayed in Rongcheng for three days and then went back. The villa that was burned down has been renovated.

At that time, the fire spread, and the first floor was burnt clean, but the second floor was fine, and some important things were still there. He went upstairs and returned to the bedroom where he and Shen Zhichu once slept.

He flipped through the cabinet randomly, everything was in its place, whether it was the clothes in the closet, the skin care products on the dressing table, or the jewelry in the jewelry cabinet, they were all intact, as if nothing had changed.

He opened a safe, and poured out a few envelopes from it. He opened them one by one. They were the letters of guarantee that Shen Zhichu had written during the time when Shen Zhichu lost his memory.

——"I, Li Jingshen, will never become a jealous husband. I will not be jealous indiscriminately, and I will not be bitter at any time. I will give my wife freedom, respect her, take care of her, trust her, love her and spoil her forever. From now on, I, Li Jingshen, will be generous Be generous, if you do it again, I will be a dog."

Li Jingshen clutched the envelope tightly in his hand and pressed it against his chest, the letters of guarantee were so cold that no matter how much he covered them, they couldn't cover them.

How bad is his memory? He had sworn to be good to her in front of Shen Zhichu back then, and he had made so many pledges, how could he suddenly forget it?

"I'm a dog! I'm not worthy of being a human being!" Li Jingshen raised his hand and slapped himself forcefully, calling himself a dog while beating.

The only sound in the quiet bedroom was his hoarse crying and cursing.

These few letters of assurance, written by himself, seemed to open the floodgates, and the grief poured out like a flood.

Li Jingshen got up and found the toolbox, took out a pair of pliers, pinched his nails and snapped them upwards forcefully, the nails broke off and fell off bloody pain.

And Li Jingshen didn't seem to feel the pain, and quickly pointed at the other finger, the right hand holding the pliers was trembling.

It's stupid and cheap for a big man to self-mutilate when he encounters a problem, but he has no other way, and without Shen Zhichu around, everything is meaningless.

He pulled off all the nails on his left hand, and the pliers were full of blood. He threw it away and then took out a knife and stabbed it hard at his leg, one knife after another, until his pants were stained red with blood.

Not enough... It's not enough. He wanted to taste the sins Shen Zhichu had suffered before she was born, hurt her wounds, and wanted to use this to punish himself, but he clearly knew that these were not enough, maybe even her Nothing compares.

A monitor was installed in the room, and Zhao Qian couldn't stay by Li Jingshen's side all the time, so he could only use the monitor to check his movements.

Sure enough...he only had to rest for a while, and Li Jingshen went crazy again.

Zhao Qian moved to this villa, saw Li Jingshen self-harm, and broke into Li Jingshen's room with the key.

Mr. Li secretly told him to stimulate Li Jingshen at the right time, so that he can live well.

Now Li Jingshen's appearance of neither human nor ghost, as if he didn't care about everything, Zhao Qian didn't know what to say to stimulate him.

When Zhao Qian saw the bloody incisions on his legs, he immediately felt a pain in his head, and took him to the hospital immediately after a simple treatment.

How to stimulate Li Jingshen?Only use Shen Zhichu.

When he arrived at the hospital, Zhao Qian stood aside and watched the doctor treat his wound, and said earnestly: "Mr. Li, she wants you to live well and live until you die, not to hurt yourself like this."

Alcohol iodophor was sprayed on the wound, Li Jingshen didn't even blink his brows, but when Zhao Qian mentioned Shen Zhichu, he woke up from the pain.

"She is punishing me." She knew how painful it would be for me to lose her, and life would be worse than death, but she wanted me to live until I was old and dead.

Li Jingshen looked around blankly, with an ugly smile on the corner of his mouth, but he smiled and burst into tears: "How can you make her happy?"

Zhao Qian answered him in a hoarse voice: "You have to live well."

An indescribable pain invaded Li Jingshen's body fiercely, his expression was dull, but his red eyes were like two black holes, water kept overflowing from inside and wet the ground.

"Okay, I'm alive... as she wished, don't worry, I will live until I die, and I will not let myself have an accident..." He said this to Zhao Qian, but also to himself, and reminded him The dead Shen Zhichu.

But when will he be old?

……

There is a childbirth experience device in the hospital. When Li Jingshen passed by, he found that many men were trying it.

Li Jingshen thought of Shen Zhichu's big talk in the hospital when he lost his first child.

At that time, Su Miao asked him to experience the pain of a woman's pregnancy on the childbirth experience machine. He dismissed it at the time, and even thought he was sick to try the experience of a woman giving birth.

Li Jingshen had already lined up before he knew it, and the man's screams of pain came from his ears.

He stared at a man on the experience plane with a numb expression. The man who had a playful smile at the beginning was twitching in pain on the chair before reaching level seven, and shouted, "No, stop!"

After the machine stopped, he was already covered in cold sweat, covered his stomach with a pale face and left in embarrassment.

This dissuaded a lot of people who wanted to experience the pain of childbirth. Most of the people in front of Li Jingshen came to watch the excitement. Seeing the pain of the people who went to experience it, they all gave up their thoughts and stepped back one by one.

Only Li Jingshen sat directly on it, and the staff next to him plugged in the electricity, and repeatedly asked him "Are you ready?"

Li Jingshen nodded. There are twelve grades of childbirth pain. The first six grades are okay, but the pain gets worse as you go to the back. The tubes attached to the waist of the stomach carry a current into the abdomen, and the pain gets worse as you go to the back. Twisting the knife inside, the internal organs were smashed to pieces.

Seeing the man closing his eyes and frowning, the staff asked cautiously, "Is it okay, sir?"

"Adjust to level 12." Li Jingshen gripped the armrest tightly, the veins on the back of his hand bulging, he has been experiencing level [-], as if he had stepped into the door of death, at this moment he really understood what it means to be heart-piercing, The liver and intestines are broken.

He leaned his upper body, opened his mouth and cried silently, tears slid down his cheeks into his mouth, like the juice of coptis.

The staff was startled and hurriedly turned off the machine.

Few people in the childbirth experience can try to reach level 12, let alone persist for such a long time.

"Sir, are you okay? Do you want to call a doctor for you?"

Li Jingshen opened his hazy eyes, smiled and cried: "It turns out...she is in such pain that she doesn't want to make it through..."

……

"What is uncle doing? Why is he crying so sadly?" A little boy held his mother's hand and pointed curiously.

His voice was loud, passing through the crowd to Li Jingshen's ears.

The woman quickly squatted down, grabbed her son's hand with one hand, and gently covered his mouth with the other hand, explaining: "Uncle is experiencing the pain that only girls can suffer."

The boy asked puzzledly: "Would a girl suffer so much pain?"

"Yeah, all I hope girls can be treated well in this world, son, when you grow up and meet someone you like, you must protect and treat her well, and you must hold on tight, because not everyone can always be lucky Follow the person you like."

Li Jingshen bent his waist suddenly, lying on the armrest of the childbirth experience machine, crying and retching in grief, the gauze on the five fingers of his left hand was stained red with blood, and his eyelids were flushed.

When you meet someone you like, you have to grab it hard, otherwise you will not be so lucky next time.

——He failed to hold on to Shen Zhichu.

I heard that nine out of ten loves are sad, I heard that there are ten promises and nine lies in oaths, and I heard that one person is always waiting for the one who does not return.

The old man said that dreaming three times means that the fate between you and that person is over, so Shen Zhichu is the person he wants to dream but dare not dream.

Li Jingshen's stomach problem became more and more serious, sometimes it was so severe that he couldn't sleep, he curled up on the cold bed, his rigorous brain became cloudy at this time.

He covered his dull stomach, stretched out his hand to reach the other side of the bed vaguely, murmured unconsciously: "Zhichu, do you have a stomachache? I'll warm your stomach..."

Li Jingshen loves Shen Zhichu. After Shen Zhichu's death, his body was split into two, and one of them was schizophrenic and became her, as if they were still together.

……

There is an article on the Internet about the understanding of "death", saying that people will die three times.

The first time she died, biologically she died.

The second time was when she was buried, people came to her funeral, remembering her life, she died in society.

The third time was when the last person who remembered her forgot her, and that's when she really died.

Shen Zhichu had already died twice, she didn't know when she would die the third time, she was floating in mid-air...