Mr. Li, Madam, she is not guilty of death

"Li Jingshen, you bastard, how can I feel sorry for you, I gave you my life, what do you want to do! Do you have to let me die again to be reconciled!" Shen Zhichu beat and scolded in his arms, she wished she could bite To die the man who had tortured her for most of her life.

A sharp stabbing pain came from the back of his hand, Li Jingshen let go of Shen Zhichu reflexively, he stepped back half a step, staring blankly at the two sharp blood eyes on the back of his hand.

Time seemed to be slowed down. He stared at it for a moment and then raised his head. He first looked at Shen Zhichu's red eyes, and then slowly moved down to look at the cat in her arms. Everyone stared at each other with hatred. Looking at him, as if a hug from him just now was a heinous thing.

Compared with physical pain, sometimes words hurt more, Li Jingshen had the illusion that his heart was bleeding, tears kept falling down the corners of his eyes, smearing his pale cheeks.

It hurts, it really hurts.

Even when the lung cancer attack was rescued in the emergency room, there was no such pain.

Shen Zhichu is so cruel, he really has no soft-heartedness towards him.

In the past, she would feel sorry for him for a long time when he smoked and coughed, but now he was crying in pain, blood was spilling from the corner of his mouth, and she would not change her face any more.

He wanted to tell Shen Zhichu that he had lung cancer and was dying.

"Shen Zhichu, my chest hurts..." He covered his chest and knelt on the ground, "Shen Zhichu, do you really want me? Shen Zhichu... Shen Zhichu, Shen Zhichu, Shen Zhichu... ..”

He repeated these three words repeatedly, his voice convulsed and choked, and his body convulsed with pain.

Shen Zhichu hugged the cat and looked down at him, and after a long while, he only said: "I never wanted you, why did I not want you?"

Li Jingshen really couldn't help vomiting a mouthful of blood this time, he covered his mouth, trying to swallow the blood back, but the blood couldn't stop gushing out, the wet palm spilled out from between his fingers, sticky and uncomfortable .

Perhaps the stress reaction was too great, and the tears in Li Jingshen's eyes became more and more intense.

Li Jingshen said in a hoarse voice, "Shen Zhichu...I'm sick..."

Shen Zhichu looked at Li Jingshen vomiting blood with indifferent eyes, she said coldly: "Ill? How could you be sick? You are always in good health. I have never seen you sick, but you just vomit some blood, take some medicine and you will be fine." , right? Li Jingshen?"

Listening to the familiar words, Li Jingshen's eyes were in a daze.

It turns out that evil comes with evil. The cruel words he once said to Shen Zhichu have all rebounded on him now. He knows that he is not qualified to let Shen Zhichu be with him again, but he is about to die, and his only last wish is that Shen Zhichu can be with him again. Spending more time with him proves that they once really loved each other, but Shen Zhichu refused to give him a chance for this little wish.

He wanted to tell Shen Zhichu that he was going to die, he only had two years, he was really going to die, and no one named "Li Jingshen" would pester her anymore.

Li Jingshen choked with sobs and said, "Shen Zhichu, give me a year to survive...you save...help me..."

"If you want someone to save you, you should go to the doctor instead of me." Shen Zhichu looked outside, the wound that had been scarred for three years was now torn open, she remembered the past again, she struggled in despair, and wanted someone to save her Li Jingshen's appearance made her mistakenly think that he was someone who could save her, but she didn't think that his arrival would shatter her last hope.

Shen Zhichu carefully considered what Li Jingshen said just now, he said that he was sick and had chest pains, and asked her to give him a year to live.

One year...

Shen Zhichu couldn't figure out why Li Jingshen was obsessed with it for a year. In her opinion, Li Jingshen was selfish and greedy, and if he caught her, he would trap her for a lifetime.

In her previous life, she tried to escape from him many times, but in the end, she was chained to her ankles and locked in a cage with her legs crippled.

One year is not enough for Li Jingshen.

Maybe she was pretending to be pitiful and wanted her to relax her vigilance. If she was really stupid enough to pity him and agree to his request, something would definitely happen after that year.

The blood spit out from Li Jingshen's mouth didn't look fake, Shen Zhichu touched Niannian to comfort it, then took out his mobile phone from his bag and called Zhao Qian.

The call was picked up almost as soon as the call was made, Shen Zhichu didn't make any detours for him, and said directly: "Zhao Qian, your boss vomited blood, if you don't send him to the hospital, he might die."

Compared with when Li Jingshen watched her vomit blood coldly, what she did can be said to be benevolent and righteous.

She had already spoken clearly, and before Zhao Qian could answer, Shen Zhichu hung up the call directly.

Li Jingshen, who was kneeling on the ground, staggered and stood up at this moment. He grabbed the clothes on his chest, his body leaned forward slightly, his face was as white as paper, his lips were stained red with blood, and his white face appeared even more pale. sick.

Listening to Shen Zhichu's phone call, Li Jingshen felt a pain in his chest, he wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth viciously, his face was full of pain.

"Shen Zhichu, are you really so cruel?"

heartless?Shen Zhichu laughed out loud when he heard this word, is this considered cruel?

"Li Jingshen, do you know what you were in my eyes before?" Shen Zhichu asked lightly.

"what?"

"It's a star."

Li Jingshen's heart was full of embarrassment, he always believed that Shen Zhichu loved her, even if there was no Bai Qiu, Shen Zhichu would still love him.

Shen Zhichu blinked his dry eyes, and continued: "I used to think that you are a bright star, but later I felt that it doesn't matter if you have one more or less. It's just that my vision is too small, and I mistakenly thought you were my only one. Now that I think about it, it really doesn't matter." It's ridiculous."

Time really consumes all of a person's feelings. No one suddenly doesn't love you, it's just that you suddenly discovered it.

After listening to Shen Zhichu's words, Li Jingshen paused for breath, his haggard face lost all the arrogance it once had.

In fact, the saddest thing is not that she doesn't like you anymore, but that you obviously got her back then, but because of hurt, she gave up on you.

Li Jingshen didn't know what he should do with this relationship?What to do, who can tell him?

Being far away is afraid of strangers, being close is afraid of annoying, less is afraid of indifference, more is afraid of being entangled, leaving regrets, not leaving is torture, how difficult the relationship is.

"I am going home."

For Shen Zhichu, the dilapidated small apartment four or ten minutes away was her home, but as for him... Without Shen Zhichu, he would be a nomad everywhere.

Shen Zhichu hugged the cat and walked far away around Li Jingshen, the sun was shining outside, she walked into the light without stopping for a moment.

Li Jingshen was devastated, staring at Shen Zhichu's heartless back.

What he was sure of was that even if he fell to the ground and vomited blood to death, she would not turn around.

He couldn't help but think of Shen Zhichu six years ago. At that time, Shen Zhichu hadn't been diagnosed with stomach cancer. He was obedient to him, always greeted his impatience with a smile, and prepared three meals a day no matter how busy he was. She knew he The problem is that many people are obsessed with cleanliness. The clothes are never in the hands of the servants. She washes them by hand. Every time after washing, she specially uses incense to burn them, and hangs them neatly in the closet.

She was actually in poor health, but he never asked and didn't think about it, forcing her to go to bed made her feel uncomfortable but she never refused, enduring the pain, biting blood and swallowing it into her mouth.

For such a strong person, he always scolded her for being useless.

Shen Zhichu is not useless at all, but unfortunately he understood too late.

In the past, the soft temper that he would never refuse was just because he still loved him, but now that he doesn't love him, naturally he won't be timid.

Shen Zhichu's figure gradually became blurred in his eyes, he stretched out his hands and walked forward in a pretentious manner.

He didn't want to miss her... but God didn't like it.

"Shen Zhichu, Bai Qiujing is not the person you think, Bai Qiu is already dead!"

Shen Zhichu's steps paused, and he continued to walk forward, but his calm heart was still disturbed.

She was clearly prepared in her heart that Bai Qiujing was not Bai Qiu, but it still hurt to hear the "truth" from Li Jingshen's mouth.

It turned out that for the first time in her life, she still recognized the wrong person.

........

Zhao Qian kept watching upstairs, and he didn't go downstairs until Shen Zhichu called him.

He took the anticancer medicine and got a glass of water on the first floor.

Li Jingshen had just been discharged from the hospital, and his health was still not well, so he couldn't stand the slightest bit of pain.

He stood leaning against the door, the blood on his fingertips had dried, and his body trembled indistinctly.

Zhao Qian walked to him and handed the medicine, Li Jingshen coughed twice: "I don't want to take it."

"If you don't eat it, you will die."

With trembling hands, Li Jingshen took the two pills from Zhao Qian's hand and threw them into his mouth.

Zhao Qian handed over the water, he stretched out his hand and pushed it away, chewed and swallowed the medicine directly, he had just vomited blood, his throat was sticky and uncomfortable, it was difficult to swallow for a while, the medicine did not enter the stomach directly, but stuck In the throat, the bitterness slowly evaporates.

Li Jingshen frowned uncomfortably, and his facial features were twisted together. It turned out that anti-cancer drugs are so bitter. How did Shen Zhichu, who was so afraid of the pain back then, take it for three years?

It was too bitter... The medicine slowly dissolved, and the base of his tongue felt bitter, and Li Jingshen retched uncontrollably, and almost spat out the medicine.

He covered his mouth, tears streaming from the corners of his eyes.

He didn't do anything, he just took some medicine, but he broke out in a layer of cold sweat, his head was dizzy, and the picture in front of him became more and more blurred.

It's so cold, outside of the body, the coldest place is the heart, like a big opening in the ribs, the cold air penetrates in bursts, freezing the internal organs, and the whole body is aching from the cold.

Zhao Qian supported Li Jingshen to sit on the sofa with one hand. As soon as he touched the sofa, he collapsed. The tall figure curled up on the sofa, trembling all over.

Li Jingshen was dazed in pain. He used to lock Shen Zhichu on the balcony with handcuffs and made her kneel on the shards of glass all night. Was Shen Zhichu at that time as cold and in pain as he is now?

Shen Zhichu was right.

Back then, he bullied her unscrupulously because she liked him, so that he pushed her further and further away.

He used to have everything Shen Zhichu had, but now even if he was dying, she would never look at him again.

Li Jingshen didn't know how long he could last. The doctor said that he could live for two or three years in this condition. Now, his body is not dead, but his heart is dead, and he doesn't know whether he will die first or go crazy first.

..........

It takes 40 minutes to go back to the small apartment from Yuyuan under normal circumstances, and it takes about an hour if there is a traffic jam on the road.

Unfortunately, on the way back, Shen Zhichu encountered a traffic jam. The driver saw that he was a novice on the road. He stopped and paused, making his stomach churn.

Coupled with some physical discomfort, Shen Zhichu felt a little motion sick, holding Niannian with one hand, and propping his forehead against the car window with the other.

The driver glanced at the woman behind him from the rearview mirror, maybe he also felt that his driving skills were a little bad, he showed embarrassment on his face, and wanted to talk to him for a while to improve his goodwill, so that he wouldn't give one star when he got out of the car Bad review.

"Hey, where did you pick up this cat? It's all bald."

"I didn't pick it up."

"Could it be adopted from a pet rescue home?"

Shen Zhichu didn't talk to her, because she was unwell, her eyebrows were furrowed all the time, and her eyes were also closed, making it difficult for people to see her face clearly.

Seeing that she didn't talk to her, the driver said to himself in front of him: "If you adopted this cat, you chose the wrong one. Look at the old wounds all over its body. It seems that this cat has been abused and has many diseases. It can't survive. long."

Shen Zhichu opened his eyes: "Can you drive well?"

The driver shut his mouth quickly when he heard that her tone was not very good, but he still couldn't help but glanced at the cat and muttered in his heart: "It's so ugly."