I don't deserve your love

"She won't let herself have an accident, don't forget, she is now a mother of four children."

"I'm afraid that she will suddenly think about it, thinking that the Fu family will treat the child well, and then..."

Ouyang Ping had never been so panicked about Zhuo Jian.

But recently she always had a dream, dreaming that Zhuo Jian fell from a high place.

At that time, Zhuo Jian's father had an accident. It was said that the Fu family took care of Zhuo Jian and she did not show up. When they met again later, she finally knew how the Fu family took care of Zhuo Jian, and she became nervous about Zhuo Jian again.

"No, we have to think in a better place."

Li Yuqing comforted her.

"In three days, if she still doesn't give me any news, I'll go to her and don't stop me then, okay?"

Ouyang Ping looked at Li Yuqing and talked to him very seriously.

"Ah."

-

Zhuo Jian did not return to China for a whole month.

But she gives the kids gifts they love and visits the big shots they've always wanted to visit.

When she went back, she was already in the frail figure of that time, but her complexion was not bad.

She didn't see Fu Yanye, she went to wait for the children before school, and then drove them directly to the TV station's apartment.

"Mommy, I want to change my English teacher."

After dinner, Cheng Cheng, who was playing Lego with her younger brothers, suddenly said this to Zhuo Jian who was working overtime on the sofa.

Zhuo Jian looked at the two of them while looking at the notebook, and asked him curiously, "What's the matter?"

"She always looks at Dad that way."

"What kind of look is that?"

Seeing his son frowning, Zhuo Jian had already guessed it, but couldn't help but want to hear his son's explanation.

"That is, she wants to be Dad's girlfriend."

Cheng Cheng thought for a long time before she could come up with these words.

Zhuo Jian nodded after hearing this, and adjusted the black frame, "Do you think your father will let her be your girlfriend?"

"will not."

Cheng Cheng said.

"Papa said no woman could take him away, but Mommy, I just want you to sit next to Papa. I don't like the way those women look at Papa."

Chengcheng continued to talk like a child.

After Zhuo Jian heard this, her nose was already sore.

After thinking about it, she made a serious decision: "Well, let's change it."

"Really? Mommy, go tell Dad."

Chengcheng was suddenly very happy.

When Zhuo Jian heard that he was looking for Fu Yanye, she immediately became vigilant, "I won't go, you say it yourself."

"Huh? I dare not, Dad doesn't believe what I say at all."

Chengcheng suddenly looked aggrieved.

"..."

Zhuo Jian nodded, thinking of Fu Yanye's suspicious nature, she thought for a while and said, "Then don't worry about it, I'll take care of it."

"Okay, Mommy, you can find me a male teacher, and we can exercise together."

"it is good."

Zhuo Jian agreed.

Cheng Cheng continued to play with her younger brothers. A WeChat message came in on Zhuo Jian's phone. She picked it up and opened it. It was Su Bai's hair, and Fu Yanye was drinking in Fanxing.

Zhuo Jian paid no attention to him, looked at him and put down the phone again.

Su Bai didn't send anything else, but the phone was quiet all the time, thinking about it, he murmured to the drinker next to him: "Why is there no movement at all, I heard that I'll be back this afternoon."

Su Bai didn't know what happened to them in other places.

Friends in the city, Fu Yanye didn't say a word.

Everyone just knew that they had met in other places, because his recent air pressure was too low and guessed that there was a more serious problem between him and Zhuo Jian.

Seeing that he was still silent, Su Bai was just smoking one cigarette after another between his fingers, and seemed to understand something, so he turned on the phone and looked for Zhuo Jian's number and said, "Ask me if you want to come out for a drink, Ming Mei Said she was able to drink quite well afterwards."

Zhuo Jian answered late, but her voice was calm.

"Hello, Brother Su Bai."

Zhuo Jian was thinking about the reason for his phone call, his voice was as calm as a faint wind in the dark space.

"Sister, I heard that you are back, are you coming out to have a drink with your brothers?"

Su Bai looked at Fu Yanye and asked her.

"My sister has a bad stomach recently, so I can't drink."

Zhuo Jian was unhurried.

Su Bai looked at Fu Yanye again, and everyone else looked at him too.

Fu Yanye seemed to be okay, he just shut himself in a closed dark world.

Su Bai got up, walked out, and said to her after closing the door: "What's the matter with you and Yan Ye? Yan Ye has been in a bad state for the past few days, and he burned his hands just now from smoking."

"To a man whose words don't count, to a man who doesn't trust me, brother, I don't think I know the man very well."

When Zhuo Jian heard that he finally mentioned Fu Yanye, she was not polite.

Su Bai scratched his eyebrows after hearing this, he really didn't understand.

What a good-natured Zhuo Jian, she is gentle and gentle, a good girl who has always been so sensible.

Even saying such a thing can't make people angry. I just feel that the person in the private room must have done something disappointing again.

Su Bai hung up the phone, went back and sat down with his trouser legs up, and said helplessly, "Have you misunderstood again?"

"She said that?"

Fu Yanye finally raised his eyes and opened his mouth.

"Not really, I suppose."

Su Bai returned to him.

Yan Zheng, Zhao Heng, and Zhao Lin were all watching, waiting for his answer.

Fu Yanye was inexplicably upset when he thought of that day, and leaned back with his broad back.

"what did she say?"

Not long after, Fu Yanye finally couldn't help asking Su Bai again.

He wanted to know, in detail, their conversation.

Su Bai didn't know how to tell him for a while.

-

In the middle of the night, when the children were all asleep, she opened the balcony window and lit a cigarette, but she took a puff and held it between her fingers, leaning against the window and looking at the starry sky outside.

He doesn't plan to divorce, and she can't live in a muddle like before.

It's not that he doesn't love her, it's just that there is little trust between them.

Then, she will survive in it.

Make yourself happy and happy as much as possible.

She took another puff of cigarette, her beautiful eyes turned from the sky full of stars to the dim downstairs.

A Romeo was parked there.

Zhuo Jian looked at the car, and after a while, finally turned around.

She was still leaning against the window sill with her scarred elbow, everything in front of her was unknown, but familiar.

She looked down at the cigarette between her fingers, and after an unknown amount of time, she smiled lightly.

For him, she had never taken the pain seriously.

When she was young, she listened to others saying that love doesn't hurt too much, but her eyes were only on running with him.

What is pain?

For him, death is fine.

Now she feels that she was ridiculous when she was a child.

When she grew up, she wanted to hide, but he said he wanted a wedding, he said he never liked Lin Ruxiang, he said he liked her.

She was sweet once, and then also sang about the taste of blood rushing down her throat.

Some people are very brave, the harder they are, the more they love.

And now, it's not that she is not brave, she just doesn't like to face difficulties in a relationship.

She would rather live alone, she will adjust, she will find something to make herself happy, and she will no longer want to waste too much time on a man.

If loving someone is so tiring and painful, forget it.

Even if that person is Fu Yanye.