I don't deserve your love

She was firm, comforting herself, it was just a trivial matter, not worth worrying about, not worth being sad about.

There are still so many things to do in this life, don't be sad for a thing that shouldn't be sad.

After all, if this child is left behind, she may be plunged into darkness for the rest of her life.

She suddenly thought, what if she stays?

But she won't be a good mother, she can't even take care of herself, such a bad life, will giving birth to him make him suffer with her?

He can't even meet his own father.

He is just an illegitimate child, a child from a single-parent family, how many stares and ridicules will he suffer?

Forget it, let him go.

I also let myself go.

Still a simple person, no worries, and no need to be so tired.

She thought, then bowed her head and walked into the hospital.

She wanted to find Zhuo Jian, but after thinking about it, she decided to go alone and come out alone.

In her life, she doesn't want to drag others down.

There are many things that have to be borne by one person.

She walked in with firm steps, and she ignored the phone ringing during the period.

She had put on her cap and mask before entering the hall. It was true that more people should not know about this matter.

After entering the elevator, the phone was still ringing, and someone looked at her. She nodded apologetically and immediately took it out to turn off the mute.

It's Feng Ying.

It turned out to be Feng Ying.

Her heart beat faster.

Feng Ying wouldn't know about this, would he?

Zhuo Jian probably wouldn't tell anyone, even Fu Yanye.

But what is Feng Ying doing on the phone at this time?

She looked at the string of numbers nervously, and finally arrived at the obstetrics and gynecology department, she was relieved.

It's just that after she stepped out of it, what did she see in the long corridor?

"How did you think I was pregnant?"

The woman laughed at him, but her eyes were tender.

Jian Qian seemed to have stepped into an illusion that did not belong to her.

She forgot to look away and just stared at the two of them.

The man was wearing a suit and leather shoes, and he smiled very nicely, "If it is, I will marry you in sooner, and the Feng family will have a future."

"Don't lie to me. You just want to give your old man an explanation. It's true to marry me back, and it's true that the colorful flags are fluttering outside."

There was shrewdness in the woman's eyes, but the two of them knew each other very well.

"you know me."

Feng Ying smiled, held her shoulders, and turned away unintentionally.

Jian Qian only showed her two eyes, and she was wearing sportswear, which was tightly packed.

However, the smile on his face was reflexively put away.

The woman looked in the direction he was looking, but couldn't see clearly, and couldn't understand.

It's a very slender girl, coming to obstetrics and gynecology?Still alone?

"People you know?"

the woman asked him.

Feng Ying smiled again, "I don't know."

He hugged the woman and walked towards the elevator, passing her by.

At that moment, Jian Qian smiled on her hidden face.

Fortunately, fortunately, she was smart enough not to worry too much.

That's fine.

She praised herself silently in her heart, and then bit the bullet and entered the obstetrics and gynecology department.

"Oh, those young couples seem to be pretty good at first glance, look at them flirting all the time."

"That's right, how long has it been? I'm anxious to see if I'm not pregnant. I must really want a child."

"Hey, you're so talented and beautiful, if you have a child, you must be so beautiful."

Two doctors are chatting.

"Excuse me, I want to have an abortion."

"..."

Although she was polite, the two doctors still looked at her and did not speak for a long time.

They have seen too many girls who have had abortions, and there are all kinds of girls.

It's just that it's rare to see her wrapped so tightly.

"How many months?"

The doctor still showed his attitude later and asked seriously.

"A few months? I don't quite remember."

She held back for a long time, but couldn't remember.

"Do a B-ultrasound first, and then think about when was the last time you had your period. You won't even forget the date of your period."

"What does this have to do with surgery?"

Jian Qian was simply puzzled.

"The first time? Of course it has something to do with it. It won't work if the days are too short, and it won't work if the days are too long."

The doctor said that he had already made an order, "Take it for an examination, and then come to me."

She went forward to take the order, for some reason, it was very tight.

After she left, the doctor chatted again, "Young girl now, you really don't love yourself."

"That's right, if Mom and Dad know about this, they will be so distressed and angry."

"..."

She didn't go far, but just silently grabbed the list.

She went to the floor where the inspection was done, and there were many people there. When they saw a slender girl coming, they all looked at her curiously.

She was more nervous and buried her head lower.

"Ah."

Suddenly bumping into the wall, she immediately raised her head in a panic.

I thought I accidentally bumped into someone else.

Well, it can barely be considered careless.

"what happened?"

With a cold face, he took the list directly from her hand.

At this moment, Jian Qian's heart beat so fast that it was about to burst out.

He looked at the words on the list, his brows gradually tightened, and then he looked at her again, "What do you mean?"

"..."

A big rock in Jian Qian's heart could not be dropped for a long time, and she did not dare to speak nonsense, not understanding what he meant by this voice.

It's not that he can't read words, even if he is a professional, but there are a few words on the list that are very clear.

"you are pregnant?"

"..."

She still didn't dare to take a breath. After he said that you are pregnant, many people looked at them, and she covered his mouth reflexively.

"Oh, I said why didn't answer the phone suddenly, so that's how it is."

He looked at her mockingly, then took her hand and stuffed the list back into her hand.

"It has to be dealt with cleanly, and I will pretend that I don't know."

Feng Ying completely turned cold, and left after speaking.

In Jian Qian's only big watery eyes that were exposed, the sky had already fallen, and all kinds of emotions rushed through in an instant.

What does he mean?

She looked at his back and thought, does he approve of her killing the child?

He is so indifferent.

It's like the baby couldn't be born at all.

Yes, it is impossible to be born.

The list in her hand was blown away by a gust of wind blowing from nowhere, and she was still looking at his back and couldn't turn her head.

"Girl, girl?"

"Hey girl, your list is flying."

"Ah? Thank you."

Her heart no longer knew where it went, but she quickly grabbed the list and followed it.

She is like a clown, being stared at by everyone, and then constantly chasing her.

But she couldn't catch up no matter what, and the tears had already flowed down under the brim of her hat like a bank bursting.

What's up with her?

There's nothing to cry about.

She continued to chase until the list stopped in front of a pair of expensive black leather shoes, and was easily stepped under.

She finally didn't have to chase after it anymore, and she didn't have to make a fool of herself, but she couldn't get it out.