fleeting years live up to your love

He wanted to make up for her with his whole life, and he even felt that this life was too short and not enough.

"Yaoyao."

He buried his face deeply on her shoulder and murmured in a very soft and lazy tone.

Jian Yao's whole body froze.

This is not the first time he called her Yaoyao, he actually called her that all the time when he was a student.

She has heard his magnetic voice call her Yaoyao countless times.

Only later, when he married her and hated her, did he change his address and call her by her first name.

"What did you call me?"

He smiled deeply, "Yaoyao, you are my Yaoyao."

She suddenly lied in his arms, and could feel him holding her tighter.

His lips fell on her shoulders, lightly, but very hot, making her dizzy from the heat.

She really wanted to push him away, but her body no longer obeyed her orders.

He raised his head, and the hand wrapped around her waist caressed her flushed cheeks, his knuckle fingers carried her familiar temperature, and gently stroked her eyebrows, nose and lips.

"Will you give it to me?"

She froze slightly, "What?"

"I want you."

Her heart tightened, and she was still in a daze. The man couldn't wait to bend down and lift her up.

With the wind on his feet, he strode like meteors, rushed to the bed in a few steps, and threw her on the bed.

She didn't have a chance to get up, the man's body weighed down heavily.

The tenderness in his eyes is still there, but there is more wildness in it.

He lay on her body, holding her waist with one hand, and cupping her cheek with the other, the kisses that fell were as airtight as a gust of wind.

His kiss was so aggressive that her mind went blank for a moment.

She fell, lost her mind in his domineering yet gentle kiss...

She couldn't remember how long his kiss lasted, but the sudden ringtone of her mobile phone woke her up abruptly.

She suddenly realized that she was crazy, and she let Fu Shengnian hold her down, touch her, and kiss her.

"No."

She pushed him away forcefully, and when he was unprepared, he was caught off guard by her push, and a look of astonishment flashed across his expression.

"Yaoyao?"

"You don't touch me."

"I thought you allowed..."

"I won't allow it."

She hurriedly got up, concealing her embarrassment, while arranging the messy clothes on her body, she got out of bed, took a few quick steps, and took off the bag hanging from the coat rack.

Taking out the mobile phone from the bag, seeing that the caller ID was Gu Xiang, she adjusted her breath and answered.

"What do you want to eat tonight? I'm shopping in the supermarket."

She replied lightly: "It's all right."

"I'll make you some broth to help you replenish."

"Replenish it? I'm fat like a pig."

"It's not fat, it's just a little rounder, and you're not called fat, but sexy, understand?"

Jian Yao laughed in line with Gu Xiang's teasing, but she didn't think about what to eat at night. She looked at Fu Shengnian who had already got up. The man looked calm and straightened the collar of his shirt, as if he had nothing just happened before.

"Eat anything."

She perfunctorily said a few words to Gu Xiang and hung up the phone.

"Gu Xiang is coming back soon, you go first."

Fu Shengnian didn't speak, he took out a pack of cigarettes from his trousers pocket, smoked one and bit it in his mouth, skillfully lit the cigarette with a lighter, and took a sharp puff.

Blue-white smoke lingered around his fingertips.

His brows gradually wrinkled, and his face became a little ugly.

"Don't smoke in my room."

He hummed softly, walked to the window, and threw out the cigarette he had taken a puff. Turning his head, he stared at Jian Yao's blushing face, her thin lips slightly hooked.

"I know you still love me."

"I don't love you anymore." Jian Yao said without confidence.

Although her reason overcame her emotions, the way Fu Shengnian kissed her just now and the familiar smell on him that made her almost crazy flashed over and over again in her mind.

She must not make such a mistake again, and must not give him a chance to see through the stitches.

"Then I'll make you fall in love with me again."

The man's eyes were deep, and his tone sounded as light as the wind, but she could hear the firmness in his words.

"I don't love you anymore, how can I fall in love again."

"I don't believe you don't love me."

The past ten years, no, 11 years to be exact.

She only had him in her heart, and only him in her eyes. Her world was once occupied by him. This kind of love can't be said to be let go.

"I know I hurt you, I was stupid, I was stupid, I didn't know people, but I love you, I have always loved you, not Jian Shi, not anyone, but you."

This is the second time he has said he loves her.

Every word was sonorous and forceful, like a heavy hammer, hitting her heart hard.

"too late."

It's too late for him to say anything now.

His belated love could not restore the injuries she suffered, let alone their dead child.

"Please leave, Gu Xiang is really coming back soon, she probably doesn't want to see you here."

She turned, her back to him.

Looking at him more, she was afraid that she would not be able to help but want to keep him.

He walked towards her stubbornly and hugged her tightly from behind.

"Remember, I, Fu Shengnian, only love you in my life. From birth to death, you are the only woman."

She froze and let him hold her.

His words echoed in his ears, his thoughts were in a mess, and his heart ached.

If such a beautiful word had been told to her earlier, their ending would not be what it is now.

She stood there blankly, her heart was broken, and it took her a long time to recover.

The hand wrapped around her waist was withdrawn at some point, and the people behind her also left, but the familiar aura was still lingering around her, and it didn't leave for a long time.

Her eyes were red, and tears were streaming down her face.

"I called you several times, didn't you hear?"

Gu Xiang stood outside the door, suspiciously looking at Jian Yao whose back was facing the door.

She stepped forward and patted Jian Yao's shoulder lightly, she didn't move, she lowered her head, not knowing what she was doing.

Noticing that Jian Yao's shoulders were trembling slightly, she suddenly became a little nervous, and hurriedly pulled her towards her.

Seeing that her face was full of tears, her eyes were red and swollen from crying, and her lips were tightly pressed so as not to cry out, Gu Xiang was heartbroken and hugged her.

"What happened, why are you crying?"

"My heart hurts."

The pain was almost suffocating.

"Are you uncomfortable? Do you want to go to the hospital?"

"The doctor can't cure it."

Gu Xiang was stunned, and lowered his head to help her wipe away her tears, but her eyes were like a broken faucet, and the tears fell in strings, which couldn't be stopped.

She suddenly seemed to realize something, and asked her angrily: "Are you missing Fu Shengnian again?"

"Yes, I miss him, I think about him every day, I love him, I want to go back to him, but I can't forget my dead child, I hate myself for being worthless, I have to remind myself every day that it's all because He can keep himself awake."

With a hoarse voice, Jian Yao roared heart-piercingly.

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The update is here, and it broke my defense...