fleeting years live up to your love

She froze in place until the prison guard came to pull her away, and then she came back to her senses.

Jiang Wei left the Women's Prison, and was worrying about how he would go back without driving. He thought it was unlikely that Shen Yi would be waiting for him outside, but he was surprised to find Shen Yi's car parked not far in front after walking a few steps.

The man was sitting in the driver's seat with the window open, one arm resting outside the window, and a cigarette between his slender fingers.

He froze for a few seconds, then quickened his pace and ran over.

Pulling open the co-driver's door, he had just gotten into the car, before the seat belt was fastened, Shen Yi threw away the cigarette in his hand, and stepped on the accelerator hard.

The car drove, because it was not in the urban area, the speed was extremely fast.

"Are you really going to sue?"

Shen Yi hummed, "I won't let Xiao Chunxia go this time, I have to let her know that beating someone is against the law, otherwise that old shrew won't have a good memory."

Jiang Wei didn't speak, he didn't know what else to say, he was very disappointed with Gu Xiang.

It was already three o'clock in the afternoon when the car drove into the city, and he asked Shen Yi to take him downstairs to his residence.

When he got home, he stared at the deserted living room in a daze for a while, then sat on the sofa and turned on the air conditioner.

With the cool wind blowing, his heart gradually became cold.

In the past, he thought countless times that one day he and Gu Xiang could have a good result, even if she had to serve three years in prison, he was still willing to wait.

But what Gu Xiang said today surprised him.

She was so obsessed, so paranoid that he felt powerless to save her.

He sat on the edge of the sky to wipe the darkness, thought carefully for a long time, and finally got up and entered the study.

Opening the drawer of the desk, he took out a black leather notebook that he regarded as a treasure. This notebook has been used since he was in college.

It's very thick, it records his thoughts, his love for Gu Xiang, and his crush on her.

What he has cherished for many years, now, he feels that this should not remain in his life, the past will eventually be thrown away one day, it is time to look forward.

He dug out the packing bag from the cabinet, wrapped the notebook layer by layer, called the courier, and mailed the notebook directly to the women's prison.

It was already night when Gu Xiang got the package.

She opened the notebook, saw Jiang Wei's name, and immediately recognized that it was Jiang Wei's handwriting. His handwriting was as delicate as his own.

Turning over the title page, she found that it was Jiang Wei's diary, and was surprised that he sent the diary to her.

The first diary was Jiang Wei who had just entered university for half a month. It recorded that he suffered from severe insomnia. He couldn't sleep and sneaked out of the dormitory. He wanted to run on the playground. He happened to see a girl who was still running laps on the playground because she was punished.

That girl is her.

She smiled helplessly. It happened a long time ago, and she didn't remember why she was punished at that time.

"I saw her run around and around, sweating profusely, suddenly she didn't want to run, and she had to take a shower after running, which was troublesome.

Then I found a place to sit down, watched her run, listened to the rhythmic footsteps, and looked at the running figure. I fell asleep, and when I opened my eyes the next day, a group of people surrounded me and asked me why I was sleeping On the playground..."

She patiently turned page after page, and she was mentioned on each page.

"I seem to like her. She joined the Youth Volunteer Group yesterday, and I also filled out the application form for joining the group today."

"I went to the nursing home with her, read books with the old people, and made dumplings for the old people... She smiled very happily. Her smile has an infectious power, which can make people feel happy."

"Today in the cafeteria, I mustered up the courage to sit opposite her. She looked up at me and smiled at me."

"She fainted from hypoglycemia. I hurriedly carried her to the infirmary. Before she woke up, I slipped away. I didn't have the courage to talk to her."

"She was bullied. I took the brothers in the dormitory and beat those bastards outside the school at night to vent my anger on her."

"She was selected as the school belle. I think she deserves it. She is really pretty...I bought flowers for her birthday. I heard that she was in the library. I went to her with flowers. I wanted to confess my love, but She fell asleep in the library and was still snoring, so I had to put the flowers next to her and walked away silently."

"We graduated, and I finally confessed to her. She drank too much, kissed me, and took off my clothes... When I woke up, she was gone, and her number was stored in my mobile phone for four years. , I called for the first time, but I couldn't get through, she changed the number, and I heard that she went back to her hometown."

"I saw her again. At a friend's birthday party, she was in a relationship with the young master of the Shen family. How could that playboy of the Shen family be worthy of her..."

"They broke up, she seems very sad, and she has lost weight, I really want to hug her and comfort her..."

"She had an accident and she wanted to file a lawsuit. She hired a very powerful lawyer, but this lawsuit should not be won. She will go to jail. I want to wait for her."

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It took a whole night for Gu Xiang to read the entire diary, and his emotions also followed the content of the diary, crying and laughing for a while.

After the lights were turned off, she used a small flashlight to peek at her. She didn't know that Jiang Wei liked her so much and had been by her side silently for so long.

This night, as if she had returned to the time on campus, many things recorded in the diary reappeared in her mind.

She couldn't help but want to ask Jiang Wei why he didn't talk to her so many times?

Why didn't you say you liked her earlier?

When he met her later, why didn't he be brave...

If they met at that time and Jiang Wei pursued her, they would definitely be together, and there would not be so many incidents later.

Morning light had already filtered through the window, illuminating her tear-stained face.

She closed the notebook, holding it carefully to her heart, and the words Jiang Wei said when she left yesterday lingered in her ears over and over again.

He said she was no longer good enough for him.

She suddenly had a feeling that her heart was about to be torn open, it was very painful, and she couldn't help but shed tears.

She really wasn't good enough for him.

He is so good, how can she deserve it?

She sat on the bed blankly, thinking about the changes in herself over the past year, and gradually realized how selfish and asshole she was. She broke Jian Yao's heart and failed Xiao Tian's kindness towards her. The most important thing is that she hurt Tong Zhihua time and time again. At first she just wanted to teach Tong Zhihua a lesson, but then somehow, it got out of hand.

She suddenly thought of Jian Shi and Meng Meizhu. She once said that they were too vicious and annoying, but what is the difference between her and them now?

She became the kind of person she hated the most.

She was so hateful, but Jian Yao forgave her. On that snowy day, Jian Yao wiped her tears and hugged her to comfort her...

This should be the difference between her and Jian Yao, right?

Jian Yao forgave Fu Shengnian and her, but she was narrow-minded and refused to let go of the past, trapped in a narrow and forced vicious circle and couldn't get out.

She lay down with the notebook in her arms, pulled up the blanket to cover her face, not daring to cry out, so she could only hold back forcibly, sobbing in a low voice.

She felt like her heart was going to be hollowed out.

She misses Jian Yao, especially at this moment.