your name my secret

After Xiao Mo got home, Qiao Rui still didn't come back after cooking. Xiao Mo couldn't help calling him, but when she heard the phone ringing at the door of the house, she opened the door, and sure enough, he just arrived at the door.

"It's time for dinner. Why did classmate Qiao Rui come back so late today? The distance from work to home is very short." Xiao Mo asked him with a smile while preparing for dinner.

"I'm delayed by something." He replied lightly, just patted her on the shoulder, and then went into the room to change clothes.Xiaomo felt something was wrong today.When calling, he answered too concisely, he didn't want to chat with her as much as usual, and he wasn't enthusiastic enough to enter the door, as usual, he would always be bored for a long time.

Qiao Rui changed his clothes and came out, "It's time to eat." Xiao Mo beckoned him to sit down and served him a bowl of soup first.He took it and drank it silently.

"What's wrong? Are you in a bad mood?"

"fine."

"I know you too well, what's the matter, work or life?" Xiao Mo smiled and winked at him.

"All."

"Huh? Tell me and listen, see if I can help you?"

"It's okay, I'll be fine quietly. Let's eat."

"There was something I wanted to tell you, but since you are in a bad mood, I dare not say it." Xiao Mo hesitated for a moment, since he said to be honest with each other, she saw the matter of Xi Tong and Qin Yi today, she I want to chat with him, but he is in a bad mood, so he won't add fuel to the fire, will he?

"I'm fine, tell me, what's the matter?" Qiao Rui forced a smile at Xiao Mo.

"At noon today, I met Qin Yi and Shao Tong in the government affairs hall. They invited me again and again to have lunch with them." Xiao Mo said, looking at his face. Keep your voice down, don't irritate him.

"Oh. Didn't you mean that you don't want to have anything to do with them? Since you don't want to have any contact with them, then don't get too close." Qiao Rui finally understood the reason for Qin Yi's recording.

"Well, I thought so too, so I left before I finished my meal, and I always felt awkward. It's just that Qin Yi doesn't seem to know the relationship between me and her. Only Qin Lang knows. It seems that Qin Lang is more talkative You are loyal, and you didn't tell everyone about it." Xiao Mo was willing to have dinner with Qin Yi, but it was Qiao Rui who told her that Qin Yi and Qin Lang were twins.Although he has always refused to have a relationship with Qin Jianshe, blood relationship is really amazing.

"Qin Yi and Qin Lang may not be the same, you'd better pay attention." Although Qiao Rui was upset, she still reminded Xiao Mo.

"I see."

"Is the relationship between Shao Tong and Qin Yi good?" Qiao Rui asked Xiao Mo suddenly.

"Okay? Since they are boyfriend and girlfriend, they should have a good relationship. Shao Tong is more ambitious and utilitarian. If he finds a Bai Fumei like Qin Yi, he will naturally catch him." Xiaomo said casually .

"Bai Fumei? Why do you speak sourly? So you don't show weakness, right?" He smiled at her.

"That's right, that's why I pestered you." Xiaomo saw him joking, she continued to joke along with him, seeing him smile, did he feel better?Then continue chatting with him, make him happy, let him be a little proud.When Shitou was unhappy, she seemed to be in a bad mood too.

Suddenly, she saw his smiling face disappear in an instant, and his face was covered with dark clouds, what's wrong?

"What's wrong? Qiao Rui, changing faces is faster than turning pages."

"Xia Xiaomo, if you hadn't broken up with someone at that time, would you have married me without hesitation?"

"Qiao Rui, why do you suddenly ask such a question?"

"Suddenly want to know."

"Boring, does this kind of question make sense? If so, it doesn't exist."

"Why is it meaningless? Isn't life full of what-ifs?"

"There are many assumptions in life, but assumptions are assumptions, not facts, so it is purely a meaningless fantasy to paralyze oneself." Xiao Mo tried hard to explain.

"You can also satisfy my fantasy a little bit."

"I'm sick, Qiao Rui, you're acting weird when you come back today, what's wrong with you?"

"It's nothing, I just thought that if you hadn't broken up with someone at that time, you wouldn't have married me in anger, right?" He really listened to what she said just now, and felt even more uncomfortable.After all, their motivation for getting married at the time really had nothing to do with their relationship.

"Qiao Rui, isn't it too boring to say something like this now? Yes, I never thought about marrying you. At that time, it was just because of a fake marriage, and the fake marriage became real. Okay? If you think I'm married now If the motive is not pure, you can exercise your rights. Didn’t I write something for you at the beginning? You are free to come and go.” Xiaomo was also unhappy, and in a fit of anger, she said whatever she wanted.Xiaomo lost her appetite, put down the bowls and chopsticks in her hands, and sat down on the sofa in a muffled voice.

"Crazy, is he going crazy today?" Xiao Mo thought to herself.Or maybe I shouldn't have talked about having lunch with Shao Tong just now?Don't say it, you're not happy, say it, you're not happy, Aunt Qiao, what do you want?

Qiao Rui was choked by Xiao Mo's words, but within a few words, she thought of the divorce agreement she had written back then. To think about it casually, is marriage really a joke?He was also very upset, he didn't say anything, ignored Xiao Mo, continued to eat, then cleared the table and washed the dishes.

Xiao Mo didn't bother to talk to him, went to the room where she used to live, closed the door, and took out the diary, she was used to writing every now and then.Today, it is undoubtedly worth writing about, because of Qiao Moren's unreasonable troubles, the two had an inexplicable quarrel again.

Xiao Mo just wrote a line, the phone rang, it was Qin Lang, "Xiao Mo, where are you?"

"at home."

"Come to the bar to have fun, Lao Gong and I are here, we have something very happy today, let's celebrate together."

"What's the matter?" Xiao Mo was not in high spirits, and she just had an argument with Qiao Rui, how could she be in the mood to celebrate?

"Come on, come on, it's really a big event, a very happy event. Is Brother Rui here? If he is worried, you can ask him to come with you to have fun. Happy Bar. Hurry up, see you soon." Said After finishing Qin Lang hung up the phone.

Xiao Mo thought that since he said that there was something happy, it must be the company's business. After thinking about it, he had quarreled with Qiao Rui, and it seemed inappropriate to go out to play alone. Didn't it be agreed not to run away from home after the quarrel?But the smelly stone has a bad attitude, and really wants to go outside to relax.

Xiao Mo came to the living room, Qiao Rui was fiddling with his notebook on the sofa.

"Qin Lang said that the company has something happy and wants me to go to the bar to celebrate together. Do you want to go together?"

"I don't want to go out." How could he be in the mood to have fun?

"Then I went alone?" Xiaomo was also a little angry when she saw his indifferent attitude. If you don't go, I won't go. I'll go.

"It's cold outside, and the weather is not very good." He didn't look up, but he still wanted to remind her, but his tone was not friendly.

"Young man, you can bear it." Xiaomo began to change shoes at the door. She deliberately slowed down, but she was silently thinking, "Stinky stone, if you say something nice or have a good attitude and ask me not to If I go, I won't go, but Qiao Rui didn't say anything.

She opened the bow without looking back, so Xiao Mo put on her shoes and went out.Walking out of the lobby, it was really cold outside, but I really have to go today, what's the attitude of the smelly stone?I also have my friends, my job, and my life, so don't be mad at you, I'll have a little fun too.

When Xiao Mo came to the bar, Qin Lang and Lao Gong had already had their drinks. Lao Gong, who is usually very restrained, also looked like he was going to drink with his arms open today. He only had an empty shirt with his collar open.

"Xiao Mo, are you here? Alone? Brother Rui is not free?"

"Well, he has something to do today, so he can't come. What's the matter? He's so happy, he called me out at night."

"What's the matter? Didn't you say last time that our company was favored and wanted to take our shares? Today, it's over. Lao Gong signed the agreement in the afternoon and received the advance payment."

"Really? Didn't I make three proposals, which company did it?"

"Shengtian Company."

"Huh? That price is the highest."

"That's right, Xiaomo. At that time, Lao Gong and I were shocked when we saw the plan written by you. You dared to ask for a price. I didn't expect him to agree! Xiaomo, you are a great hero." Qin Lang smiled happily. .

"What kind of hero am I? You and Lao Gong negotiated, and you are the hero."

"Without you, how could there be such a good price? We didn't dare to ask such a high price at the time, at most half the price." Lao Gong looked excited.

"Actually, I didn't set the price."

"Who drove it?"

"Qiao Rui. At that time, I was working overtime at home. He took a look at it and said to me: The price is too low. Add a zero to the original price. I really added a zero and made a new one. data of."

"Brother Rui is really our lucky star, where is he, I must ask him to drink today, let him get drunk."

"Drunk your head, last time you were drunk, he threw you into the hotel. If you were drunk today, I'm not capable of it." Xiaomo reminded Qin Lang, knowing that they were happy, but still had to take it easy.

"Come on, Xiaomo, don't say much, let's toast first." Qin Lang handed Xiaomo a bottle of wine.

"Qin Lang, you two, don't get drunk, let me be drunk. I am easier to take care of, today, if I don't get drunk, I won't go home." Xiao Mo made a joke with them, in fact, today's mood is also No, I really want to get drunk, but she is sensible and can't get drunk. A woman who is drunk alone, can't she be scolded to death by a stinky stone when she goes back?However, she really wanted to get high today.

After Qiao Rui finished handling the matter, the hour hand had already pointed to 10:30.Smelly girl, really left him to go out to have fun alone.Tonight he is not in the mood to drink any celebration wine. Although he refuses to admit that he has been influenced by Qin Yi, the fact of the night is that he has another petty argument with Xia Xiaomo, and she is so heartless He went to the bar to have fun, and his attitude was so hard, he neither explained nor acted like a baby, and did not give him a step.

It's a little uncomfortable to bring up old things again, but he really didn't know what she was thinking at the time, which was why he refused to get married at that time.But he can be sure that after she completely belongs to him, she will absolutely be devoted to him.Even if she was just angry at marrying him, so what?At least after marrying him, she was determined to herself.

It's so late, and he hasn't come back yet, he walked back and forth in the living room a few times, no, I still have to make a phone call, another woman quarrels with her husband, there is still a way to go back to her mother's house, where can she go?She doesn't even have the right to go back to her natal family.By celebrating with colleagues today, it can be regarded as a way to relax, right?Forget it, don't bother with her, what kind of celebration wine, of course I have to drink, although Qin Lang told her to go, who knows if there is anyone else?What if Qin Lang is also drunk?Who will take care of her?Will something happen?The more he thought about it, the more wrong he became, and he couldn't help calling her.Damn girl, it's really his fault, there's nothing I can do about it.

Qiao Rui called Xiaomo, but her phone rang in the guest room.She didn't have a phone?Qiao Rui entered the guest room, on the desk, Xia Xiaomo's cell phone was singing.

Suddenly, a small box on the table caught his attention. Isn't this the box he gave her on her birthday?She didn't throw it?So, what about the diary?She read it?But she never mentioned it.

Qiao Rui's heart beat faster, he quickly opened the box, and there were two diaries lying quietly in the box, one was his own, he was very familiar with it, what was the other?He was a little curious.

He gently opened the title page: To my favorite and most trusted person: Qiao Rui.

His head "boomed" and his blood surged up, and the hand holding the diary couldn't stop shaking slightly.

He continued to turn to the first page:

Qiao Rui, today, when I finished reading your diary, I wrote while weeping.Every time I read your diary, I can't help crying.Before this, I never believed or imagined that you would fall in love with what you call a bumpkin, an idiot, or an ugly monster.

Although I have long been used to you accompanying me to do my homework, holding an umbrella for me on rainy days, and giving me my favorite gift on my birthday, I never dared to expect that person to fall in love with me who is lonely.

I even remember that in the semester when you just went to college, I often stood silently on the playground in a daze, because there was no longer that familiar figure to accompany me.I don't know why I feel flustered, so panicked that I can't extricate myself. I don't know what kind of emotion it is. Now that I think about it, it should be the emotion of "walking away in shame, leaning on the door and looking back, but sniffing green plums".

It's just that after I overheard the conversation between my aunt and my aunt, I was even more afraid that I would really have that unforgivable emotion for you.I read a passage in a book: The best way to forget someone is to like someone else. Therefore, I have to work hard to like someone else. I was very fortunate at the time that there was a type I liked, that is Shao Tong.

He accompanied me in my third year of high school, and also let me experience that kind of ignorant secret love. Like many Huaichun girls, I read some ignorant poems and put them on someone, and then I was silently moved by myself.But back then it was just thinking about it, and I couldn't really do something because I was afraid.

Until a few years later I met him again.There has always been a lack of sparks of love between us, and we have never had excessive behavior. I thought that because of the feeling back then, I could become a real lover, because I have reached the age where even my aunt is anxious about my marriage.However, we couldn't find the feeling and couldn't continue.I thought I was an emotionally disabled person.

You and I got married by accident. During the days of our fake marriage, we lived together. Only then did I know what it feels like to fall in love with someone.At that time, a certain emotional floodgate seemed to be opened at once, but I still dare not indulge my emotions too much. I am afraid that one day we will really separate. I am afraid that you already have someone else you like. I am afraid that I cannot stand being with you. You are separated, I am afraid of the days without you.Until I saw your diary, I dared to express my love truly and boldly.

How lucky I am to have you in love like this.I also deeply blamed myself for being so paranoid and not brave enough, that's why we had so many misunderstandings, and those few years of indifference to each other, thinking about it now, how annoying it is.

Because of you, I have the strong self-confidence I have today, and because of you, I understand what true love is.When you are so proud, hug me, speak love words in my ear, do those daily chores for me humbly, my heart is full of gratitude, I thank God for letting me meet you.These years, maybe I have failed your heart, in the years to come, I only want to do one thing, and that is: love you.

Every entry in your diary will resonate with me, and I am also planning to develop the habit of writing a diary. On the one hand, I will record our happy times in the future, and on the other hand, I will reply to each of your diary entries.When we are old, we are too old to go anywhere, even too demented to call each other's name, but I think we can still read to each other the words we wrote back then, and grow old happily together.

Your name used to be the secret deep in my heart, the object I have been suppressing my emotions and dare not touch, now, you belong to me, I live like a dream every day, but I am ashamed to express my love.I can only express my true emotions on paper. One day, I will give you two books together. We enjoy the haze in the morning bell and evening drum, and read these words for each other. What a wonderful feeling it will be... ..

Qiao Rui's eyes filled with tears.