Lu Shao's hidden marriage sinful wife

Huo Siyan frowned: "You seem to have asked me this question before."

"Yes!" Lin Nianchu nodded: "But you gave the wrong answer at the time, so now I want to tell you the correct answer, do you want to hear it?"

"of course."

So, in the dark night, accompanied by a light on the wall.

After so many years, those dusty, long-lasting memories that almost fermented and moldy were revealed by her own hands at this moment.

Lin Nianchu's voice sounded softly: "Si Yan, I've been with you for so long, haven't you wondered why I never mentioned my parents?"

"Naturally curious, I may also know a little bit, but it's very small. I admit that I want to know everything about you many times, not only your present, your future, and your past. I also want to have a sense of participation. Only in this way can I Only then can I love you better."

"But if you don't take the initiative to mention it, I will wait and tell me when you want to talk. As long as you are willing to talk, I am willing to listen."

Lin Nianchu took his hand and interlocked his fingers: "Thank you, Si Yan, then I will tell you today."

"My childhood was a tragedy, so I still dare not recall it. In fact, for a long time, I have always thought that I have been obliterated, forgotten, and even many times, I even forgot what they looked like. I tried hard to recall , Desperately remembering, but can only piece together some fragmentary, blurred to the point of blurring, even unfamiliar faces."

"But the appearance of Manman and Auntie let me know that what has existed cannot be easily erased. Even if you don't remember it, it doesn't mean you have forgotten it. It's just a temporary dust cover. In fact, it has always been there."

"I just realized how ridiculous I am. It turns out that I have been lying to myself and numb myself for so many years."

Her voice was already choked.

Tears splashed down and dripped on the back of Huo Siyan's hand.

One drop after another, it was so hot that it fell on his heart, like a candle that had just melted, extremely hot.

"Don't cry, speak slowly."

After wiping away tears, Lin Nianchu continued.

"When I was young, as long as I can remember, my parents' relationship was very bad. Other people's families may be laughing and laughing. Even if they are not close, the husband and wife can live a good life, but my family always fights. There was never a moment of rest."

"My father is addicted to alcohol. After drinking, he has a bad temper and often plays like a drunk. He especially likes to yell at me, call me an oil bottle, and call me a loser. He asked me over and over again why I am a girl? Not a boy ? Let him not be able to hold his head up in front of his parents, let alone carry on the family line."

Huo Siyan felt suffocated just hearing these words as a bystander.

He knows that the phenomenon of "son preference" in this society is very common.

So did the Huo family.

In the concept of the Huo family, the family business must be inherited by men.

But in a big family with such deep-rooted beliefs, even if you like boys, as long as you give birth to a girl, you must be happy, hold it in your palm, grow up with love, and still be the beloved little princess in the family .

As long as there has to be a boy in the end.

But he knows very well that this is a better family with "son preference", and there are many families with so-called "son preference", that is, they only want boys and not girls.

When a boy is born, it is a treasure, and when a girl is born, it is grass.

Even after so many years of reform and opening up, and the social civilization and economy are so advanced, the old concept of "preferring boys to girls" is still deeply rooted in many people's hearts.

Especially rural areas in some backward areas.

Before, he didn't pay much attention to these.

But now, he never imagined that such a scene would appear in such a real way on his woman.

"My mother gave birth to me and hurt her uterus. The doctor said it was difficult to conceive, and the chances were very low. At first, my father still had hope, but after a few years, my mother's belly has not improved, and he completely gave up. .

"Later, my father often fooled around with other women, my mother cried and quarreled, hanged herself, and even went to slap Xiao San several times.

It still works at first, but it doesn’t work after a lot of times, and my dad has become more and more unscrupulous, flirting with mistress directly in front of my mother, showing affection, and often just staying away for a long time. "

"My dad's derailment caused a lot of harm to my mom. She almost had a mental breakdown. After a long time, she became ill. Every time she was in a bad mood and couldn't control it, she liked to hit me."

Thinking of those scenes, Lin Nianchu couldn't bear it anymore.

She lowered her head, hugged Huo Siyan tightly, and grabbed his clothes with both hands.

That kind of sadness and sadness, even the fingernails are working hard.

It was too painful, so unconsciously, her nails scratched Huo Siyan's chest, scratches one after another.

Huo Siyan didn't even frown, but hugged her even tighter: "Nian Nian, cry if you want to."

Lin Nianchu actually didn't want to cry, she felt that if she cried, she would admit defeat to the past.

"It's okay if you don't want to cry. If you don't want to talk about it, then don't talk about it. We forget everything, forget it completely, and I will spoil you in the future."

"Nian Nian, I promise, you will never have so much suffering in your life in the future."

The small crying sound still spread out in his arms.

But soon, she wiped away her tears and continued: "I want to say it, and I can let go of it and forget it if I say it. If I don't say it, I won't be able to get rid of it for the rest of my life."

"it is good."

"In the beginning, she just couldn't help pushing and shoving me when she scolded me. Later, she became more and more excessive, all kinds of fists, slaps, tearing my arms, anyway, all kinds of punches and kicks. Then the whip, Sticks, there seems to be other foreheads, I can't remember clearly."

"But there was one time that left the deepest impression on me, and I will never forget it in my life. It was a summer, there was rumbling thunder, and it was going to rain soon. My dad received a call from a woman outside, saying that he was afraid of thunder and let him go. Accompany her. My mother knew about it, so naturally she refused, making all kinds of quarrels, but in the end it was of no avail, so my father left."

"After my dad left, she saw the cigarettes on the table. In a rage, she lit a pack of cigarettes. I stood aside, cautiously, not daring to take a breath."

"She suddenly acted like crazy. She grabbed my arm, picked up the lit cigarette butt, and started burning me. Arms, body, head, many places were burned, and I don't remember where else. Anyway, I fainted. When I woke up His whole body was covered in wounds from cigarette burns."

"At that time, I never dared to resist. One was to sympathize with my mother, and the other was under her long-term brainwashing. I attributed everything to my fault. Because I was a girl and not a son, I didn't get my father's attention. , He cheated on other women for the sake of his son, all because of me."