Eye of Darkness

As he said this, Xiao Mao smiled and scratched his head.

"I don't want to get into our friendship, don't I? They say friends make trouble for each other."

Looking at Xiao Mao's appearance, Yan Ming sighed helplessly.

He knew that Xiao Mao must have felt the depression in his mood just now. It was the first time that he was not participating in a festival alone, and Yan Ming felt something in his heart.

For some reason, Yan Ming couldn't help but think of himself while looking at the cheerful crowd.

Coming through time travel, I am alone. The only people who can accompany me are my friends around me.

But except for Guisi and Zoroa, Yan Ming could not talk to the elves.

Because Guisi has been underground all year round and has recently followed him to live in the bustling city, and Soraya has always had something on his mind, there is always a small gap between the two of them that they know well, which makes it difficult for Yan Ming. Go have a heart-to-heart or some other conversation with Zoroa.

Although this world is the world of elves, Yan Ming knew something about it, but when he came to this world as a teenager, he didn't know why, but he always felt a sense of isolation from the world in his heart, which was a kind of loneliness like a foreigner. feel.

Everything he has experienced since time travel, killings, and crises have always surrounded him, forcing him to move forward. In order to deal with these, he began to exercise continuously and pursue strength.

But at this moment, he felt a little confused because he had some time to rest due to the holiday.

What is it that you are pursuing?

Is it a good life...?

But for me, what exactly is the so-called good life in my eyes?

Yan Ming didn't know that for him, being able to have no worries and have capital to fight for the future was what he had always longed for in his previous life.

As for the future he wanted, Yan Ming had no delusions.

For him, maybe having a normal family, even if there were conflicts and fights from time to time, was already a longing that Yan Ming often dreamed about at that time.

Yan Ming didn't know, if he really reached the level of those novels, with invincible strength and nothing unobtainable, would he really be happy and would he really have no regrets?

Yan Ming lowered his eyes.

He felt that he would still have regrets and desires.

He thought that the broken family in his previous life was a gap in his life, and everything he was struggling for now seemed to be aimed at filling this gap.

But Yan Ming also knew that this gap could not be filled by him no matter what. No matter how powerful he was, as long as he still had human emotions and remembered that time, this lack would always be with him.

Maybe he will forget about it in the future, but as long as he thinks of it inadvertently, it will be like a sharp sword, making Yan Ming feel depressed.

Looking at the family laughing during the fireworks festival, Yan Ming couldn't help but feel envious, jealous, and even despicable resentment.

Why, it's obviously the first time for me to be a human being, why should I go through that?

Jealousy made Yan Ming's thoughts turn ugly. He ignored that experience that led to the birth of his current calm character, and also ignored the opportunity for him to travel through time. At that moment, he was really unwilling.

But this kind of low tide thoughts come and go quickly, coupled with what has just been experienced, whether it is the parade with Xiaomao, the care of Zoroa and the elves for him, or the pleasure brought by winning the battle. , all made Yan Ming understand one thing.

Although what he is doing now is more or less making up for the past, it is undeniable that everything he is experiencing now, whether it is the first time he met Feng Su Gou, the first time he told his inner words to Guisi said something to express negative emotions, or the simple kindness given by the people he met after coming to this world.

They all reminded Yan Ming that his life should not be limited to the shadow of the past.

The wonderful encounters he had experienced since he came to this world have continued to take root in Yan Ming's heart.

Just like what he once said to Li Jia.

Everything he has experienced now is part of his journey. Only by experiencing the process of the journey can he leave the precipitation of this world in his eyes.

Maybe he will grow to unimaginable heights in the future, or he may experience challenges that can break his soul in the future, but no matter what the future holds, the present is what he cares about.

Yan Ming figured it out, maybe it didn't matter what kind of beautiful future he was seeking, because the past had become regrets, and the reason why regrets were regrets was that they could no longer be changed.

What is important to you should be the process of moving forward because of that good wish.

Everything he experienced on this road will be the bricks for him to make up for the past and rush to the future. It is this accumulation that will breed the satisfaction in Yan Ming's heart.

Therefore, Yan Ming was relieved. Tonight, he reconciled with his past self and accepted the fact that life was not perfect.

Maybe in the future he will keep moving forward in pursuit of his desires, but he will no longer force himself to achieve impossible results because of this.

"Okay, I'm fine, but you, Sir, are actually worried about me."

Seeing Yan Ming point out his little thoughts, Xiao Mao's eyes were a little wandering.

"What, Xiaoyan, are you being sentimental? I just saw that you came to such a remote place during the festival, and I was very upset. You are obviously a ten-year-old kid, but you have a sad face, and you are in a festive atmosphere. They were all destroyed by you."

He also understood that Yan Ming was alone and the other person's life experience. He knew that Yan Ming had been living alone since he was a child. In addition, he admired Yan Ming's talent in elves, and the age difference between the two was not much, so they communicated several times. , and also has good senses for Yan Ming, so he is a little concerned about this rare friend that he really wants to make.

Unlike Xiaozhi, who he grew up with, he was surprised that Yan Ming's life had been so difficult since childhood, yet he could still grow as fast as himself and others, and even have abilities that were not inferior to those of regular cultivators. We must know that Yan Ming's strength can The current level is not something Yan Ming can achieve with his life experience, so various labels that people care about attract his attention.

Yan Ming naturally understands Xiao Mao's thoughts. It is indeed difficult for ordinary people to achieve what he has achieved today, so Yan Ming has always been grateful. Although there is no lack of his efforts, it is undeniable that these Change cannot be achieved through hard work.

And it was precisely because of this that Yan Ming felt helpless.

As his strength continues to improve, the rapid improvement in strength and the superficial experiences that have happened to him are enough to make people care and want to explore.

This is what Yan Ming has always been worried about.