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He doesn't blame that woman either, he understands her when he grows up.

She was full of tenderness, but she got scars all over her body, and left in frustration. No one owed anyone, let alone facing a beast in human skin...

As for himself, he knew from the beginning that his existence was more like an accident, and it was a dragging existence for them.

You don't even want family affection anymore, what kind of affection do you want him to have?

It feels like he has been wearing a mask since he was a child, which is invisible and cannot be taken off, so that no one can see what is in his heart.

But until I met her.

Make him want to show his true self... His only warm sun shines on his desolate and cold heart...

"...Senior, I still have a share, why don't I...give it to you?..."

On that crazily hot Christmas Eve, the campus couldn't escape the business fever, sending Apple gifts to each other.

He usually laughed at these holiday routines, but he didn't take them to heart.What has happened, what is there to celebrate.

He usually politely refuses the gifts that girls give when they have nothing to do. If they get entangled badly, he also accepts them politely, with a blank face, and then let his roommates deal with them. As for how much they think about them, he doesn't know. .

But on that night, because of some business connection, a few people had dinner together, and during the jokes, there happened to be something in the bag. The exchange of gifts out of etiquette can actually enhance the relationship. At this time, giving things becomes very easy.

When the wrapped gift was delivered to him, it looked like a very ordinary apple, so he insisted on such cumbersome packaging.

He looked up, and under the bright yellow light, he was captured by her soft and gentle smile.

Although she was encouraged by her classmates to come to him.

At that time, he thought... What a soft and delicious little white rabbit.

Holding the gift, still a little dizzy, back to the dormitory, the roommate came over and smiled and asked how many gifts he had received, of course he wouldn't let them covet them, waved it away, and ate it by himself.

so sweet...

In his opinion, what it feels like usually is like that. When he was a child, the conditions were not good, so it would be good to have something to eat. He is used to it, and he usually does not participate in fruit snacks.

It was settled by an apple and a few lollipops. It’s a bit embarrassing to say, oh, there is still sugar in the gift box, and there are a lot of those in the supermarket, but that’s it...

What he wants is not only sugar, but also... her.

So the second time he met her, he had already found out that she was single, even if it wasn't him, he didn't want to give up.

If they meet again, she will bump into it by herself.Then he successfully abducted the little white rabbit.

What a sweet union again.

It really fell, showing her the bottom line, greedily snatching warmth, he knew that only she could bring him.

Fortunately, like him, she has fallen, and she is also dependent on him.

But this is far from enough.

The lesson learned by that woman is deeply imprinted in my mind, and I can't get rid of it.

He is afraid!

He works hard and strives to make progress. This is the inferiority complex imprinted in his heart since he was a child. He deeply feels that he is different from ordinary people. He only knows that others are always better than him.

So he tried his best to give her sufficient material conditions and didn't worry about food and clothing, but he was always afraid of not enough, always afraid that one day a better man would appear by her side, and then she would...

He wanted her to cling to him more, so that he still felt in control, and he didn't even want her to go out and show her face, not even work.

He knew that in normal human terms, he was crazy...even pathological.

But that's it, on the one hand, he didn't want her to leave him, but on the other hand, he tried his best not to hurt her.

Yes, it may also be inherited, that person's violent factor, he will sometimes lose control of his fist, but he has never shown it in front of people before.

But really, it can be seen that his serious performance is to compress it into a bad voice, a kiss, or "punishment".

After meeting her, he made up his mind that if he couldn't control it and wanted to hurt her, he would throw his fist at himself to calm him down.

Fortunately, she was tolerant, only when he was angry.

then……

How did everything come to be like this?

Xiang Hao thought back to the night in his hometown, the cold wind and rain, he went back to the house, and saw her who was sleeping soundly disappeared...

He immediately chased it out, shouting in the rain, only he knew the panic in his heart.

After chasing after him, there seemed to be a figure in front of him, but he seemed to be unable to catch up, and shouted loudly, but she was merciless and determined to leave...

leave him.

Such a big wind and rain, how delicate she is usually, dare to run wildly in the rain, not to mention she is pregnant.

Worrying that her body would overwhelm her, he eagerly tried to catch up with her, but it was useless, as he couldn't find her no matter what.

In the early morning, the rain also stopped, and the traces on the road were washed away.

clean!

yeah, clean...

Just like his world, there is nothing left after all.

Even she...disappeared...

Then he fell seriously ill, with a high fever and a near-dangerous condition, alone, with only the occasional routine care of a nurse.How could he have been so miserable since he got married!

So, after recovering from illness, he came to look for her, and even had a premonition that she would disappear like that woman without any news.

Some of her things were missing from their home, they should have been packed and taken away.

He asked over and over, and finally got the address of her friend, and found her.

So, I found it, and I waited until she wanted to divorce him.

How could it be possible to leave?

But looking at her disgusted expression, he seemed to be exposed, the ugliness was invisible in front of her, and he tried his best to hide it, but he was still the ugly self.

This knowledge made him unable to get close to her.

She was finally afraid of him...

No!do not do that……

Even the only bond of flesh and blood is gone, what else can he do...

I don't know how I came out in a daze.

She doesn't want to see him, wants to separate, drive him away...

She doesn't want him anymore...

It was also a sunny day.

However, many years ago, the day that woman left, it was the same weather.

Sunny, clean... scares him...

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Off-topic, this is a novel, in reality...don't wait until it gets better, don't wrong yourself, love that person, but also love yourself...

It's too complicated, and if there are children, parents only care about arguing with themselves, so they don't realize what kind of psychological shadow they have on their children...

Not to mention, I hope that all I meet are lovely people, and there are more happy people in the world??`