Forced to be a licking dog for a sick villain every day

Gu Li was lying on the table, but he couldn't fall asleep.

His sleep quality has not been very good, especially when he is alone at home, and he suffers from insomnia most of the night.

His life path is full of blood, father's, mother's, that person's, and when he closes his eyes, there is a pool of blood.

The eyes are red, the sky is black, there is no end, and I can't breathe.

He lived in this environment for too long, and gradually became a companion of the darkness, walking alone in the long dark night.

Sometimes he simply does not sleep, busy in every corner of the house, or studying, or playing games, more often, making specimens that can hardly fit in the room.

He loves specimens, because someone once told him that beautiful things can actually be preserved forever.

At first, his specimens were just some flowers and insects.

Later, the night left him too much time, and he gradually learned to make more types of specimens.

Flowers, insects, fungi, animals, fossils... As that person said, beauty can really be preserved forever.

It's just that there is no life forever, just a beautiful dead thing.

But it can stay by your side forever.

That's enough.

In the second year after that person left, he met "Cheng Xiyu" and followed Ji Chen'an cautiously. Looking at Ji Chen'an, his eyes were full of joy that the girl could not hide.

In an instant, his heart was beating like thunder, and he admitted that at that moment, he thought she was back.

Almost without thinking, he transferred another school, entered Beichuan Middle School, entered Class [-], and finally became the deskmate of "Cheng Xiyu".

Beside "Cheng Xiyu", smelling the familiar fragrance from her body, his tense nerves finally relaxed.

815 days after she left, he finally fell asleep peacefully. In Beichuan Middle School, Class [-], Grade [-], on the first day he was at the same table as "Cheng Xiyu", he fell asleep on his stomach at this table.

Maybe it was because she was so similar to her that every time he woke up from a light sleep, he could always see her figure in a trance.

For a moment, it seemed like a lifetime away.

Ji Chen'an once told him not to deceive himself.

Yes.

He knew that Ji Chen'an was right.

But sadly, human rationality and sensibility exist at the same time.

Reason told him that it was time to leave, she was not her.

But his sensibility made him unable to move forward. That face... was so much like her.

The interweaving of rationality and sensibility, like a big net tightly engulfing him, is torture like a cocoon, but it is also the only comfort left for him.

Seeing her being used, even though he knew she couldn't be her, he would feel sad when he thought of being bullied with the same face as her, so he kept the evidence casually.

There shouldn't be a sad expression on that face.

It's like when Ji Chen'an made her unhappy when she just transferred to the first class. Looking at the sad and unhappy expression on that face, the hidden beast in her heart was bewitched. Before she could react, her fist It has already hit Ji Chen'an in the face.

It is a new hatred, but also an old hatred.

He turned his head to the right side, exposing half of his face, looking at the white wall with deep eyes.

He knew that the little girl was looking at him suspiciously.

However, how should he explain the past to her?

The unbearable past, the people who have passed away in memory, everything seems to be unreasonable...