Marriage at first thought: the black-bellied president is super painful

Wu Xinqing's voice was not loud, but Shi Guangyuan still heard it, and said with a smile, "You know me so well?"

"It's not in vain to be a couple for so many years."

"Yes, after all, there are several children."

Wu Xinqing glared at him, there was a driver in the car, she didn't want to get angry, so she finally closed her eyes: "You really haven't changed at all."

He smiled: "You too."

Is it okay to take him in the same way?

Even after divorcing him, life did not stop for a single day.

But if Shiyuan hadn't been holding her all the time, she might have killed herself long ago and died in an unknown small town abroad.

The car was driving on the streets of the city, and the neon lights on the side of the road flashed quickly outside the car window. Wu Xinqing thought of the years when her daughter just passed away...

The death of her daughter hit her hard, and she suffered from serious psychological problems for a time.

Friends advised her, for your two sons, you have to be strong.

But let alone for her son, she doesn't even know how she should live every day.

When I wake up every morning, the sky is gray, and I have no expectations for the new day.

She couldn't do anything, and she could only think about one thing all day long: she wanted to go back to the day before Xiao Ran went abroad, and she would never agree to Xiao Ran going away with time.

She thought about it over and over again. In fact, before Xiao Ran went abroad, she just had a high fever and recovered from the illness. She should be allowed to rest well.

Xiao Ran is a child, and it is his nature to be playful. It is understandable that he wants to go out to play with his father.

And when a father wants to take his daughter out to play, it is understandable.

But I am an adult, and even the mother of a child, how can I be so foolish!

Why did I agree with Shiguangyuan to take Xiaoran abroad?He is a workaholic, so he can't take care of his daughter.

So she felt guilty, blamed herself, and then passed this blame on to Shi Yuan.

During the sleepless nights, she broke down and cried countless times, blaming Time Yuan, if he hadn't been negligent and delayed her daughter's illness, her daughter would not have died!It was he who killed their daughter with his own hands!

When she was hysterical, he responded with silence.

Then she said something even more terrifying, she even said something like "Time is far away, why are you still alive, why don't you die".

Shi Guangyuan showed an extremely painful expression, and he said: "Do you think I feel at ease every day? Do you think I don't want to die? But I still have parents to take care of, and two sons to raise, and I can't die even if I want to die." !"

Rong Ye was still young at that time, and he didn't know why they were arguing, so he hugged her leg and cried: Mom, mom, Rong Ye was wrong, mom, please don't be angry.

At that moment, Wu Xinqing realized that her behavior was pathological, as long as she saw things and people related to Xiao Ran, she would lose control.

If this continues, let alone taking good care of her two sons, if she can't even take care of herself, she will probably ruin the family completely.

She has been unable to bear the responsibility of a mother and wife.

So she filed for divorce.

I want to hide in a place where no one knows me.

Shi Shiyuan disagreed, so she forced her to die, and he finally agreed.

Three months after the divorce, she has settled in France and started her own business.

Busy work and life in a foreign country have numb her heart, and it seems that it doesn't hurt so much.

But the result of crazy work is that I am tired and sick.

She developed a high fever and stayed in bed at home. She was hungry and wanted to find something to eat, but she passed out beside the bed.

When she woke up, she found that she was back on the bed.

Shi Shiyuan was lying beside her, holding her tightly.

Thinking it was a dream, he reached out to touch his face. He opened his eyes and looked at her: "It's better."

"Why are you at my house."

"The day after you moved in, I moved next door to you."

"why."

He looked at her, was silent for two seconds, and said in a hoarse voice: "I'm afraid you will seek death. If you die, I can't live."

Wu Xinqing burst into tears all of a sudden.

Shi Shiyuan wiped away her tears.

She asked again: "You come to France, what about your son? What about your company?"

His eye circles were also red: "Do you still care about us?"

Of course she cares.

She just hated herself so much, all her energy was used to hate herself, and she had no spare energy to love anyone anymore.

Now her son thinks she is a bad mother, her friends think she is selfish, and her parents think she is too wild and self-willed.

Everyone thought that she was too career-minded and self-centered, because she was pursuing the so-called freedom and escaping family responsibilities, so she abandoned her husband and son and was irresponsible.

So she didn't want to contact people even more, didn't visit her son, broke up with friends, let alone talk to her parents, and completely closed herself off.

She is mean to her colleagues and harsh to her subordinates, like a ruthless working machine.

The good result is that her career has indeed achieved success. The perfume she formulated won an award and once reached the top of the season's sales list. However, she does not have a caring friend around her, and no one can share the joy of success. .

So she loathed herself even more. It felt like a black hole had rotted in her heart, and that black hole devoured her soul every moment.

But when Guangyuan came to her, she seemed to have found a place to vent the pain she had accumulated for many days.

She beat his chest, crying and asked him, why just refused to let me go?Why not let me fend for myself?Why do you still appear in front of me?Don't you know that I wish you could die?

He listened to her harsh words and let her beat her. He kissed the tears on her face and kept saying sorry.

In the end, she transformed this anger, or grief, into desire.

She desperately said to Shi Guangyuan: "Make love with me|love."

Shi Shiyuan kissed the corner of her lips: "Okay."

So they hugged each other tightly, desperate.

They hardly communicate with each other, they only use each other's body as an outlet, sleep for a while when they are tired, and eat something when they are hungry, from morning to night...

It was the first time they had sex after Xiao Ran passed away.

After completely overdrawing my physical strength, my mind was finally blank and I didn't think about anything anymore.

Her high fever also climbed to 39 degrees.

Shi Guangyuan took the medicine for her, and she took it with her eyes closed. It was the first time after Xiao Ran passed away that she fell asleep naturally without sleeping pills.

But in the middle of the night, I woke up from the nightmare and sat up screaming.

Shi Shiyuan held her in his arms and stroked her back gently.

After gradually waking up, she said to Shi Guangyuan: "Why are you still at my house? We're already divorced. Have you forgotten..."

When she asked this question, she was not at all confident.

Because she took the initiative to keep him, and she also took the initiative to cross the line.

Shi Guangyuan said: "When you're done using me, drive me away. You can't be like this, can you?"

"Then what do you think, do you still want to live like this?"

"is it okay?"