end of ten days.

He said he was waiting for my reply.

How can I answer?

I really want to agree, I really want to go home with someone I love every day, and then say "I've worked hard today".

I want to be able to cook a messy dinner together and eat clean with a smile and a frown on our break.

I want someone to listen to me say "I'm so tired" when I'm tired, and then I can lean on his shoulder and cry silently for a while.

But do I deserve that kind of life?

As I was getting ready for breakfast this morning, the buttered toast fell from my hands, expecting it to stain the carpet, but I bent down quickly and grabbed it.

This movement is very beautiful, almost like a martial arts master.

But when I looked up, the room was empty.

I really want someone to look at me there, and I can smile and ask him "Am I good?"

He also teased me with a smile, saying that he had never seen such an agile lawyer.

Then we happily start this day, or start every day in the future.

I really want to promise him.

But this way I am selfish and not fair to him.

As I said, I am a man full of holes. My miserable childhood made me stubborn and withdrawn. The troubled native family made me fall into anxiety and sorrow all day long. I couldn't bring these things into a relationship.

It's not fair to my other half.

Xiaosun is a native of Chengdu. His parents are both literary and art workers.His family is very similar to mine, both of them have "both sons and daughters". Xiaosun has a younger sister.

It seems to me that their parents are still willing to give birth to daughters after giving birth to sons in their first birth.

Besides, I've seen that girl too. She was doted on by her parents and elder brother since she was a child, and that kind of self-confidence can't be suppressed, making her omnipotent.

But what am I?

I am a monster.

"I can't agree." I said in a deep voice. When I said this, I felt cut by an invisible knife.

"Why, why?" Xiao Sun said anxiously, "Sister Zhang, is, am I a little abrupt? If you need time to think, I can wait..."

"We're all grown-ups now, so we don't need time to think about this kind of thing." I shook my head, "If you can't, you can't, sorry."

Seeing Xiaosun's disappointed expression, I felt the invisible knife go through my body again.

It hurts.

"Okay... okay..." Xiao Sun nodded with a disappointed face, "Sister Zhang, don't apologize to me, I should be the one to apologize, I'm really, really sorry..."

"No." I said to him with a smile, "It's a good thing to dare to express, Xiao Sun, you are a very good person, I rejected you because of my own problems, I hope you don't feel sad."

"Hmm..." Although Xiao Sun nodded, I could see from his eyes that he was extremely sad.

After attending Mengmeng's wedding, I gave her half a month's leave.

While she wants to come back to work, the honeymoon is a once in a lifetime event and I'd rather she take paid time off than throw this precious time away at work.

A week passed quickly, and Xiao Sun and I handled a commercial dispute case together, but this time due to insufficient evidence provided by both parties, the verdict was not pronounced, and a second trial will soon be held.

"Xiao Sun, you can keep an eye on me for the next two days." I said, "I have to go home."

"Go home?" He raised his eyebrows, "Sister Zhang, you look sad every time you receive a call from home, did something happen at home?"

"No, it's a good thing." I said with a smile, "My brother is getting married."

"Brother...?" Xiao Sun was obviously taken aback, "Sister Zhang, do you have a younger brother?"

"Yes."

"You are so calm. I never heard you say that you have a younger brother."

"I didn't mention it doesn't mean I didn't." I breathed a sigh of relief, "I haven't been home for many years, and this is the last time. I want to show up anyway."

"The last time...?" Xiao Sun obviously didn't understand, "Is there a last time to see your biological brother?"

"Yes." I was obviously a little happy, "In short, I will be back soon, within a day at the earliest, or in two days at the most. I will leave the affairs of the institute to you in these two days."

"Don't worry, Miss Zhang, it's fine." Xiao Sun nodded, "But... don't you need me to take you? Do you drive back?"

"Don't drive." I said, "There's no need to be so ostentatious, I'll go back by car."

"Okay, then you have to pay attention to safety, and send me a WeChat message when you arrive."

"No problem." I nodded and said to him again, "If you have something to do at home, you can go to it first. Apart from that business dispute, there should be no lawsuits recently."

"My home is in Chengdu!" Xiao Sun said to me with a smile, "Don't worry, I will definitely stick to my post."

Looking at Xiao Sun's state, I feel very happy.

He didn't alienate me because I rejected him.

As long as I can work with familiar people, I feel confident.

He will definitely find a better partner, but that person must not be me.

I bought a bus ticket, put on my civilian clothes and set off.

It is impossible for the people in my village to know how good I am in Chengdu, otherwise they will become a bottomless pit hovering over my life and suck all the blood from me.

The bus, ordinary clothes, and a proper light makeup are enough for my trip.

I'm just an ordinary person. I don't have extra money to help them, and I don't have that much ability to arrange jobs for any idlers in the city. I am me, an ordinary person.

The car drove out of Chengdu and circled the mountain road for more than two hours before finally sending me to the village ten kilometers away.

Next, you need to take a black car, and then turn around three times.

I set off in the afternoon and didn't enter the village until evening.

The village is indeed preparing for the wedding. The roads are full of tables, and the poles are covered with red paper. The wedding will start tomorrow.

"Leidi?!" An old lady suddenly recognized me.

"Yes." I nodded and looked at her, "I'm back."

"Tsk..." She pursed her lips a little contemptuously, and then squeezed out an ugly smile, "I haven't been back in how many years? Is the city so good?"

"Not good." I shook my head, "But Chengcai got married, I'm a sister, I have to come back."

"Repetitious?" She nodded with a half-smile, "Then you go home quickly."

I nodded at her, breathed a sigh of relief and walked towards "home".

I haven't lived at home since my first day in high school.

I lived in the school when I was in school, and worked outside on weekends and winter and summer vacations. This place is very strange to me.

The atmosphere of the villagers also made me more stressed. They are like the best intelligence agents in the world. Every word you say at home will be spread throughout the village the next day.

especially me.

A stubborn woman who doesn't want to earn tuition fees for her younger brother, but wants to go to school by herself.

A slutty woman who fell in love with the city's "festive feasting" and didn't want to go home.

A miserable woman who was unmarried in her 30s and no one wanted to take her in.

A stingy woman who doesn't care about her younger brother's marriage, and doesn't give a bride price or a down payment on a house.

A failed woman who has worked hard for more than ten years and still has not "returned home".

This is me in the eyes of the villagers, and I am a famous joke in the village.

My existence is a classic and enduring topic that every household will discuss hotly.