Team villains except me

I am often worried about the love concept of modern young people.

My heart clenched, and if I had to ask why, it was because I was bewildered and suffocated watching them hold hands and kiss each other.

What exactly is love?

To be honest I don't know.

If it's synonymous with a painful, tangled, sweet relationship, then maybe I've experienced it.

On her dear, my Zhu Xiang.

-

It was an ordinary afternoon, but the sunshine was unexpectedly fair. Even the dwarf weed lying on the ground in front of my house received the favor from God.

"Nertai, there is a guest coming today, please greet him at the door."

I heard my mother tell me so.

I should not be willing.

My mother is an overly strong person, she is as cold as a machine, and she brought this coldness to me.

So even with that, I feel a little more disgusted with this strange visitor.

The weather is cold, exhaling with white mist, I stand stiffly in front of the silent door.Fortunately, the sun was warm, and I didn't have to go back to that abyssal home to grab a coat.

I waited dumbfounded, the parts of my body working hard.

There was the creak of a carriage approaching in the distance.

I looked up and saw a strange carriage galloping towards me.

Maybe it's from the eastern continent. The curtains covered with silk and black gauze are not the style of the western continent.

I stared fixedly at the carriage, not expecting that the person sitting on it would be the guest I wanted to greet.

The carriage stopped beside me, and the gauze curtain was lifted up respectfully by the driver.

At that moment, the cool wind swirled and blew up, and I seemed to smell the aroma of fir trees.

The people in the carriage showed her face.

It was a pair of magical purple eyes, and I saw a new world from those eyes.

Purple straw, purple irises, purple water lilies, purple mist, purple beauties.

She is so different.

Her black hair is smooth and beautiful, reaching her waist, her eyebrows are thin and curved, even if she is not smiling, she looks gentle.

Her lips are thin, but beautifully shaped.

It's just too slender, as if it's so fragile that it will break when folded.

I felt dizzy, like an idiot waiting for her to come to me.

She closed her eyes and stood still, looking at me and smiling.

All the flowers in my world are blooming, and even the weed has become lovely.

I dare not look at her, thinking that I have fallen into a strange dream, because my heart is beating so fast, I call this emotion that makes me lose my mind fear.

But this is different from fear. I took out happiness and depression in this fear, and I couldn't extract them separately.

I look forward to her voice like a condemned prisoner waiting for his knife.

"...Hi, I'm Zhu Xiang."

-

When I stiffly brought Zhu Xiang into the house, and heard the pleasantries between my mother and Zhu Xiang, I was soaked in a basin of cold water until my heart shrank.

Zhu Xiang is my aunt's daughter and my younger sister.

She still has that charming fragrance, with a shy and cute expression.

It's just...it's just that she already has a fiancé, and she's here for her fiancé.

I can't tell you what it feels like.

Seeing Zhu Xiang tease me with those clear eyes and her unknowing amorous feelings, she just said, "I'm sorry to bother you, brother Nertai."

I shook my head dryly, unable to say a word.

My mother was dissatisfied with my reticence, she felt that I was like a machine without manners.

"Is this how you get along with your sister? I asked you to meet her. Is this your way of hospitality?"

My mother has always been like this, I am something she can control, so she likes to scold me in front of outsiders to show her majesty.

I just suffered in silence before, only this time I felt embarrassed.

I should be a machine without self-respect, as long as the parts are turning, I can live well.

It's good to be alive, how can I expect such a noble thing as dignity.

I convinced myself, but Zhu Xiang—she stood in front of me, defending me with soft but firm words.

"You are too strict with brother Nertai. Brother Nertai gets along very well with me. I rarely see people like my brother in the eastern continent. Your son is very good."

Mother's face softened.

She listened to Zhu Xiang's compliment with a smile on her face, and stopped scolding me.

"Nertai! Go and send your sister to her room, and take your sister for a stroll at night."

I humbly agreed.

Zhu Xiang's suitcase is very light.

I pushed Zhu Xiang's suitcase and opened the door for her.

It is inconvenient for me to go in again.

Zhu Xiang looked up at me, his purple eyes were like a deep dream.

"Brother Nertai, you have worked hard."

I quickly waved my hand.

"It's nothing... you rest first, I'll take you around at night."

Zhu Xiang nodded with a smile, his cheeks flushed slightly.

"It's exciting.

Brother Nertai, I would like to take the liberty to ask you, do you know Lu Lang? "

Lou Lang Koch.

Zhu Xiang's fiancé.

Why don't I know.He also called me brother, a very close brother.

But he won't be a caring husband.

He is a standard playboy, Zhu Xiang will not be happy with him.

But looking at Zhu Xiang's expectant eyes, I couldn't tell the bad things about Lu Lang.

"I know him but don't have much contact."

I can only say that.

Zhu Xiang was a little disappointed, but said goodbye to me very thoughtfully.

I wish we could talk about something more together...but I just fell silent and said "see you tonight".

On the way back to my room, I was stopped by my mother.

"Nertai, come here, I have something to tell you."

The mother was in a good mood. She looked at the accounts in the family and took a sip of tea.

"You must look at Zhu Xiang and let her marry the young master of Keqiu's family."

I wanted to pretend to agree obediently, but I couldn't help but ask why.

What if Zhu Xiang didn't want to marry Lulang Keqiu after meeting him?Zhu Xiang should also have the right to choose.

Mother put down the accounts.

"Why? Nertai, Zhu Xiang was adopted. She was adopted because she needed to marry the Keqiu family to strengthen the relationship between the families."

Zhu Xiang...was adopted?

Between us, there is no blood relationship?

Before I had time to rejoice, I was forced to become nervous by the coolness in my mother's words.

"Mother, what if Zhu Xiang doesn't like Lu Lang?"

My mother didn't take my words seriously.

"Lu Lang has an older brother and younger brother, Zhu Xiang will find a husband he likes."

I am also Lu Lang's brother.

Do I have a chance too?

With such nervousness, I took Zhu Xiang to the most lively food street around at night.

But I have no time to regret it.

The faint moonlight dances clear and clear, and the pain meets the narrow road.

I saw Lulang Keqiu.

"Brother! Why did you come out? Didn't Auntie prevent you from coming out at night for fear that you would drink with us?"

Lu Lang spoke loudly, and saw Zhu Xiang hiding behind me.

He raised an eyebrow at me.

"It turns out that my brother has a new situation - no wonder!"

I could feel Zhu Xiang paused.

Zhu Xiang probably didn't want to be misunderstood to have an affair with his brother.

Zhu Xiang will see Lu Lang sooner or later.I'm making Lu Lang misunderstand me like this, what kind of thing is it?

I realized my stupidity and introduced Zhu Xiang to Lu Lang.

Lu Lang also knew that he had a fiancée, but he didn't expect to meet him at this time.

He greeted Zhu Xiang with some embarrassment, but a female friend who was familiar with Lu Lang ran out from behind. She didn't know what was going on, and bumped into Lu Lang's arms familiarly.

"Why so slow! Lulu, I'm going to be angry!"

That female friend was coquettish at Lu Lang, Lu Lang's hands and feet were stiff, and Zhu Xiang lowered his head even more.

In this suffocating atmosphere, Zhu Xiang pulled up my sleeve.

"Brother Nertai, I don't want to stay here."

I didn't talk to Lu Lang, and took Zhu Xiang home directly.

When I said good night and was about to leave, Zhu Xiang suddenly spoke.

"Brother Nertai, you are actually very familiar with the Keqiu family, right? It's all because I don't understand anything. You will inherit this family in the future, so you will naturally be very familiar with the Keqiu family."

I do not know what to say.

"I'm not that familiar with them either..."

"Brother Nertai, tell me about the real Lulang Keqiu. Please."

I looked at Zhu Xiang who was extremely strong and about to be broken, so I told her all about Lulang Keqiu with calm eyes.

Zhu Xiang listened silently, with obvious sadness in her eyes.

Ah——why is it Lu Lang?

My speaking speed slowed down, Zhu Xiang noticed, and she stopped this topic a little apologetically.

"Brother Nertai, I really trouble you, this is obviously my own business."

I shook my head, looked at Zhu Xiang's heavy thoughts, and thought of the place I would go to every time I was reprimanded by my mother.

"Want to see the stars?"

"Star……?"

Zhu Xiang raised his head blankly.

"When I can't clear my mind, I want to look at the stars."

I replied with some trepidation.

Zhu Xiang looked at me, and I involuntarily looked at Zhu Xiang.

I saw a pure soul through those violet eyes.

She smiled.

The smile is very cute.

"Okay, Brother Nertai."

At the top of the attic there is a ladder leading to the roof.

I supported Zhu Xiang and sat on the roof with her to watch the stars.

In the beginning, Zhu Xiang talked about her worries about the future. I didn't know how to comfort her, because I was just a puppet controlled by my mother.

My future, which can be seen in the end at a glance, has long been nailed down.

Zhu Xiang noticed my reticence, and she asked about my past.

The stars are soft, and the people around me are also my favorite.

Although it is a cold winter, I can still feel the warmth of spring.

I can't help but say a lot.

Talking about the colorless childhood, talking about the early death of the father and the strength of the mother, talking about the feeling of being ruled...

"Sometimes, I feel that the world is gloomy. Irritability is like the annoying mosquitoes and flies in summer, and nothing can get rid of it. I really want to say goodbye to everything in this world—"

"Don't do this, Brother Nertai."

Zhu Xiang held my hand, her expression was very sincere.

"You are still very young. Like the bouquet of cherry blossoms that have not yet bloomed, the winter has not yet passed, and you still have a long future."

maybe.

I didn't suddenly become so decadent.

In the long-term depression, I have given up part of myself.

Some parts have been removed, I can run, only rely on the will to support.

Zhu Xiang filled those vacancies.

As soon as I saw Zhu Xiang, those dull pains disappeared without a trace.

That day, I chatted with Zhu Xiang for a long time, and I almost showed myself to Zhu Xiang.

I didn't deliberately say I like it, but I can feel that Zhu Xiang understands.

When Xing Xing fell asleep, Zhu Xiang stood up.

She didn't feel tired after staying up late at night.

She looked down at me, her face still dreamy.

"Brother Nertai, can we go out to play tomorrow?"

I froze for a moment, and nodded hesitantly.

"Okay... where do you want to go?"

Zhu Xiang had already walked down the ladder, and she only left me with Pingting's back.

"Brother Nertai, you shouldn't ask me about the date, right?"

I stood up so suddenly that I nearly slipped off the roof.

What does it mean?

Date - is that the date I thought it was?

I thought anxiously, like a butterfly was escaping from my stomach.

Zhu Xiang...would he like me?

I don't want to know the answer.

-

In the following days, Zhu Xiang and I have been playing outside.

When someone misunderstood that we were a couple, Zhu Xiang didn't make any excuses, but acquiesced with frowning eyes.

She was like my real girlfriend, doing what a girlfriend would do.

She seemed to have forgotten Lu Lang Keqiu.

My life is filled with Zhu Xiang, and I no longer want to leave this world.

In the world with Zhu Xiang, no matter how painful I am, I will stay here.

-

After about three months, I saw the new shoots on the trees sprouting, the grass sprouting, and everything was bathed in the cherry blossoms in spring, and it was very prosperous.

Zhu Xiang went out, and before she went out, she gave me a good afternoon kiss.

She said she had something to do and would not be back until evening, so I didn't have to wait for her.

I smiled and said yes, watching Zhu Xiang go further and further.

I weighed the courage I had accumulated, and felt that I should be able to have a showdown with my mother.

I want to be with Zhu Xiang.

I love Zhu Xiang, I can't live without Zhu Xiang.

After taking a deep breath, I was going to knock on my mother's door, but my mother opened the door before me.

She frowned when she saw me.

"I was just going to find you. Why didn't you make arrangements? Zhu Xiang told me."

My heart shakes.

Zhu Xiang actually told his mother about us first——

"Zhu Xiang is going to marry the young master of Keqiu's family in a week. You are her brother, why are you so careless? Her father can't come, you are going to support her as a parent and send her to Keqiu's house !"

What... what?

Why, I can't understand my mother's words?

Is my mother beating me when she found out about Zhu Xiang and I?It is impossible for Zhu Xiang to want to marry Lu Lang, she clearly——

I froze in place and forgot to even breathe.

Just before fainting, my mother glanced at me.

"Put away your extra thoughts."

I jolted subconsciously and woke up.

Mother won't agree.Mother would never agree.

Mother will lie, I have to wait for Zhu Xiang to come back.

I want Zhu Xiang to tell me personally.

-

"Brother Nertai, you already know."

After hearing my question, Zhu Xiang smiled calmly.

Her words were extremely cold.

"Don't you understand? None of us can defy our own destiny.

I love you as I love myself.But that doesn't mean I'm going to marry you, we have no end, I thought you knew that. "

I do not know.

How would I know?

I've been working hard for a happy ending --

I fell into the abyss.

So... people, what a stupid species.It is an animal that asks for trouble.

I looked at Zhu Xiang.

My lovely Zhu Xiang.

"Can I go somewhere one last time with me? We need a break."

Zhu Xiang nodded, she was still beautiful, weak and mysterious under the moonlight.

She didn't know that the elder brother opposite her was sick, but she still blinked her innocent eyes and believed me.

trust me.

-

"Zhu Xiang has been missing for three days, Nertai, if you know something, you should confess now!"

I looked at my distraught mother and replied calmly, "I don't know."

My mother threw the hardcover book on the desk at me.

I didn't hide.

It was a heavy hit, blood left my forehead, and my vision went black for a while.

I remained calm and even smiled a bit.

Mother trembled.

She looked panicked, wanting to get closer, and feeling ashamed.

"Nertai! Are you a fool! Why don't you hide! Do you think I will let you go! You..."

"Don't let me go, mother, you gave me my life, you can take it back at any time."

I picked up the book and staggered to hand the blood-stained book to my mother.

"Two more hits, mother."

Mother screamed.

She didn't understand how I suddenly broke down.

"Just because of a Zhu Xiang? Nertai, don't you understand? Your marriage is to benefit the family, why do you want love in a whimsical way? I told you when you were a child, the family is the only one. Most importantly, why are you still so ignorant—”

"But."

I looked down at her and thought she was a little ridiculous.

"You said that you love your father. So you married him regardless of everything. Even if he died early, you would have no regrets. Mother, why can't I?"

Mother paused, she was still confident.

"I do love your father, but I paid the price, didn't I? If I had married the right young master, our family would have been more noble than the Keqiu family by now!"

Why should I pay such a price.

Why can I never live like a normal person!

I smashed the book on the ground, but the book bounced off my mother's toes.

She looked at me incredulously.

"You actually resisted me! Nertai, do you think I dare not kill you because I have only one son? I am still young, and I can cultivate a better heir!"

"Please."

I left the family where I had lived for more than twenty years with a blank expression.

-

I have another property.

That's what I earned myself.

Unlike my mother who said "you are nothing without your family", I have the ability to live my own life well.

In another property of mine, Zhu Xiang is hiding.

"Brother Nertai, are you imprisoning me?"

Zhu Xiang pointed to the shackles on his feet.

I laughed.

"No. I'm just afraid that you will leave."

Zhu Xiang sighed.

"If possible, I don't want to leave. But, brother, if I don't fulfill the marriage contract, my existence will have no meaning, and I will be obliterated. Here, we will be found sooner or later."

I was silent.

I haven't figured out what to do next.

Zhu Xiang suddenly raised his head.

"Brother, let's run away. Go to the northern continent, or the southern continent, and live in a place where no one knows us, okay?"

I thought for a while and nodded in agreement.

I rented a carriage and wanted to live with Zhu Xiang in the southern mainland.

When he was about to leave the city, the coachman said that the carriage was broken.

I let Zhu Xiang sit in the car and got out of the car to check the situation.

As soon as I opened the bead curtain of the carriage, I saw my mother and Lu Lang.

Behind them are black thugs.

The only thing I can feel is despair.

"Because a Zhu Xiang is not worth it. Nertai, I forgive you, go home."

Lu Lang also echoed.

"Brother, it's impossible for you and Zhu Xiang, just give up."

No.

I will not give up.

I looked up and made a decision.

"I can go back, but I want Zhu Xiang to leave here safely."

"Nertai! Don't push yourself too far!"

I looked at my mother with a faint smile.

"How many years will it take to train the next heir? How many hypnotists will you have to hire to destroy his sanity, and how many iron branches will you have to break to make him as obedient as a dog?

Mother, the choice is always yours, isn't it? "

Mother gritted her teeth, and she finally agreed.

I got into the carriage and said goodbye to Zhu Xiang for the last time.

I have no future, but I hope Zhu Xiang can be happy.

Get out of here, out of the fate of becoming a puppet.

I stepped into the carriage and saw Zhu Xiang who was extremely calm.

She smiled at me.

I could tell by the look on her face that she had heard it all.

"Brother Nertai, you can't lie to me. After I leave, you will leave this world, right?"

Nothing to hide, I nodded.

Zhu Xiang let out a long sigh.

She held my hand, just like before.

"Brother Nertai, I said I love you, right?"

I nodded, vaguely understanding what Zhu Xiang meant.

She put down her voice very softly, but smiled brightly.

"A loved one will never be alone no matter what he does."

-

The spring buds are green, and the yew is fragrant.

Both Zhu Xiang and I are buried here.