Team villains except me

"I want to change the 'Fiana' in my mother's stories to 'Afanasyia'."

Fiana frowned. Her voice was low, lower than the crackling sound of the exploding sparks.

But Norvia heard it clearly.

"Hazi said that before he left Philippi, his mother had considered whether to change the name of the protagonist of her novel."

Fiana is trapped in the memories recounted by Hazi. In the memories, novelist Afanasy Vasa asks her friend Hazi for advice.

……

"Ha Zi, the 'Fiana' I wrote is not Fiana's story, but my story. I created this 'Fiana' based on my experience. Will this cause trouble to my dear little Fiana?

The Fiana in my novel has done so many great things. If it were me, I would feel very accomplished, but once it happened to my little Fiana, I couldn't stand it. I don't want my little Fiana to suffer what I have experienced, nor do I want my little Fiana to repeat the life experience of the Fiana in the novel.

If this novel is a bestseller and my little Fiana doesn't achieve as much as the 'Fiana' in the book, will she be worried? Will the world use the standards of the 'Fiana' in the book to judge my little Fiana? "

Afanasya said this, and then carefully created a new name for the protagonist.

"Ha Zi, what do you think of the name Stuer Shelia Lorte?"

Ha Zi: ...

not so good.

Ha Zi ended the conversation with a dark face. He didn't expect that he and Afanasyia would be separated forever soon.

The topic was left unsolved, and Hazi fled from Philippi with Athanasius's manuscripts. Because of the pain, he forgot many memories.

But when he saw Fiana, he thought of it again.

In a way, he didn't want to see Fiana. The only people he knew well were Afanasiya and Psyche. Many years ago, they were close friends who shared the same ideals and interests.

They all wanted to give Philip a bright future without any blemish.

Fiana's presence accelerated everything. Ha Zi knew how anxious Sai Ke and Na Xia were, and he often felt that it was this anxiety that made them less cautious.

So he rejected Fiana's existence. Later, he inevitably learned about Psyche's death. He knew that it was Fiana who ended his friend's life, and he painfully understood that everything that happened back then had finally gone in the opposite direction.

Death is not terrible. With the death of Naxia and Sai Ke, a part of Ha Zi's soul was left in the prosperous territory of the Ran Luo family.

Ha Zi's dreams were filled with black fog and accusations from friends and relatives.

Guilt, resentment, pain, confusion - Ha Zi couldn't stay in the same place for long.

Until he heard rumors about Fianna, the ruthless Duchess who had established herself in Philippi and made drastic reforms to her territory.

Ha Zi suddenly found a way to sleep peacefully at night. He was no longer tormented by the past. He read Nasha's manuscripts every day, and he began to look forward to the death of King Alozo of Philippi.

At that time, he was in O'Neill, Titag. He didn't want to go to a strange city to seek peace. He applied to become a Titag resident and lived peacefully.

But he never wanted to meet Fiana. He also tried to write something to commemorate his good friends Nasha and Seko, but he burst into tears as he wrote.

In this kind of loss, he would always divide his hatred between Aloso and Fiana, Aloso taking 99.9% and Fiana taking 0.1%.

Because Naxia and Sai Ke love their Fiana very much. Ha Zi deeply understands this.

He often read the words Nasha left for Fiana. The handwriting was messy, and the ink soaked into the paper like tears. Nasha wrote it in a hurry, and she had already foreseen her death.

But Ha Zi was not mentally prepared for what happened that year. He thought he and Naxia Saike would have a long future together, and he was looking forward to witnessing the growth of their Fiana.

He thought at that time that Fiana would call him Uncle Hazi, and he would buy many beautiful picture books for little Fiana. He would publish an observation diary of little Fiana when Philippe got better.

…All his expectations turned into a sharp arrow, shooting his soul into pieces.

It is easy to hate others, it is easy to hate yourself, but it is difficult to forgive.

Not everyone is a warrior, not everyone can look back with an open mind and tell themselves that they were great.

Ha Zi can't reconcile with the past.

Hazi couldn't fight against the damned King Alozo, so he could only flee like a rat. Hazi couldn't save Psyche, who was only a shell of a body, so he could only let Psyche stay in Philippi and let him go straight to death.

Reality smashed Ha Zi to pieces.

Ha Zi desperately tried to escape from reality, wanting to leave the past behind and live a good life. He had lost many things, his dreams, his family, his friends, his motherland...

He also held Nasha's manuscript.

He thought that he should have a noble reason to live reasonably... But he asked himself, if he was as brave as Nasha and Sai Ke, if he could be a little smarter, would he not have to flee everywhere?

It's easy to live. But it's hard to stop thinking.

Ha Zi wondered how he would explain to Fiana that her parents really loved her, how he would face Fiana who had killed her father with her own hands, and how he would explain his silence and escape.

If he returned to Philippi, how could he contact Fiana under Aloso's nose? If he really wanted to return to Philippi, how could he protect Nasha's manuscripts so that they would not be destroyed by Aloso...

Ha Zi collapsed.

He was shocked by his own cowardice. He bit the flesh on his wrist until it bled. He let the pain stimulate his reason, and let his reason constantly convince him that his survival was based on his brother's death, and he must live.

A survivor always feels that he shouldn't be so lucky. Even though Ha Zi knew that he couldn't change anything, and even though Ha Zi knew that a publisher was worse than a crawler to Aloso, he still despised himself in his heart.

He didn't dare face Fiana.

The so-called hatred is just a kind of fear. If he appears in front of Fiana, it will inevitably become a harm to Fiana.

Ha Zi couldn't bear it any more. He woke up in the asylum countless times and always felt that he had lost a part of his memory.

That was also a kind of happiness for him.

He is just an ordinary traveler, he doesn't need to bear anything. He just needs to live without any burden.

He lived in such peace for several years, thinking that his life would be wasted bit by bit.

But Fiana was even better than he had imagined.

He was having dinner at Morga and Gilan's house when he looked at the bounty notice issued by Aloso and realized that Fiana had pushed Aloso into a desperate situation.

This is something that neither Psycho nor Nasha could do. Fiana did it.

Ha Zi was stunned for a long time until Morga and Jilan's daughter Matija noticed his abnormality, then he came back to his senses.

Faced with Mattia's questioning, Ha Zi finally stopped hiding. He talked happily about his past with Nashasai Ke and picked up his past.

He did not eat much of the meal. He planned the rest of his life in detail in his mind.

Ha Zi donated half of his savings to Fiana's territory, and then took out Nasha's manuscripts from a safe surrounded by many magic arrays.

He would use the remaining half of his savings to have Nasha's novels published throughout the continent. During his years of travel, he met many publishers, some of whom were at odds with Aloso and some of whom were not coerced by him.

During this war, Aloso will not have the energy to care about him. Even if Aloso notices his tricks and sends people to hunt him down, he can still attract some attention for Fiana.

He had been away from Philippi for too long and didn't know how high Fianna stood. He thought the war between Fianna and Aloso would be long-lasting. He had contacted all publishers who could publish Nasha's novels as quickly as possible.

On the morning when he was about to leave O'Neill with Nasha's manuscript, Matthias, who had returned from Philippi, stopped him.

Mattia said she was Fianna's mentor. She asked him about Nasha and Psyche, and then told him that Aloso was dead and Fianna gave Philippi a new life.

"Do you want to meet Fiana? Fiana has the right to know what happened in the past. I think it would be better for you to tell it."

In response to Mattia's invitation, Ha Zi nodded silently.

Before leaving, Ha Zi took Nasha's manuscript and followed Mattia in a daze.

There were many people sitting in the magic circle, and Ha Zi subconsciously held Nasha's manuscript tightly in his arms, but away from his heart.

This was his long-standing habit. The assassins sent by Aloso always liked to aim for the heart and kill with one shot.

Nasha's manuscript was written many years ago, and the paper was fragile. He carefully protected it so that it was only slightly yellowed.

He didn't know what he was going to say to Nasha's Fiana. He just wanted to give Nasha's manuscript to Fiana... His mind was blank.

But the moment he stepped into Rose Mansion, his memory revived like a volcanic eruption. All the scenes were so vivid, as if Nasha and Sai Ke were still alive, and in the next second Sai Ke could stick her head out of the castle window and say, "Ha Zi, you are here?"

Then Hazi met Fiana.

Time seemed to suddenly start moving for Ha Zi. He finally came back to life. He turned back into the old Ha Zi. He spoke to Fiana in the same tone as he had with Nashasek.

He realized that he didn't want to make Fiana sad.

He had always thought that Fiana was the one who was best protected. The living were in agony, and the dead died in their best years. Fiana didn't understand all this, and she didn't know how lucky she was.

But is Fiana really lucky?

Ha Zi denied himself. No one knew better than him how good Na Xia and Sai Ke were.

His emotions began to get out of control.

He emphasized Aloso's guilt and Fianna's innocence.

Fiana had never done anything wrong. Nasha, Psyche, him, and his brother all knew it.

Psycho originally wanted to show Fiana the last page of Nasha's novel, but his emotions had already collapsed.

He hurriedly told Fiana what he needed to say, handed the manuscript in his hand to her, and then ran out of the Rose Mansion.

He calmed himself down and met Mattia who had just returned from buying breakfast.

In Matija's hand, he was holding the blueberry shortbread that he was so familiar with.

Still tastes terrible.

During the silent time, he recalled his response to "Ha Zi, you are here".

"I brought some blueberry shortbread made by Sheke. Did you have breakfast, Seke?"

He always says that.

The Sai Ke who leaned against the window and scolded him for his bad intentions was gone, and Nasha who stopped Sai Ke from scolding him was gone too. But Shek was still alive. The people who knew that all this really happened and that he had existed in this memory were still alive.

Ha Zi cried sadly.

His memory faded. He remembered the taste of Shek's blueberry shortbread, but he couldn't remember the color of the flowers that Nasha and Seko grew.

He could finally reminisce about the past openly, but his memory became incomplete due to his deliberate avoidance.

He left Philippi after instructing Matthias to take Nasha's manuscript back to Titheg.

He had been looking through his notes for several days. He tried to find memories of those years in the discontinuous words. He also wanted to fill the entire title page with Nasha's author introduction as much as possible.

Nasha's existence was erased by Aloso, but he knew how great Nasha was, and he wanted people to remember Nasha and know what an interesting and talented writer Nasha was.

On the day of Qiguang Festival, Ha Zi found the random things he had written while in the mental hospital.

He had received the manuscript sent by Matija and knew that Fianna had come to O'Neill. He had not planned to go to the bonfire party, but he found a notebook full of words.

Although it is filled with words, there is actually only one name repeated over and over again.

【Stuart Shelia Lorte】

...was a strange and difficult-to-pronounce name that Nasha came up with to replace the character "Fiana" in her novel.

Nasha was playing Scrabble at the time, and she said the name casually mostly as a joke, but she must have had other alternative names in mind.

Even though Ha Zi knew she was joking, he didn't continue asking because he hadn't finished proofreading the manuscript yet, and he could always ask Na Xia what she wanted to replace it with later.

But now, he would never know.

He regrets it.

So he came to the bonfire party and found Fiana through Matija.

He told Fiana about this and let her decide what the name of 'Fiana' written by Naxia should be.

……

"So I told Hazi to change it to 'Afanasyia.'"

Fiana hesitated a little.

"Nolvaya, I don't know if this is right."

Nolvia pondered, then looked up and asked her.

"Fiana, didn't Hazi ask you why you changed your name to this?"

"He asked."

"And what was your answer?"

“Because I want people to think of Afanasy rather than Fianna when they think of this book.

In Philippi, there are many old stories whose authors have been lost, but the stories themselves have survived, and the names of the protagonists are still clear.

Fiana said seriously.

"That way, even after many years, people will still remember 'Afanasyia'."

Norvia was slightly startled. After a while, she looked at Fiana with an absolutely firm tone.

“Fiana, I don’t know if this is the right decision, but I think if Afanasya knew your idea, she would be very, very happy.

I know Afanasya loves you very much. But I don’t know if you realize it… Fiana, you love her more than you think.”