step by step addiction

For the first time in her life, Ji Yunsu went against her own reason and made a bold and unknown decision, that is, to escape from City A with an unexpected, but perfect seed for her.

She has thought about it many times, and persuaded herself countless times. Almost every day, she tells herself to deal with problems rationally, but the more she thinks deeply, the more she can't tell what is sensibility and what is rational.

She once thought that she would become a lonely old man, because deep down, she had great prejudice against men.

Ji Pingchang, Ji Yan, and those debt collectors, Xie Cheng, Zhuang Yan, Fu Tingyang, and even Li Mobai, they will all sacrifice her for their own interests.

Ever since she was a child, what she was most disappointed with was men, and what she had seen the most was the ugly faces of men.

Such prejudice, after experiencing so many things, has now reached its peak.

Ji Yunsu doesn't think he can still view the relationship between men and women normally.As for marriage, this topic that she deliberately doesn't think about, once it pops up occasionally, the disgust and hatred in her heart will engulf her like a tide.

She had an idea early on: If she could, she would like to die alone.

This kind of thought disappeared for a while when he met Xie Cheng, and completely fell silent when he met Zhuang Yan.

I don't want a paper contract and a complete rebound.

Sure enough, men are all fucking bad things.

Ji Yunsu is aware of his heart, and it is basically difficult to develop an intimate relationship with a man. After all, so far, the two intimate relationships have ended in disastrous failures, and it is not without reason.

Perhaps, she was not able to get along with people intimately, and she didn't want anyone to peek into her heart, which would make her extremely disturbed.

That being the case, then she should make up her mind. In order not to let herself die alone, she can have a child for herself.

One day when her mother leaves this world, she won't become an orphan, right, after all, she still has a family.

This child, with perfect genes, will definitely be smart and beautiful in the future.

And with this child, she doesn't need to get married, serve her in-laws, or be angry with her husband, she doesn't need to leave her home, she doesn't need to call strangers' parents, and she can live with her mother all the time.

Although children will lack the love of their father, there are so many divorced people now, and there are countless widowed parenting. Who can be sure that children will not be happy and happy without a father, as long as she creates a healthy family environment for children, so that children If you have a healthy mind, then at most it is a pity.

How can a person live in this world without regrets?

So in the end, even she couldn't tell whether it was rational or emotional to keep this child.

She saw the future she wanted from this child, and she even forgot the pure reluctance when she stopped in the hospital.

Now she just wants to take this child as her own, even thinking that the child will be smart and cute in the future, she is excited and looking forward to it.

She will probably never meet a better gene than Zhuang Yan in her entire life.

Ji Yunsu actually didn't intend to leave City A at first, let alone it would be so complicated.

She thought that when the contract was over, the two of them would definitely return home, and she would never have an entanglement with him even if she died.

But what she didn't expect was that everything went wrong from the moment she left the job.

Zhuang Yan didn't intend to become a stranger after the contract ended. Although he was strong enough to face the relationship between the two of them calmly, she couldn't let them meet again.

So she wanted to leave, and even gave up on going brightly just in case, because there was no guarantee that he would send someone to follow her. He said that he would wait for her to recover from her injuries. If she really waited until then, she should be exposed.

"jingle"

Ji Yunsu was in a daze when a notification sounded.She took out an old cell phone.

It was from Feng Chi.

"Is the road going well?"

Ji Yunsu smiled and took a deep breath. At this moment, she felt a sense of freedom that she had not seen for a long time after breaking out of the cage and regaining a new life. She only felt relieved and comfortable.

"It's going well, thank you for helping me along the way."

Ji Yunsu didn't meet Feng Chi many times, but it was strange that she had an inexplicable trust in him.

And the only person she can think of who can help her is Feng Chi.

Because Feng Chi is in the bar business, he took advantage of his connections with the circle. After sending Ji Yunsu out of City A on the first night, he asked fellow bosses from other regions to help cover her.

She didn't tell Feng Chi why she left, and Feng Chi didn't ask, which also deepened Ji Yunsu's sense of trust.

How many people in this world would help her without asking why.

Feng Chi stared at Ji Yunsu's reply in a daze. After a long time, he edited slowly: "Thank you so much. Treat me to dinner when I come back."

will you come back?

Ji Yunsu pursed her lips, would she go back?

Although city A has two of the best law firms in the country, whenever she thinks of him being in that city, her heart will tighten, and all the negative emotions will pour over her, making her breathless.

Just like now, when that person inadvertently appeared in my mind, I would feel as if my head was covered by a plastic bag, suffocating, uncomfortable, painful, and struggling.

Ji Yunsu covered his heart, although he knew it was a psychological effect, he still breathed with his mouth open as if trying to survive.

She shook her head violently, forcing that figure out of her mind.

Can't think, don't think, it's over, it's over, it's okay, she will never see him again.

She tried to focus on her eyes, and replied, "I will treat you to dinner."

Perhaps, after a while, when she recovers, she will have the courage to stay in his city for a short time.

......

The music in the bar was deafening.

Feng Chi sat on the edge of the dance floor, feeling the atmosphere here was so depressing for the first time.

Maybe he was too afraid of the quietness of a person, but he didn't know when he began to like this kind of straightforward noise.

Whenever he is on the dance floor, he hears the restless music, and sees countless people singing and dancing, he will be infected, and the excitement factor in his body will be brought out, forgetting the home where no one is waiting, forgetting One person's reunion dinner also forgot the "wild species" and "illegitimate children" in all directions.

So the first thing he did when he became an adult was to open a bar, live here, and treat this place as his home. Countless people would come for him every night, and he no longer had to spend long nights alone.

In the lively illusion he created, he lived a boring life day after day.

Her intrusion was so casual and natural.

He never thought that one day, there would be someone who would stand up and defend him without hesitation.

But that day, she stood in front of him, using her thin body to defend his dignity with righteous words, to speak out for him.

He knew that she just did it unintentionally, but those voices and words repaired his broken heart and made him feel warmth and tenderness.

He suddenly felt that life was not so boring, life seemed to have some kind of hope, he began to look forward to the arrival of day, he was like a kite flying aimlessly in the air, suddenly tied by a kite string.

A solid sense of security.

Maybe he didn't like it at the beginning, and he didn't know when it started to change. She was so beautiful, so powerful, and so gentle. He couldn't think of any reason why he didn't like her.

It's really not that difficult to like someone.

But now that person is gone, he realizes belatedly that he is not so great and selfless.

How much he wanted to keep her by his side.

If she left, would she have a chance?