Fooling Tomoko into being a system

Li Lin walked through the corridor with a water glass, looking at the busy nurses, the crowded corridor, the cold ward, and the cool morning breeze blowing in through the open window of the ward.

He shuddered, shook his head as if to get the image out of his mind, took the boiled water and returned to the ward.

He opened the lid of the water glass, placed it within reach of the bedside, and sat down peacefully under Yun Tianming's complicated eyes.

"I will come to see you when I have time in the future." Yun Tianming heard him ask softly, "Are you going to have chemotherapy today? I passed by other wards and saw nurses hanging potions."

"That's new. The doctor said five days a week."

Yun Tianming didn't understand why he was willing to answer. He was obviously just a stranger he met for the first time, but he felt a sense of familiarity. The young man who called himself Li Lin was very familiar with him and understood his current situation.

"You have nothing to do today, are you going to lie in bed all day?"

"Ah."

Li Lin did not expect that the specific situation was so miserable. Yun Tianming did not go home during the holiday but was lying in the hospital. He seemed to have no desire to live and did not care about company. He did not continue to ask this question. It must not be something that makes people sad. Something comfortable.

"I brought you some gifts, not fruits." Li Lin continued: "They are all in the bag."

It was not a gift of fruit, but Li Lin actually prepared a gift specially, which made Yun Tianming find it difficult to understand.

"Can I open it and have a look?"

"It was originally given to you."

He struggled to put the plastic bag on the hospital bed and opened it. Inside were some daily necessities, a brand-new notebook, towels, toothbrushes, soap...

Below are various toys, including a box of assembled four-wheel drive vehicles, spinning tops, backgammon, flying chess, chess, picking sticks, steel ball mazes, shark teeth...

It was filled with a whole big bag, and I didn’t know where Li Lin got it.

"Do you like it? I found it with great difficulty."

"like."

Seeing Li Lin's proud expression, Yun Tianming could only say that he liked it. After all, he found it deliberately and didn't come directly with a big bag of fruit. He had no appetite and couldn't eat it now. It could be seen that he was careful.

"Originally, I planned to make a list with you. I even bought a pen and a notebook. It's like an American movie "The Bucket List", where you make all your wishes. But I rummaged through my wallet. It was discovered that they had a more important purpose, not allowed.”

Looking at Li Lin who was rubbing his head and smiling awkwardly in front of him, Yun Tianming felt much more relaxed. He did not deliberately avoid the topic of lung cancer. It was as simple as chatting after dinner. He did not face him with caution, as if he was facing his soon-to-be-death. He was such a good person, his attitude made Yun Tianming feel that he was still alive, not a corpse lying in the ward.

"Is there anyone you want to meet? The motivation that keeps you alive during the most difficult times. I also want you to live a few more days. It is said that people who have some kind of support in their hearts live longer."

Yun Tianming automatically ignored Li Lin's wish for him to live a few more days.

Someone you want to meet?He thought of the outing during his freshman year, where he sat on the Miyun Reservoir and she was beside him.

They looked at the vast water together, chatting under the breeze and drizzle, and threw pebbles into the water.

She also folded a small white paper boat and sailed into the distance, which slowly turned into a tiny white dot in his eyes and sailed into his heart.

At that moment the world began to light up, the sky became clear, trees were growing, grass was dancing, birds were singing... He discovered that another world was colorful.

But in fact, there were thick clouds in the sky that day, there was no sun at all, and it was raining continuously. The cold raindrops fell on the back of everyone's neck, and the breeze was also cool. Several students caught cold the next day.

From then on, Yun Tianming fell in love with light rainy days, when the cold drizzle fell on his neck.Falling in love with the cool breeze caressing his face.Falling in love with the wet pebbles, he will pick up the wet pebbles on the ground and throw them into the water, watching the rising waves flow into his heart.

He also folds a small white paper boat and puts it on the bedside.

Even without looking at Yun Tianming's face that was lost in memories, Li Lin knew that he had it. He sighed in his heart, everyone's white moonlight!

"Come to play chess?"

Seeing Yun Tianming in front of him, he ignored himself and couldn't extricate himself from his memories.

"Do you want to live now? Do you want to see her?"

Li Lin's voice rang out again in the empty ward, dragging him out of his memories and making a sweet sound in his heart.

Yun Tianming didn't answer Li Lin. He was just asking and questioning himself.

Do I want to live?

In no mood?

I think!I want to live!Even if it’s just to recall the moment of sitting in Miyun Reservoir and that beautiful picture.

Do I want to see her?

think?

In no mood!I don't want to see her!I can't let her see me looking like this, with messy hair, black and white, uneven lengths, and the cleaners have to clean the hair that falls off the pillow every day.

And this loose skin can actually wrap around the arms, like plastic tape wrapped around a telephone pole.

I don't even want her to come visit and find myself lying alone in the hospital bed without the company of my relatives.

If she knew about it, she would definitely spend her last days with her, even if she was just a passer-by in her life. She deserves someone better than herself. She cannot ask for this kind of charity-like sympathy. This is not What he wants...

What's more, it will affect her life, so she will die silently with her memories.

"It seems you have the answer."

Yun Tianming finally remembered what Li Lin had said. He didn't want him to continue asking, so he took a big breath and said, "Get off."

He could have called the nurse to drive Li Lin away, but he didn't.

He still had luck in his heart, expecting her to fly to him like an angel, take a look at him, and leave calmly.

I saw that he was accompanied by friends, that he was living a good life, and that he had a handsome side.

He needed a friend now, a friend she could see when she came, who would be a friend to a lung cancer patient lying in the ward.

Yun Tianming continued: "Are we friends now?"

Li Lin didn't expect that Yun Tianming would say this first. He planned to wait until the two of them got to know each other well before saying it.

"of course."

It seems that Yun Tianming's desire to die has been temporarily resolved.

I don't have any family members with me, so I hope she won't feel weird.

My sister and I had a good relationship when we were children, and I still remember the happy times we played together. But then our relationship gradually became dull. This kind of alienation is inevitable because they are two different people with different pursuits.

After she became ill, she left her father to be taken care of by her sister. She also had to take care of her own family, and her sister did not have time to accompany and visit her.

My father has secretly used his savings to treat himself. The disease cannot be cured. When my father and I go there, the money will be considered my sister's. Now I am using my sister's money. If I leave early, I can save my sister's money.

This money is like a big mountain pressing on him, but he can't die now. He still has memories of her in his heart, and he wants to see her! !He doesn't want to see her! !