I can enter Hogwarts in the last days

Chapter 177 The biggest existential crisis

Slowly walking down the Astronomy Tower, this time he did not choose to let Phoenix take him back to the dormitory.

There is no reason, just a simple thought, a pure will, and he chose to follow this will.

Along the way, there were no waves, no accidents happened.Some are just his nostalgia for magic, he almost stops for a few seconds before each portrait.

"After energy comes information..." Ian thought to himself looking at these portraits.

ten minutes later.

North Tower, in front of the Ravenclaw Common Room.He finally understood why he had the idea of ​​walking just now.

"Asleep? Is your phone dead? You asked me a question." Ian knocked on the bronze door knocker and said with some confusion.

Yes, he only thought of Dumbledore, but ignored his own headmaster - Rowena Ravenclaw.

He had obviously thought that the door knocker was a Ravenclaw arrangement, but he actually ignored it when he needed it most.

"Thank you, ma'am." Ian said softly.

The senses of the body receive various information from the outside world and the heart, and then transmit it to the brain through the nerves, which stimulate the brain to a certain extent, thus forming a certain kind of cognition.

Therefore, in the face of this kind of direct question, he was speechless.

"I don't know, can you let me go back, I'm only in the fourth grade, I just want to go back to the dormitory and sleep..."

If you can't prove your existence, you can only deny everything in disguise.And...in the world of HP, a world made up of energy and magic, in a world where all wishes come true, instead of denying its own existence?The price...

Facing Rowena Ravenclaw's direct questions, he found that all the opportunistic Zen knowledge he had in previous lives had disappeared.

This is not to say that Zen cannot answer this question. Zen can basically explain many things.If you are in a hurry, you can also zoom in on your tricks, keep silent and smile.

But he turned a deaf ear to this, and now in his cognition, the world cannot prove it, let alone others.

After sitting up from the bed, Ian didn't wash and change clothes as usual.Instead, he continued to sit on the bed in a daze. A night of deep sleep did not soothe his emotions. On the contrary, with the deepening of time, he now extremely doubts the authenticity of everything around him.

A person walks through the lounge hall and slowly walks towards his bedroom.Ian vaguely felt that someone was talking to him, or greeting him.

At the same time, the door to the common room opened.

But he quickly shook his head and denied it, because the 'now' when he had this idea has already become the 'past'.

Although he didn't feel hungry at all, he still chose to take out the food he had stored before, a piece of hard dry cheese from the dragon skin pocket, and then took a glass of water in the bathroom, and ate it bite by bite.

Even if he crossed over to the Leaky Cauldron for the first time, he was only vigilant and defensive, not as... powerless as he is now.

If Ian had a mirror at this moment, he would definitely be able to see the huge changes in him, as if all his energy had been taken away, he was sluggish, tired, and weak.

At this moment, Ian thought of the famous Time Turner.

Time passed by every minute and every second, fortunately it would be curfew time, and Ravenclaw students did not have a habit of night travel.

……

He knows that if he wants to prove his existence, he must first see the objective reality, not the false reality that human beings recognize through themselves.

At this moment, if I turn on the time turner and see myself in the past, can I prove my existence?

At this moment, the bronze door knocker, which had been silent for a while, woke up again.

Although I was eating, it was as if I had lost my sense of taste, like chewing wax without any taste.For now, just eat for the sake of eating.

Although it is clear, he has nothing to do about it, because he has already denied the existence of the world, and has already developed a strong sense of separation.This is not an agreement between children. If you are naughty, just say "I regret it" and you can start from the beginning.

Because in the thinking just now, he has already denied the existence of the whole world including himself.

Returning to his own bed, he put down the dark blue velvet curtain, and under extreme exhaustion, almost fell into a deep sleep next to the pillow.

"How can I prove that I exist? I can't at all!" This was the only answer in Ian's heart, but... he understood this wrong answer.

After eating the cheese, he still sat upright on the bed. He didn't want to do anything, such as reading in the library, walking by the black lake... he was not interested in anything, and even some familiar faces gradually became blurred.

Ian's inability to answer is because he doesn't really have the knowledge of Zen.The unity of knowledge and action, he can't even call it 'knowledge', what used to be called at best-transportation and retelling.

Ian's brain is overloaded at the moment, but the more so, the more clearly he realizes his insignificance and ignorance.

This sleep lasted almost 12 hours. Fortunately, he had applied for a class break before, which saved him from all kinds of interruptions.

"We can't go on like this... we have to move at least." Ian warned himself silently in his heart.

"How do you prove your existence?"

"As you wish!" Rowena Ravenclaw's voice sounded again from inside the bronze knocker.

At this moment, the pale golden eyes seemed to have turned black again, and the flame that continued to burn in the pupils was only a tiny point of light.

Although it was only a normal volume, it was no less than a clear sky and thunder when it fell into his ears.

"Prove your existence?" Ian repeated this sentence unconsciously.

Ian knew it was because he had lost his desire.All motivation comes from the expulsion of desire, and this is true for walking, sitting, sitting and lying down.

A tired and decadent voice sounded.

This also explains why Dumbledore once said that the time converter cannot change what has happened, because the parallel universe cannot affect another time and space, and it is even more impossible to break through the sequence of time and space, so it cannot change what has happened in this time and space matter.

The Time-Turner can see an alter ego, no question about that.But... What I see is not necessarily the self in this time and space, just like a parallel universe.

It's just... He is very clear that this thing is nothing more than bioelectricity generated by nerve conduction.They are all false, but this also becomes a paradox, proving the truth in the false?It is simply impossible to prove.

a long time……

This time it was no longer the original mechanical sound of the door knocker.But a female voice, ethereal, gentle, sweet, cold...

He understands that his state is very dangerous. If he cannot prove his existence as soon as possible, he will eventually become desireless until even the last trace of self-awareness disappears.

"I can only rely on myself..." At this moment, Ian regretted so much that he should have gone directly to Dumbledore instead of looking for Rowena Ravenclaw.

But no matter how much it is said now, it will not help. In his current state, let alone find Dumbledore, there is nothing Merlin can do when he is alive.The whole world has denied it, and the people living in this world can't be changed by anything they say.

ps: Sorry everyone, these two chapters are a bit brain-intensive.The main reason is that Xiaodi wants to pave the way for the next awakening of the soul, making it less obtrusive, and also serves as an introduction for the fifth awakening.