[Full-time Master]Why is it you again?

After I yelled the last syllable uncontrollably, the scene fell into silence for a while.

Zhang Jiale said nothing. He just looked at me silently, with unbearable eyes.

I pursed my lips tightly and tried to control my breathing rate, but I couldn't.

——Actually, I should have known this earlier, right?

He has been hiding this from me for the past few months.

But I stupidly didn’t want to go into details.

Zhang Jiale finally left Baihua, just like he did in his previous life.

Even if I win the championship, even if I change part of the future - I still can't change the ending of his departure.

…Are all things really destined?

At this moment, I suddenly felt that the future was bleak.

All my efforts are like a joke at this moment. Big joke.

God gave me a chance to be reborn.

But it seemed like it was teasing me - because no matter how hard I tried, the ending would not change, it would still proceed as before.

I laughed at myself in my heart: Just fantasize! But no matter what, you can't change the established facts! And you will be alone like in your previous life until you fall into silence.

Return to silence.

These four words made some of the emotions that were surging in my heart settle down.

Suddenly, my eyes went dark.

I had not had a good rest, but now my brain began to feel dizzy, my hands and feet were weak, and I seemed to be turning around in confusion.

"Yanyan...Yanyan!?" Zhang Jiale took a few frightened steps to help me. He seemed not to have expected such a big reaction from me, "Don't scare me..."

Trembling tone.

He was very scared. I'm afraid something will happen to me - but actually, I wish I could pass out right now.

I didn't want to talk to him, just shook off his hand and stood up straight.

"Zhang Jiale." I heard him calling his name.

The remaining dignity made me want to laugh, but my cheeks were sore and numb from holding back the tears.

I asked him: "What do you think I am?"

"……what?"

I broke into a smile.

"I said, what do you take me for?" I murmured softly to myself, as if I was asking him, but also as if I was asking myself, "Partner? Couple? Or - it doesn't matter, fan? You Can you just retire without saying a word? It’s like——"

Just like in the previous life.

I smiled bitterly.

At this moment, I think I truly understand the situation in my previous life.

Yes, after the summer break of the seventh season, Zhang Jiale directly announced his retirement, and even Baihua Club did not notify him in advance.

Everything came so suddenly. His fans asked him "why he left." It is true that this is forcing an already tired young man to come out and face criticism again, but it is not his own fault.

Zhang Jiale was burdened with too much. He is an overly ambitious person. He can persist for five seasons because of his dream, or he can retire without saying a word when he is finally on the verge of collapse. This is both unexpected and reasonable.

"But now is different from the previous life." I raised my head and looked at Zhang Jiale, "You said that now you have me. Now you have a champion. Is the burden on you really that heavy?"

Zhang Jiale was stunned for a moment. He opened his mouth, and then he slowly realized what I was talking about - it was something from his past life.

"Thank you." I said to myself, but my tone was so calm, "Thank you for making me understand that I can't do anything at all, and I can't change anything..."

In the end, Zhang Jiale finally realized that this was the calm before the storm. He said in a panic, "Yanyan, calm down... From another perspective, it is actually a good thing for me to retire -"

"You don't understand!" I suddenly interrupted him and yelled, while staring at him, "You don't understand anything at all... What do you want to say? Do you want to be good for me? But - you Do you really look at me!?"

At this moment, I had forgotten everything. I was only focused on venting my emotions and shouted at Zhang Jiale: "Do you understand? Do you understand this feeling of being hidden by your loved ones? You are retiring, no matter what Why can such a big thing be hidden from me? I have been abandoned by you! You are still complacent, do you think you have done something good? Something that is beneficial to me? "

My tone became more and more urgent: "But have you really considered my feelings!? Ah? Who am I to you? You keep saying you like me - but you do what you want to do! Do it for me Okay, is this for me? But why can’t I feel it! These things are just what you want to do. As your girlfriend, have you ever asked me a question?!"

The more he talked about it, the angrier he became, and in the end his eyes almost turned red!

Zhang Jiale, on the other hand, looked at me blankly. Maybe he had imagined my reaction when I learned about this, but he had never imagined the stormy scene like now.

My eyes were red, my heart was full of sadness, and my breath was unsteady.

"You hid everything from me. I promised to be your girlfriend. Do you think I am sympathizing with you or pitying you? It's just because I feel the same way as you!" I suddenly took a step closer to him, He pointed fiercely at Zhang Jiale's heart and yelled, "I like you! Do you understand? We are in a relationship. This is a two-way emotional investment, not your self-care dedication! I hate you! You This self-righteous guy - I don’t need your ‘kindness’!!”

After shouting this sentence, I almost couldn't breathe.

"But I am willing!" Zhang Jiale said, his face flushed slightly and he looked very urgent, "Yanyan, you know, I am actually very satisfied after winning the championship... Because the championship is my biggest wish."

"I know that I will work hard in the past few years, and my career life will be shortened, but it is all worth it for the championship. I think when I win the championship, my career life will be almost over - just retired. But come on From a certain moment on, I knew that I had a second wish."

Zhang Jiale took a deep breath to calm down. He looked down at the girl, his brown eyes full of seriousness.

He said: "I want you to become a truly top player in the Glory League. Now, you are still one step away from this position - that is my retirement."

Yes. Zhang Jiale hypnotized himself in his heart - for his Yanyan, he wouldn't be unwilling to do anything, right?

Zhang Jiale looked at the top of the girl's hair. She lowered her head, wondering what she was thinking.

There was tenderness in his eyes, as well as some morbid emotion hidden deep inside.

"The captain of Baihua, the first ammunition for glory. This is what you can't get when the two of us work at the same time..." He said softly, as if seduced, and with a strange kind of satisfaction, "These are all now. Yours. Yanyan, you are truly the number one in the league."

After the words fell, the room fell into silence again.

Zhang Jiale felt strange in his heart.

"But Zhang Jiale. Do you know I don't want this?"

I closed my eyes: "I don't want this. I entered the Alliance and came to Baihua just because of you. Even if I persist until now, a large part of the reason is because I want to be with you. Tired, very tired, but I feel all this It’s all worth it for you.”

As a result, Zhang Jiale retired. However, I have to shoulder the responsibility of Baihua and become the captain of Baihua.

In a radical way, he gave up everything he had to me...but God knows I don't need it!

"I don't need anything from you." I have calmed down a lot now, but my breath is still unsteady and my words are a little incoherent: "I just want to be with you."

"...Your original intention of coming to the alliance was for me?" Zhang Jiale asked.

I laughed out loud.

"What we are discussing now is your retirement! Not some damn original intention! That kind of ethereal thing——"

"But I don't want to. Glory for any e-sports player... is not an add-on." Zhang Jiale said, with a determined look in his eyes, "Yanyan... I think you have to think carefully about entering the league. original intention.”

Extras. original intention.

I almost lost my temper: What else is Zhang Jiale thinking about now? What add-ons? Original intention?

Do I need to care about this?

I only care about being with him! Become his companion so that he will not be as lonely and helpless as he was in his previous life and finally retired sadly!

But what is Zhang Jiale talking about now? What did he want me to think about?

It's been a long time coming, like a wild beast about to be released: a violent emotion overflowed in my heart, which I haven't seen since I entered the league.

"What do I care about you!" I was so angry that my body was trembling, "I'm afraid you really have a mental problem..."

Before I finished speaking, my head was not clear again, and my body was a little unable to stand up.

"..." Zhang Jiale took a deep breath when he saw my appearance, and came over in a panic, "Yanyan, don't be too sad. You can look for it if you have nothing to do, but it is not easy to maintain good health. Don't always think about things. Is it okay to get into trouble? In fact, we..."

"Going to the extreme? Who is it that always thinks in extremes when thinking about problems?" I interrupted him directly, gritted my teeth and said: "Okay. I know that your nerves have been tense since Sun Zheping retired, no matter how relaxed you are on the surface. There is always a tight string in my heart - but I think these things will gradually get better after winning the championship. I thought that I can stay with you until you get better. Haha, TOP1? Not at all. Not one ten thousandth as good as our best partner title. We will be better."

"But what about you? You cut off all hope."

The more I talked, the sadder I became.

he's gone. These three words swirled in my mind, a sense of emptiness that never came and magnified infinitely.

Then decide.

"Now that you have announced that you are leaving, I will stop talking nonsense."

When I decided to say those words, I felt inexplicably relieved.

"Zhang Jiale." I raised my head and looked at the young man.

Zhang Jiale had already realized what I was going to say. His expression was filled with extreme confusion and discomfort, and even his body looked much thinner - I couldn't bear it.

But we both know this is the best option at the moment.

"let's break up."