Life is more than just living

Han Yidao thought about it seriously, "I went to kindergarten when I was five years old. At that time, I lived at my grandma's house. I came back every day and ran around in the community, playing with Meng Xiangyu and the others. On weekends, my grandpa would take me to the zoo. Or the playground; when I was ten years old, I was in the third or fourth grade. Because of what happened before, I became more sensible and no longer naughty. My mother always wanted to take me home, but I wanted to stay with her. When I was with my grandparents, I worked hard to be a good kid every day. Sometimes I would help my grandmother with some housework, and sometimes I would practice calligraphy under my grandfather’s guidance. My grandmother would teach me some poems when she was free. When I was 15, I was picked up by my mother. I went home and pretended to go out to play ball on weekends, but actually sneaked back to see my grandparents. I went to high school at the age of 16. At that time, I learned to play ball and roller skating every day. They were all ordinary things, weren't they boring?"

Chen Xu's eyes were a little sore, "No, I think it's very interesting. I've always dreamed of living that kind of life." She didn't dare to look into Han Yidao's eyes for fear that she wouldn't be able to continue, "My parents divorced when I was five years old, and both parents gave up." My father's stepmother took me to the garbage dump to pick up rags every day to make a living. One day I had a fever and couldn't pick up rags, so my grandma wouldn't give me food, let alone medicine." Han Yidao was so shocked that he opened his mouth. Speechless. Chen Xu continued: "Later, my aunt persuaded my grandma to send me to my mother, and my grandma left me outside the restaurant where my mother used to work. But my mother no longer worked there at that time. I couldn't find my mother. I couldn't find a home. When I was five years old, I walked from day to night in the county town. Later, my neighbor's brother met me and took me back. In the next five years, I worked hard in order not to be abandoned and to have food to eat. I always rummaged through the trash for things, no matter how dirty or smelly they were. When I was ten years old, I had to meet my savior. It was Teacher Lin from our nearby elementary school who pulled me out of the trash pit and took me to the elementary school to register. In order to let my grandma They allowed me to go to school and gave me food. Throughout my elementary school years, I kept picking up books and papers thrown away by my classmates. I went to the school leader's office to clean the house in exchange for old newspapers and magazines, and gave them to my grandma when I was 15 years old. I was bullied by my neighbor's brother when I was 16 years old. , until he was arrested and imprisoned; when I was [-], my mentor unfortunately died suddenly, and I lost the only person who cared about me. Fortunately, my teacher contacted a junior high school where I could stay, and tuition and fees were waived. I went to the cafeteria every day in junior high school. I had to help with the cooking so I could eat. When I returned home during the winter vacation that year, I found that my grandma wouldn’t allow me to go back to live there. Since then, I was homeless and started working as a nurse in the hospital during the winter and summer vacations to support myself.”

Chen Xu originally wanted to say it calmly, but unexpectedly tears welled up in his eyelashes, "Han Yidao, you said that we live under the same sky and in the same country, but do you really think that we are people of the same world?"

Han Yidao hugged Chen Xu fiercely, "I'm sorry, Chen Xu, I'm sorry, I made you sad. I didn't know this was the case. I'm sorry, I really hate myself for not meeting you earlier." Chen Xu wanted to push away. He, but at this time the difference in physical strength between men and women was fully reflected. Chen Xu refused several times to no avail, so he stopped struggling pointlessly. Han Yidao's embrace was very warm, and Chen Xu was greedy for this warmth. She cried silently. She had not shed tears for many years since Teacher Lin passed away, because no one cared. Tears came to my eyes today just because Han Yidao said he wished he had met her earlier.

After a long time, Chen Xu pushed Han Yidao away and said, "Han Yidao, I know you are a very good person. But you and I are not suitable at all for being so unbearable. I may not be able to visit Grandma Wu again in the future. I thank you two for your kindness. I value it, but please allow me to retain a little dignity. Now I need to make a living, not love. I no longer need sympathy, because it is all in the past."

Han Yidao said with red eyes: "I don't sympathize with you, I feel sorry for you."

Chen Xu looked at him and said sincerely: "Han Yidao, thank you! But we are really not suitable. We have known each other for more than a year. I have never seen your mother at Grandma Wu's house. Not even a mother who has raised her for more than 20 years." Being forgiven, do you think she can forgive me for my past? Han Yidao, you are so kind, you must not want some harm to be caused by you, right!"

Han Yidao tried his best to keep his eyes wide open to prevent tears from falling, "Chen Xu, I know I can't give you a home in the near future, but I will work hard, believe me! Before I am qualified to say I love you, please don't run away. Please also You often visit my grandma, and I will not appear in front of you again until the day I am qualified. Chen Xu, everything will be fine, believe me and believe in yourself."

Chen Xu had a severe headache. She didn't understand what Han Yidao meant. Forget it, I didn't want to think about it anymore.

Han Yidao took Chen Xu back to school. Neither of them spoke on the way. When Chen Xu opened the car door and was about to get out of the car, Han Yidao suddenly said, "Chen Xu, you have to be well, eat well, sleep well, and everything will be fine." Get up." Chen Xu nodded and left. Han Yidao stared at Chen Xu's back and said silently: Chen Xu, wait for me.