A foreign city, dear you

Ye Lian was shocked and a little distressed. She continued to read the letter:

But what can I do? I'm hopeless, I can't help myself.

I thought, maybe I came to this world to suffer this kind of suffering.

It's obviously a bitter drink, but I'm still obsessed with the hint of sweetness.

Just let me love you! I don’t ask you to feel it, I don’t ask you to repay me. As long as I can see your presence and hear your voice every day, I will be satisfied and happy.

You have become the source of my happiness, and I want to feel your presence every day when I open my eyes.

Every day, I want to be close to you, but I don’t want my colleagues to notice. I am full of enthusiasm, but I have to be careful.

When you were rehearsing the show, I was afraid that you would eat too late and suffer from hypoglycemia, so I put some snacks on your table when no one was around, but I didn't dare to let you know, for fear that you would reject me.

That evening, when I was helping you move, you were afraid that I would be hit by the falling bed board, and you broke into my arms in an emergency. I really wanted to hug you. But I don't dare, because I'm afraid of dragging you into the quagmire and into eternal disaster.

In order to see you more, I always show up downstairs in your house under mysterious circumstances. I don't have any students near your home, that's just an excuse for me to get closer to you.

The home visit that night was the most memorable home visit for me. The wind that night and the starlight that night had a different kind of warmth for me.

I really hope that we can go on that road forever, so that you can stay by my side forever.

Every time I do something for you, you always say thank you.

I do not want to hear! In your mind, I will always be an outsider.

Do you know that as long as it is for you, I am willing to go through fire and water, even if I die?

I envy your "him", I'm even jealous of him.

But I can only lament that fate has not ordained that I should know you before him.

But I'm happy for you. He loves you so much. It can be seen that he can risk his own life for you.

You are of the same mind, but I am hurting myself and feeling sorry for myself.

Dear Ye Zi, for more than a month, I have tried my best to control myself and not let myself get close to you.

Day by day, I let the pain of Si Lian bite me bit by bit.

I understand you, you definitely don’t want to see me and want to break away from all relations with me.

I will help you, but I would rather destroy myself than destroy you.

The advent of what love is? What is wine in this world?

The people I like already belong to them, but the wine I hate can be bought freely.

I drank to drown my sorrows and lost weight day by day. "The belt is getting wider and wider, but I don't regret it anymore. I feel haggard because of the beauty." I envy the poet that he has a "Yi" that makes him haggard, but my "Yi" is so illusory. Who can understand my "Yi"?

……

Ye Lian couldn't help but blush, what kind of letter is this:

Dear Ye Zi, I have nothing else to ask for.

You are a lotus, and I am just a little fish next to you. If I can see you and feel you every day, I will be content and happy.

But one day, a strong wind suddenly blew. The strong wind is whistling, warning me to stay away from you, otherwise you will suffer.

What can I do? How can I bear to see you beaten and hurt by the world? I chose to hide myself in tears.

Dear Ye Zi, I'm leaving.

We will never see each other again.

Don't blame yourself, thinking that it was you who made me leave Yancheng.

I am an only child, and my parents never let me stay away. It was me who was passionate and determined to come to Yancheng to make a living.

Now, it's time for me to go back to my parents.

Goodbye Yancheng, you showed me the prosperity.

Goodbye Ye Zi, you let me taste the taste of love!

I love you, let me hug you in this letter.

When I wrote this letter, I imagined that I would be brave enough to hug you when I see you for the last time. That has always been my heart's desire, but I am afraid that I am not brave enough.

Dear Ye Zi, will you read this letter? Can I have this honor?

May you always be beautiful and happy

I miss you in another place: Xie Bin 2003

7 April

Ye Lian's nose was sore and her eyes were filled with tears.

What a fool, Teacher Xie, you really gave your affection to someone wrong. How can an ordinary person like me be worthy of you neglecting yourself like this?

One by one, past events slowly flashed in front of Ye Lian like a movie:

Teacher Xie stretched out his arm when she was dizzy and about to collapse; Teacher Xie put snacks on her desk when she was rehearsing her program;

When she moved, Teacher Xie helped her disassemble and move things; when she ran out of gas to cook, Teacher Xie worked hard to help her carry gas upstairs...

Thank you, Teacher, thank you, Teacher, you have done so much for me, but I only bring you pain and suffering. I owe you so much...

Ye Lian thought about it, feeling guilty and regretful, and she couldn't calm down.

She regretted not saying a word to Teacher Xie just now, even if it was just an apology.

After a while, Ye Lian finally calmed down.

She put the letter back into the envelope, stared at it for a moment, then raised her hand and threw the letter into the ditch.

"Teacher Xie, I'm sorry that I have let down your affection. There must be a better girl waiting for you who deserves your love."

The letter drew an arc in the air, fell into the channel, landed on the water, then circled and slowly flowed forward.

Ye Lian followed the water and ran away.

She saw that the letter was slowly soaked in water and softened, floating, and it was hung on a water plant.

The water in the canal hummed and flowed forward on its own, not paying much attention to the drifting of the letter.

But Xin did not want to continue drifting, so he chose to stay on the water plant, and slowly expressed his heartfelt feelings to the water plant.

Ye Lian felt that to Teacher Xie, she was like the running water, so ruthless, and not as capable as that water plant in accepting that attachment.

……

It was getting dark, and Ye Lian slowly walked back.

Suddenly, the plan to leave Meiying School was no longer vague. She decided to leave and go to another place, somewhere closer to Cao Xueqian, to start over.

Teacher Xie's affection for her was so deep that Ye Lian didn't expect it.

Her heart was filled with emotion, and she would shed tears when she thought about it.

But she knew that this was a wrong love and she could not accept it.

Time is a good medicine for healing. I hope Teacher Xie can get over this wrong love one day soon.

As for herself, she knew clearly that no one could replace Cao Xueqian, and no one could treat her better than Cao Xueqian.

Ye Lian felt that it must be her reason that made Teacher Xie leave.

If she had known this, she should not have appeared at the American and British schools.

As for the American and British schools, the dispute between her and Teacher Xie has been broadcast, and the school leaders have also put on colored glasses towards her. That campus would also make her feel guilty about Teacher Xie.

What else is she doing here?

"I'll leave too! Let all memories drift away with the wind!" Thinking like this, Ye Lian no longer hesitated in her heart.

At night, Yanchengxi Station.

Teacher Xie was waiting on the platform with a suitcase at his feet. The platform was bustling with people, but Teacher Xie looked in a trance.

He was wearing that white T-shirt, and he thought that it might be the only piece of clothing that could remain in Ye Lian's memory.

The train rumbled into the station, and the doors opened one by one. Teacher Xie looked back with great nostalgia.

That lotus-like woman, have you gone home now? Have you understood how much I feel about you? The last time I saw you, I didn't have the courage to hug you.

Goodbye, dear leaves.

Teacher Xie looked back at the long platform again, imagining that his beloved would miraculously appear.

But fantasy is fantasy after all.

Despondently, Teacher Xie picked up the suitcase at his feet and walked towards his carriage.

The lights on the platform were bright, but he felt like he was still dark inside.

As I walked, two crystal tears slipped down unconsciously...