Siheyuan: Sap is the last word

He Yudong ignored Sha Zhu, turned back to his room and slammed the door shut.

Sha Zhu sighed. He knew that He Yudong felt bad and he also knew that he needed time to digest it all.

He silently picked up the things on the floor and returned to his room.

For the next few days, He Yudong locked himself in his room and refused to see anyone.

He recalled the past over and over again, asking himself again and again why he was so stupid to believe Qin Huairu's lies.

He hated Qin Huairu and he hated himself.

He hated himself for being cowardly and for not being able to protect his family.

He hated himself for causing his wife and children so much suffering.

He hated himself for ruining his life.

Sha Zhu would knock on He Yudong's door every day, bring him food, and chat with him.

He knew that what He Yudong needed most now was companionship.

He hopes to help He Yudong come out of the shadows and start his life again.

However, He Yudong still refused to open his heart.

He shut himself off from others and refused to communicate with anyone.

Sha Zhu was very worried when he saw He Yudong becoming increasingly thinner.

He knew that if this continued, He Yudong would collapse sooner or later.

That day, Sha Zhu came to He Yudong's room again and knocked on the door.

"Yudong, open the door, it's me."

There was no response from the house.

Sha Zhu knocked a few more times, but still no response.

He began to worry, afraid that He Yudong would do something stupid.

He slammed the door hard: "Yudong, open the door! If you don't open the door, I will bang on it!"

There was still no movement in the room.

Sha Zhu no longer hesitated. He took a few steps back and then slammed towards the door.

With a loud bang, the door was pushed open.

Sha Zhu rushed into the room and saw He Yudong sitting on the bed with a knife in his hand.

On the blade, a cold light flashed...

The knock on the door was very light, as if he was afraid of disturbing the people in the house. He Yudong put down the book in his hand, walked to the door, hesitated for a moment, and then opened the door.

Standing at the door was Qin Huairu, holding a basket filled with some fruits and snacks.

Seeing He Yudong, Qin Huairu showed an awkward smile on her face: "Yudong, you're back."

He Yudong nodded but said nothing. He didn't know how to face Qin Huairu.

"I...I came to see you." Qin Huairu said, handing the basket to He Yudong, "Here are some things I brought for you."

He Yudong didn't answer. He looked at Qin Huairu coldly: "What are you doing here?"

The smile on Qin Huairu's face froze. She didn't expect He Yudong to have such an attitude.

"Yudong, I know you still blame me, but..."

"What do you have to say?" He Yudong interrupted her, "Haven't you hurt me enough?"

Qin Huairu's tears suddenly flowed down: "Yudong, I know I was wrong, I really know I was wrong. I had no choice at the time. Jia Dongxu left, and I was alone with three children, I..."

"Don't mention Jia Dongxu to me!" He Yudong roared, "You sent me to jail for Jia Dongxu, and you still have the nerve to mention him?"

Qin Huairu cried even harder: "Yudong, I beg you, don't say anymore, I beg you..."

He Yudong looked at the crying Qin Huairu with mixed feelings. He hated her but also felt sorry for her.

He knew that Qin Huairu was also a poor person. As a woman with three children, her life was not easy.

But he couldn't forgive her because she had hurt him so badly.

"Go away." He Yudong said coldly, "I don't want to see you again."

Qin Huairu wanted to say something, but when she saw He Yudong's cold eyes, she knew that it was useless for her to say anything.

She turned around silently and left the courtyard.

He Yudong closed the door, leaned against it, and took a deep breath.

He felt very tired, very exhausted.

He didn't know what to do next, and he didn't know who he could trust.

He felt like a child abandoned by the world, with no one to rely on.

When Sha Zhu came back, he saw that He Yudong looked unhappy and asked with concern, "Yudong, what's wrong with you?"

He Yudong shook his head and said nothing.

Sha Zhu knew that He Yudong had something on his mind, but he did not ask any further questions. He silently poured He Yudong a glass of water.

"Yudong, drink some water."

He Yudong took the cup of water, took a sip, and then put the cup on the table.

"Brother, I want to move out."

Sha Zhu was stunned for a moment. He didn't expect He Yudong to suddenly propose to move out.

"Yudong, what's wrong with you? Why are you moving out?"

"Brother, I want to be alone for a while."

Sha Zhu sighed. He knew that He Yudong was feeling bad, so he didn't try to persuade him anymore.

"Okay, if you want to move out, then go ahead. But if you have any difficulties, you must tell me, don't keep it in your heart."

"I know, brother."

The next day, He Yudong moved out of the courtyard.

He found a cheap house and lived there alone.

He began to look for a job hard, he didn't want to rely on Sha Zhu anymore.

He knew that he had to start over and rely on his own efforts to stand up again.

He found a delivery job, getting up early and working late every day to deliver goods. Although it was hard work, he felt very fulfilled.

He knew that he was moving towards a new life step by step.

One day, He Yudong was delivering goods to a high-end residential area when he saw a familiar figure.

It’s Qin Jingru.

Qin Jingru also saw He Yudong. She was stunned for a moment, then quickly walked up to He Yudong.

"Yudong, is it really you?"

He Yudong nodded and said nothing.

"Yudong, are you...are you doing well?" Qin Jingru asked with concern.

He Yudong smiled and didn't answer.

"Yudong, I...I want to treat you to a meal, is that okay?"

He Yudong hesitated for a moment, then nodded.

He knew that there was no possibility between him and Qin Jingru.

However, he still accepted Qin Jingru's invitation.

He wanted to know how Qin Jingru was doing now.

The two went to a restaurant, ordered a few dishes, and chatted while eating.

Qin Jingru told He Yudong that she was living a good life now. She had married a rich man and lived a worry-free life.

He Yudong felt very uncomfortable when listening to Qin Jingru's story.

He once loved Qin Jingru deeply, but Qin Jingru chose someone else.

Now, Qin Jingru lives a happy life, but he has nothing.

He felt like a loser, an outcast from the world.

"Yudong, what's wrong with you?" Qin Jingru asked with concern when she saw that He Yudong looked unhappy.

He Yudong shook his head and said nothing.

He didn't want Qin Jingru to know his situation, and he didn't want Qin Jingru to feel sorry for him.

"Yudong, are you...are you still blaming me?" Qin Jingru asked cautiously.

He Yudong smiled and said, "Why should I blame you? You didn't do anything wrong."

"Yudong, I know you still have me in your heart, right?" Qin Jingru suddenly said.

He Yudong was stunned for a moment. He didn't expect Qin Jingru to say such a thing.

"Jingru, don't talk nonsense."

"Yudong, I'm not talking nonsense. I know you still have me in your heart." Qin Jingru said, holding He Yudong's hand, "Yudong, let's start over."

He Yudong looked at Qin Jingru with mixed feelings in his heart...

The knock on the door was very light, as if afraid of disturbing something. He Yudong put down the book in his hand, wondering who could be here at this time? Sha Zhu should be busy in the kitchen. He walked to the door and gently opened it.

Standing at the door was a woman, a woman who was both familiar and unfamiliar to him - Qin Huairu.

A year ago, she was the most beautiful woman in the hospital, as fresh and beautiful as a rose. But now, she is like a flower destroyed by a rainstorm, haggard. Her originally fair face is now covered with traces of time, and there are many more crow's feet at the corners of her eyes.

When Qin Huairu saw He Yudong, she was obviously stunned for a moment, and a complex emotion flashed in her eyes, including surprise, embarrassment, and an indescribable meaning.

"Yudong, you...you're back?" Qin Huairu's voice trembled a little, with a hint of imperceptible panic.

"Yeah." He Yudong responded indifferently, his tone was calm and no emotion could be heard.

He didn't know how to face this woman, the woman who had once haunted him but also pushed him into the abyss with her own hands.

"I...I came to see you." Qin Huairu's voice became even lower, like the hum of a mosquito.

He Yudong didn't say anything, just looked at her silently.

Qin Huairu felt a little uncomfortable being looked at by him. She lowered her head and twisted the corner of her clothes like a child who had done something wrong.

"Yudong, about what happened in the past...I was sorry for you, I..." Qin Huairu's voice became smaller and smaller, and finally almost inaudible.

He Yudong knew what she wanted to say, which was nothing more than some words of regret. However, what was the point of saying it now?

"It's all over." He Yudong's tone was calm, and it was impossible to tell whether he was happy or angry.

Qin Huairu raised her head and looked at him in surprise, as if she didn't expect him to react like this.

"Yudong, you...you don't blame me?" There was a hint of hope in Qin Huairu's voice.

He Yudong laughed at himself. Blame her? What right did he have to blame her? Wasn't it all his own fault?

"What's the point of me blaming you? Things have already happened. No matter how much I say, it won't help." There was a deep sense of fatigue in He Yudong's voice.

Qin Huairu bit her lip, tears welling up in her eyes.

"Yudong, I know I've let you down, but...but I'm really in a difficult situation now. Jia Zhang...she's sick, and Banggeng also has to go to school. I...I really have no other choice..." Qin Huairu started to cry as she spoke.

He Yudong looked at the tearful woman in front of him, feeling mixed emotions. He was not a heartless person, and seeing Qin Huairu like this, he felt bad.

However, when he thought of the suffering he had endured in prison that year and everything he had lost, his heart hardened again.

"If you are in trouble, just go ask someone else for help. Why are you coming to me?" He Yudong's tone turned cold.

Qin Huairu was stunned. She didn't expect He Yudong to say such cruel words.

"Yudong, I...I..." Qin Huairu wanted to say something but was interrupted by He Yudong.

"Qin Huairu, it's over between us. Go away and don't come to see me again." After saying this, He Yudong prepared to close the door.

"Yudong, wait a minute!" Seeing this, Qin Huairu quickly put her hand on the door to prevent him from closing it.

"What are you doing?" He Yudong frowned and said impatiently.