Siheyuan: Sap is the last word

He Yudong looked at the little girl's back as she walked away, and suddenly an impulse surged in his heart.

He wanted to see the locust flowers, see the rain, and see the people he once owed.

He stood up and walked towards the train station...

He Yudong did not go far. He just hid behind a big tree outside the courtyard wall and secretly observed the movements in the courtyard.

He is not a heartless person. Beneath his determination to leave lies a deeper concern.

He wanted to know how Qin Huairu would react, how Jia Zhang would make a fuss, and even more so, how this place where he had lived for most of his life would change because of his departure.

Not long after, Jia Zhang's sharp voice resounded throughout the courtyard: "Okay! He Yudong! You are such a heartless person! How dare you abandon us, an orphan and a widow! You will not have a good death!"

He Yudong felt mixed emotions as he listened to Jia Zhang's curses.

He knew that Jia Zhang would not let him go easily, but he did not expect her reaction to be so intense.

Afterwards, Qin Huairu's crying voice was heard, intermittently, which made He Yudong feel heartbroken.

How he wanted to rush in, hug Qin Huairu in his arms, comfort her, and tell her that everything would be fine.

But he couldn't, he couldn't bring any more burden or harm to Qin Huairu.

He could only hide in the dark and endure it all silently.

In the courtyard, Jia Zhang was still cursing, as if she wanted to vent all her resentment.

The neighbors in the yard came out to watch the fun, pointing and talking about Qin Huairu.

"This He Yudong is such a bastard, he actually abandoned Qin Huairu and the three children and ran away!"

"That's right, how is Qin Huairu going to live in the future?"

"I think Qin Huairu deserves it. Who made her marry that short-lived Jia Dongxu?"

......

Listening to the neighbors' discussions, Qin Huairu cried even louder.

She felt like a person abandoned by the whole world, helpless and desperate.

He Yudong couldn't bear it any longer. He walked out from behind the tree and strode towards the courtyard.

"Shut up, everyone!"

He roared, shocking everyone.

Everyone turned to look at him, their eyes filled with surprise.

"He Yudong, you dare to come back!"

When Jia Zhang saw He Yudong, she rushed up to him like a madman, scratching and clawing him.

He Yudong grabbed Jia Zhang's wrist and said coldly: "Jia Zhang, I warn you, don't challenge my bottom line again!"

Jia Zhang was frightened by He Yudong's eyes. She had never seen He Yudong look so ferocious.

"You...what do you want to do?"

She asked tremblingly.

He Yudong shook off Jia Zhang's hand, walked to Qin Huairu, and said softly: "Huairu, I..."

He was about to say something when Qin Huairu slapped him hard.

"Snapped!"

The crisp sound of slapping echoed in the courtyard.

He Yudong was stunned. He didn't expect Qin Huairu to hit him.

"Go away! Why did you come back?!"

Qin Huairu cried and shouted, "I feel more at peace now that you're gone! Why did you come back? Did you come back to laugh at my joke?"

He Yudong's heart felt like it was being pricked by a needle.

"Huai Ru, I am not..."

He wanted to explain, but was interrupted by Qin Huairu.

"Go away! I don't want to see you again!"

Qin Huairu yelled hysterically.

He Yudong looked at Qin Huairu, his eyes full of pain and helplessness.

In the end, he said nothing and turned to leave the courtyard.

This time, he is really gone.

He walked very slowly and heavily, as if he was carrying a heavy burden on his back.

He didn't know where he was going or what his future held.

He only knew that he had to leave here and start over.

He walked out of the courtyard, out of the alley, and out of the city.

He walked into the vast crowd and disappeared without a trace.

All he left behind was a story full of sadness and regret.

Behind him, Qin Huairu collapsed on the ground and burst into tears.

Jia Zhang stood aside with a smug smile on her face.

Suddenly, a figure jumped out from the crowd and hugged Qin Huairu.

"Huai Ru, don't cry, I'm here for you!"

It's Silly Pillar.

He hugged Qin Huairu tightly, his eyes full of love and heartache.

This scene happened to be seen by He Yudong who was hiding in the dark.

His heart suddenly felt like it was cut by a knife.

He staggered a few steps, almost unable to stand. An indescribable bitterness surged in his chest, as if he had swallowed a whole moldy lemon. Sha Zhu? Sha Zhu again! This name was like a thorn, piercing his heart and making him breathless. He had always known about Sha Zhu's feelings for Qin Huairu, but he never thought that after he left, Sha Zhu would...

He Yudong clenched his fists tightly, his nails digging deep into his flesh, but he didn't feel any pain. He stared at the two people hugging each other, as if he wanted to carve this scene into his bones. Qin Huairu's crying gradually turned into low sobs, and Sha Zhu comforted her clumsily, as clumsy as a child. But it was this clumsiness that made He Yudong feel extremely dazzling and extremely jealous.

He suddenly wanted to laugh out loud, at his own stupidity and naivety. He had given so much for Qin Huairu and her three children, but in the end he was forced to leave the house and move far away. And what about Sha Zhu? He did nothing, but he could easily get Qin Huairu's hug and her dependence.

Oh my god, are you kidding me?

He Yudong felt a sense of powerlessness. He leaned against the wall dejectedly, slowly slid down, and finally sat on the cold ground. He held his head and let the painful thoughts devour him. He thought of every moment he spent with Qin Huairu, all the efforts he had made for this family, and the innocent smiles of the children...

All of this has now become a bubble and has become the deepest scar in his heart.

He didn't know how long he sat there, until night fell and the wind was biting, he slowly stood up. He wiped his face and found that it was already covered with tears. He smiled at himself, when did he become so fragile?

He took a deep breath and tried to calm his heart. He told himself that it was all over and he had to let it go and start over. He couldn't dwell on the sadness of the past anymore. He had more important things to do.

He wants to live, live a better life, and make those who look down on him regret it!

He walked with heavy steps and left this place that made him heartbroken. He didn't know where he was going, but he knew that he could never go back to the past.

He walked aimlessly, through the brightly lit streets and the noisy crowds. He looked at those people in a hurry and suddenly felt an inexplicable loneliness. He was like a lonely ghost forgotten by the world, wandering in the world, unable to find his home.

As he walked, he came to a pub. He hesitated for a moment, but finally walked in. He wanted to have a drink, he wanted to numb himself with alcohol, he wanted to forget all the pain and sorrow.

There were not many people in the bar, and under the dim light, there was a strong smell of alcohol. He found a corner to sit down and ordered a bottle of the strongest liquor. He tilted his head back and took a big gulp. The spicy liquor flowed down his throat into his stomach, burning his internal organs like fire.

He drank one cup after another and soon got drunk. He began to talk nonsense, cry, and laugh... He was like a madman, venting the depression and pain in his heart.

Suddenly, he felt someone patting his shoulder. He looked up dazedly and saw a woman standing in front of him. The woman was wearing revealing clothes, heavy makeup, and a professional smile on her face.

"Sir, drinking alone is so boring, would you like me to have a drink with you?"

He Yudong looked at her with drunken eyes, and suddenly grabbed her hand, crying and said: "Huai Ru, is that you? You are back..."

He staggered back a few steps, as if he had been pushed hard by someone. The world in front of him became blurry and distorted. Only the image of Sha Zhu hugging Qin Huairu tightly was deeply imprinted in his mind, like a red-hot iron brand, sizzling and burning his nerves. He clenched his fists tightly, his nails deeply embedded in his flesh, but he could not feel any pain. How he wished that the person hugging Qin Huairu at this moment was himself, how he wished that the person being comforted at this moment was himself, but he was no longer qualified, and he was the one who ruined it all with his own hands.

He wandered aimlessly on the street like a ghost. The hustle and bustle of the roadside was out of tune with him. He seemed to be in another world, a world of sadness and despair. He didn't know how long he had walked, or where he had walked to, until his legs became weak and could no longer support the weight of his body. He then sat down on the side of the road, like a pile of discarded garbage.

As night fell and the lights came on, the neon lights in the city flickered with a hazy brilliance, but they could not illuminate the darkness in his heart. He looked up and saw the people coming and going. Everyone's face was filled with smiles, and everyone was in a hurry, as if they had important goals and directions. Only he, like a lost lamb, could not find his way home.

He suddenly remembered that he was once a young man full of hope and dreams. He once longed for a happy family and was full of longing for the future. But now, all of this has become a bubble and an unattainable dream.

"Gululu..."

A wave of hunger hit him, and he realized that he hadn't eaten for a day. He searched all his pockets, but only found a few crumpled coins, not enough to buy a full meal. He smiled bitterly, this is his current situation, a penniless, homeless vagrant.

He stood up, dragging his tired body, and continued walking aimlessly. He didn't know where he was going, nor did he know what he should do. He only knew that he could not go back to the courtyard, he could not face Qin Huairu and Sha Zhu again, he was afraid that he would not be able to control his emotions and do something that he would regret.

He walked into a dim alley filled with a foul smell, and the garbage dump was crawling with rats and cockroaches. He found a relatively clean corner, curled up, and prepared to spend this long night here.

Suddenly, there was a sound of footsteps. He looked up alertly and saw a tall figure walking out of the darkness.

"who are you?"

He Yudong asked vigilantly.

The person did not answer, but walked up to him and squatted down. In the dim light, He Yudong saw the person's face clearly and was shocked.

"It's you!"

He staggered back a few steps, as if someone had pushed him hard. Sha Zhu? Sha Zhu again! He had always known about Sha Zhu's feelings for Qin Huairu, but he had never thought that his leaving would actually help them. A sour and bitter feeling surged into his heart, and He Yudong felt as if his throat was blocked, making it difficult to breathe. He bit his lips tightly to prevent himself from making any sound.