You brought up the divorce. Why are you crying when your wife is gone?

After hearing this, Zhong Rang was stunned on the spot at first, and then he came back to his senses and was still a little impatient, "You and Ji Cun are not the same kind of people after all, Shang Wan."

I didn't speak, just silence.

Who am I the same type of person, Zhong Rang?

Sometimes I can hardly tell what is it that keeps me going until now.

In the past, I thought it was my love for you, but in the end, it was my hatred for myself.

I hate myself for not living up to expectations.

Now that I see An Moli bravely opening up to Min Yu in public, I seem to feel relieved suddenly.

I took a deep breath and glanced at Zhong Rang with a smile, "Today is the engagement day of An Moli and Min Yu. I don't really want to argue with you."

Whether it's Zhong Rang or Ji Cun.

Neither is my destination.

After I said this, I passed by Zhong Rang. After all, it was too cold around him. I still missed my sunny and warm best friend An Moli. She made my heart feel like warm blood flowing through it.

Zhong Rang grabbed my hand.

He should have caught it long ago, but he only caught it now.

I lowered my head and glanced at Zhong Rang. The moment I felt held by his hand, it seemed like countless winds and rains were passing by me. His eyebrows were still the look I loved most when I was young. I remember how much I had done for him. Sad, sad to the point of being extremely mean to myself.

But Zhong Rang, I don’t like you anymore.

I whispered, "If An Moli hadn't been engaged, I don't think I would have come back."

"If you don't come back, are you avoiding me or Ji Cun?"

Zhong Rang is still so stubborn and wants me to choose between him and Ji Cun.

Just like my choice, I can determine the level of the two of them.

"I don't want to hide."

I said to him, "You and Ji Cun are already...past tense to me."

Zhong Rang's heart tightened suddenly.

"Shang Wan, do you still like me?"

When he said this, his voice was trembling.

When did you start to realize that you were in the past tense? Zhong Rang looked at my side face. He seemed to be trapped in a dead end of internal friction. The thought that kept flashing through his mind was, if only...

If only on the day he had sex with Shang Wan for the first time, he hadn't thrown money in Shang Wan's face...

If only I had been willing to lower my head and look back at that poor woman...

Zhong Rang's eyes turned red, "Even if you don't have feelings for me, do you still have feelings for Ji Cun..."

When had Zhong Rang ever spoken so humblely? I even gave up my dignity and actually asked me to consider Ji Cun.

My heart trembled, looking at the forbearance deep in Zhong Rang's eyebrows, I actually felt so cruel.

I used to love him without treating myself as a human being, but now I can face his recovery without any trouble. In such a thing as love, whoever pulls away first wins.

I watched Zhong Rang reach out his hand again and dodged it in advance. Then the man called my name from behind me, "Shang Wan, I was the one who met you first."

No matter what it was, he got it first, Shang Wan's first love, Shang Wan's first confession, Shang Wan's first...sex life.

It obviously belonged to him the first time, but in the end he got nothing.

"What you get first turns out to be nothing."

Zhong Rang murmured, and the rekindled ashes in his eyes fell again.

I didn't look back at him. In the past, I always punished him self-righteously in my heart. I thought that I loved him so much and then I had no hesitation in withdrawing everything. He would be so anxious because of me. I even imagined that he would be heartbroken and excited after we reunited after a long absence. scene, but now that I see Zhong Rang like this, I actually don’t feel any more waves in my heart.

Is it because I don't love you anymore, or... I've long been numb.

It turns out that you have to face such a cruel and bloody situation once before you realize how stupid your self-consolation was in the past.

His regret and redemption did not excite me at all.

I walked into the venue, which was bustling with people, and there was always someone waiting for me. Just now Zhang Liang took the initiative to give the space to the two of us, but now he couldn't be found. I glanced left and right, and someone happened to call me.

"Shang Wan, where are you going?"

An Moli took Min Yu and walked outside, "Did you just enjoy the breeze in the garden outside?"

"Yes."

I smiled at An Moli and said, "Fortunately, nothing happened today."

After saying this, I glanced at Min Yu a few more times. After all this trouble, Min Yu already wanted to tie An Moli to his waistband. The future he wanted must be firmly held by himself. In his hand, even when I was looking at An Moli, he was holding An Moli's waist nervously. After giving me a cold look, he leaned into An Moli's ear and said, "Shang Wan was here before." How long will it be abroad?”

"For a long time."

An Moli gave Min Yu a wink, and then said, "I'm so happy that you can come. If you are single, I will introduce you to a good man, no matter Zhong Rang or Ji Cun."

These words were in line with An Moli's style, and I was amused by her, "Okay, I feel bored looking at scumbags. Maybe I'm tired of playing with them. Is there an honest person who can introduce me to them?"

"You speak so heartlessly, I like it so much."

An Moli covered her mouth and laughed, but she also knew that I was laughing at myself. Maybe after Zhong Rang and Ji Cun, I was completely numb to feelings.

Zhang Liang came over with a drink in his hand and was a little surprised when he saw An Moli and me. After all, he only had two drinks in his hand.

Zhang Liang said, "I only took two cups, I'm sorry."

After saying that, he put the drink into my hand and drank the other one himself without letting it go.

An Moli glanced meaningfully at Zhang Liang and winked at me for a while. My face became hot and I quickly drank the cold juice drink in my hand. An Moli let go of Min Yu and walked towards me. , grabbed my arm and said, "Handsome guy, can you lend me Shang Wan for a while? We sisters haven't seen each other for a long time and we want to have a good chat. Min Yu, please entertain the guests for me."

Min Yu hummed and watched An Moli and I go out. I was pulled into a corner by her. When the woman saw that there were fewer people around, her voice became louder, "Shang Wan, who is that man?"

"Zhang Liang."

I said, "The good ones are good and the bad are mixed."

An Moli curled her lips, "You can't find a better word to describe his name."

I was stunned for a moment, and then laughed out loud, "It's true. I'll introduce it in another idiom in the future."

"He's quite handsome."

An Moli nudged me with her elbow and said with a smile, "And with that behavior just now, I feel that you must be very important in his heart, and so is the way he looks at you."

Zhang Liang is usually a Buddhist, and he doesn't have any particular worldly desires. He looks at people with indifferent eyes, neither having a close acquaintance nor being overly unfamiliar.