You are planning something evil: Don’t come here, my yandere disciple.

His eyes were once again immersed in a colorful patch of light.

Jiang Suiwan stood there stunned, making no move for a long time.

He knew that Shen Qi's past would be very bad, but he didn't expect that Shen Qi would be so miserable.

Jiang Suiwan suddenly felt very sad. If he could have met Shen Qi earlier, that miserable but tenacious child, if he had met Shen Qi earlier, could he have taken him back? Can you suffer less?

Unfortunately, there is no such thing.

His eyes lit up again, and Jiang Suiwan's eyes subconsciously searched for Shen Qi's location.

The sky is as blue as the sea, and fluffy and soft white clouds move lazily in the sky.

Under the maple tree that is always red all year round, the immortal in white clothes gently rubbed the head of little Shen Qi, with a touch of endearment in his eyes.

Little Shen Qi looked at Xianjun, his eyes were like bright stars.

That was... the scene shortly after he brought Shen Qi back to Zhuo Yue Peak.

This is also the gentlest and cleanest scene in Shen Qi's memory that Jiang Suiwan has seen so far.

The last few times he saw Shen Qi, he was bullied, beaten and scolded in various ways in a dark and malicious environment.

Jiang Suiwan looked at Shen Qi with eyes full of envy and smiles, and an inexplicable feeling arose in his heart.

He was very lucky that he brought Shen Qi back to the Qing Dynasty and took him as his disciple, instead of letting him wander around the world alone and be forced to become a paranoid and sinister villain by the world's malice.

Jiang Suiwan followed Shen Qi, watching him practice spells hard every day, watching him delve into various formations and talismans, as well as cooking and various... peeking at himself?

Jiang Suiwan discovered it a long time ago, and Shen Qi especially hid and peeked at him.

This is a very insecure sign. Shen Qi is probably afraid that he will be abandoned again.

So Jiang Suiwan, who was peeked at at that time, acquiesced to Shen Qi's behavior.

Jiang Suiwan thought that maybe he was partly responsible for Shen Qi's indescribable thoughts about him, because sometimes, he did indulge Shen Qi too much.

At that time, in Shen Qi's eyes and heart, besides practicing and becoming stronger, he was his master.

He will be happy for a long time just because of his compliment and smile.

He will remember his preferences and favorite foods and prepare them for him the next time they meet.

He remembers what his every habit and every subconscious action means and never lets himself worry.

In fact, Jiang Suiwan's expression was not obvious most of the time, and the eyes he looked at Shen Qi had no special feelings or meanings.

But Shen Qi would treasure every look in his eyes like a treasure, storing them in his mind like a treasure.

It seems that since he was accepted as his disciple, Shen Qi's world is filled with him.

From the moment I met myself, Shen Qi's memory has me everywhere.

So humble, yet so pious.

Jiang Suiwan looked at it, heartbroken and sad.

Until he saw that Shen Qi accidentally opened a same-sex erotica book when he was helping Yun Feiyi buy a storybook.

Jiang Suiwan: "..." His heart was full of sadness and pity, but suddenly he stopped.

Second Senior Sister, very good.

Indirect enlightenment teacher, right?

He was feeling upset, and then something even worse came when he saw that Shen Qi gave him medicine when he was sick and in a coma.

Even if you give him medicine like that, you still dare to secretly kiss him? !

Moreover, did Shen Qi have evil intentions towards him so early?

Jiang Suiwan: "......"

Fist hardened.

Then, the screen changed.

It was the scene where he fell into the demon world after being injured in Lingchuan.

At that time, Shen Qi blamed himself for the pain because of his injury, and then practiced desperately to improve his strength.

Then he entered the demon world and began to win over his own forces.

Jiang Suiwan saw him being forced into desperate situations again and again, and surviving from desperate situations again and again.

Jiang Suiwan saw that he had been bitten and bruised by monsters and enemies, and saw that he was clearly at the end of the road, but he managed to survive.

Jiang Suiwan watched him huddled in a small cave, awakening his bloodline, and saw that he was covered in blood and in agony.

……

If Shen Qi's brain, perseverance, and blood weren't so smart and powerful, the injuries and enemy pursuits would have killed him countless times.

And every time he could no longer hold on or reached a desperate situation, he would gently touch the jade pendant around his waist.

Jiang Suiwan remembered the jade pendant, which was given to Shen Qi when he first entered Zhuo Yue Peak and when he was worried about his safety.

After that, Shen Qi kept wearing it.

Later, Shen Qi killed the demon king who had murderous intentions towards him and was poisoned.

He watched as Shen Qi's poison entered his bone marrow, his meridians were severed, his flesh and blood were corroded, and then he lost his breath little by little.

Even though he knew Shen Qi would not die, Jiang Suiwan couldn't help but wet his eyes.

It hurts too much.

He was already in agony just looking at it. What about Shen Qi? How did he survive it?

As time passed, the broken bones eventually regenerated, and Shen Qi grew new flesh and blood.

After another round of pain, Shen Qi woke up.

He obviously didn't have the strength to speak, but he still held the jade pendant tightly.

After a long time, he saw Shen Qi kissing the jade pendant.

Shen Qi said: "Master, I will never let you get hurt again."

Jiang Suiwan's heart ached instantly.

It turns out that Shen Qi became a demon and became a demon... just to get more powerful power to protect him?

Later, he saw Shen Qi staying alone at Zhuo Yue Peak, waiting for him to come out of seclusion.

He saw that during the years when he was in seclusion, Shen Qi stayed at the entrance of his retreat to accompany him on every New Year's Eve, despite the wind and snow falling on his shoulders.

Shangqing was very lively on New Year's Eve, and some people came to invite Shen Qi to the banquet, but Shen Qi refused. He stayed alone outside the cave where he was retreating. The excitement and earthly fireworks seemed to be in another world.

During those three years, Shen Qi would always go back to find him with his scarred body, and sit tiredly at the entrance of the cave, waiting for him, saying that he missed him and that he was in pain.

He also saw Shen Qi whispering his name over and over again when he was seriously injured and dying, and when he was unconscious, he begged him again and again not to abandon him and not to be afraid of him.

...So that's it.

It turns out that not telling himself his true identity is not deceiving, nor is it guarding himself at all times, nor does it mean not trusting himself.

Just because of fear.

He is afraid of being abandoned, afraid that he will not want him, and he will hate him.

What he seeks is never supreme rights and status.

He just wanted to protect himself and to be able to stand by his side one day.

Shen abandoned him...He was desperately running towards himself from beginning to end.

A tear fell on the snow, and Jiang Suiwan looked at Shen Qi through the wind and snow.

...I'm sorry...Master misunderstood you.

(The author has something to say: The misunderstanding has been resolved. I originally wanted to torture the little apprentice, but after thinking about it, I decided to forget it. The apprentice is already miserable enough so I won’t torture him. As for the master, I am even more reluctant to torture him. Two All of them are my big geese(′?｀)?)