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"The leaves are green, come here to take graduation photos."

"coming."

On the second day after the college entrance examination, all senior students in the school organized graduation photos.

There are only two people in our class absent. That person's name was Jiang Shuo, and there was another person named Su Ran.

On the eve of the college entrance examination, I heard that Jiang Shuo had been stabbed and was sent to the hospital covered in blood.

When I heard the news, I subconsciously looked at Qi Su. In my impression, she seems to have a good relationship with him.

But her expression was indescribably relaxed and comfortable.

Yes, a person like her should be cool and carefree.

I slowly walked up to the flamboyant girl and took the only photo of us together.

The moment the camera froze, she and Lu Liang were arguing about something again, and the two childishly started hitting the back of their hands. I tilted my head slightly, trying to see what her expression was.

Since the end of Tiantai, many people have accused me, saying that I am impulsive and should tell my teachers and classmates and resist.

Each one of them was teaching me what to do.

Only she commented to me afterwards, half playfully and half appreciatively, "You are not afraid of death."

Suddenly I didn't want to die that much.

If a person is not afraid of death, then there is nothing to fear.

I learned not to care about their pointing fingers.

At this point, I suddenly understood what she said when I tried to catch her that day on the rooftop. She said, "The person was saved."

Not just my body, but my dead heart.

After the graduation photos were taken, the photographer waved his hand impatiently and asked us to go down and change to the next class.

Since the rooftop, I have always wanted to thank her, but I never had the chance to say it.

I followed her subconsciously, and in my ears, they were still bickering about what happened just now.

I couldn't hold it back and laughed softly, but I didn't expect that the two of them turned back at the same time and stared at me "viciously", "Why are you laughing?"

"I..." I didn't know what to say.

But neither of them obviously cared.

I followed them from a distance, looked at Qi Su, and suddenly thought of her before.

I don't know when she changed her appearance.

I just remember that it was an ordinary school day. When I arrived at class, I only found that her hair was cut short and cool.

That day, she stood on the podium openly and freely and wrote her name on the blackboard.

Qi Su.

She had never been so arrogant before.

Only then did I know clearly that she had changed.

They are completely different from before.

In the past, she always had thick bangs and her school uniform was pulled tightly. She was always alone, silent and extremely quiet.

At that time, I would take the initiative to communicate with her, but she always rejected me and stayed alone.

I don't know what happened to her, but I saw someone bullying her.

I was scared, so I chose to stay away from her like everyone else. I thought, maybe that group of social youths would not cause trouble with me.

Thinking about it now, I was really selfish and stupid at that time.

Only after I experienced death did I understand that she became what she is now, perhaps she was a phoenix reborn and reborn.

She has become thorough, free and flamboyant. I really like her aura of doing whatever she wants, as if she is omnipotent, fearless and invincible.

I was really surprised that she came to class with her leg in a cast. If it were me, I might just feel inferior to my own injuries. But she joked about her legs.

According to them, she jumped off the building on purpose.

Because her family had been bullying her, she jumped off the building to resist.

Her brave madness won everyone's respect.

But being crazy also requires courage.

Only after you die once can you realize that everything in life is unimportant. As long as you are happy, that is the greatest gain.

Later, Lu Liang and Su Ran transferred to another school.

Lu Liang is indeed a very special person. He has unique silver hair and is always smiling. He is a young man who is unruly and handsome, which is the biggest synonym for him.

However, no one came close to him.

Although he always smiles and seems to be exuding kindness, I am inexplicably afraid of him.

There is no reason to be afraid.

Perhaps it was because he was always impatient, self-righteous and arrogant, thinking everyone was stupid.

Perhaps it's because he treats everything with indifference, like an outsider who has never been involved.

Or maybe it's because he often rejects people thousands of miles away and isolates everyone indifferently, except Qi Su.

In short, he is not an easy person to get along with.

Sometimes I often wonder why Qi Su always wants to provoke him. Aren't you afraid to see him angry?

But sometimes she figured out that it was not just wishful thinking, because Lu Liang seemed to always be looking for trouble for her.

When I see them, I always have the illusion that they are people of the same world.

Although they obviously lived in the same school, were in the same class, and had the same teachers and classmates, they occasionally interacted with each other, but there was always a gap between them and Lu Liang.

As for Qi Su, she is integrated into this world, but she is also separated from it. She was like the link between Lu Liang and the world.

The head teacher asked me to help take care of Qi Su on my legs. Gradually, our relationship became closer again.

But, I have new troubles.

She and Jiang Shuo were close, and because no one could bully her now, they turned the blame on me.

They approached me several times and asked me to take photos of Jiang Shuo and Qi Su.

I lied to her, I am not that noble, I am afraid of everything that violates the rules. I thought about filming secretly, but I didn’t dare to bring my phone with me, and I couldn’t take it out even if I did.

What's more, there is always Lu Liang in their group, and his presence is hard to ignore.

I never took photos that they were satisfied with, so they threatened me again and again.

Su Ran helped me out. several times. I was very grateful to her, so she asked me to accompany her to the toilet during the sports meeting, and I went with her.

Then, we were pulled into the classroom in the experimental building.

Their target became Su Ran again.

Because, Su Ran also came into Jiang Shuo's sight, and they were very friendly with each other.

To protect myself, I told you.

Sometimes, I really feel that Qu Lingling is crazy.

That time, I couldn't avoid it either. Our clothes were torn off, and they smiled maliciously with their mobile phones and took pictures of us to threaten us.

At the critical moment, she came.

Qi Su, like a savior hero, made a shining appearance.

I admit, I was struck by her handsomeness at that time.

When I got back to work, I made up the perfect excuse. I want to use this to let her cover me completely and make her feel that she owes me.

But she told me that she would save me only because I was implicated by her.

Therefore, she is just as cold and cold as Lu Liang, refusing to save her until death, and no one has anything to do with her.

Since then, she and I have been estranged.

Su Ran and I became comrades who suffered from the same illness and were bullied together.

Sometimes, I really want to laugh.

Because, I seemed to see Qi Su who was once helpless, and I was also a bystander at that time.

One time, Lu Liang lied to me and said that as long as I tricked Su Ran onto the rooftop, he would help me and not be bullied.

I agreed. After the self-study get out of class that night, I took her to the rooftop.

Qu Lingling's companions were waiting there, and we were like lambs thrown into a tiger's mouth, allowing them to bully us.

I stood on the top of the rooftop with a knife in my hand, threatening them to let me go. They were afraid of me being crazy and promised to let us go home.

However, the rooftop door was locked. What a long, thick, big iron chain.

I laughed, desperately.

I know it must be Lu Liang who did it. Until now, for whatever purpose he had, there were only three people who could attract his attention.

Qi Su, Su Ran, Jiang Shuo.

Later, it was Lu Ying who threw the rope from the window and came up, but no one dared at that time. I dare.

The distance between the window and the rooftop was three or four meters, and I was the first to go down.

Later, no one dared, so Qu Lingling could only take the key and open the door.

We all went out.

That night, I didn't sleep all night.

I made up the excuse that I was a victim, completely bringing Lu Liang into the realm of a villain. I couldn't help but question Qi Su, and I also questioned myself who was indifferent at the beginning.

See, I was still trying to excuse myself, and I was about to believe my own lies.

She said that the only one who can save her is herself.

For some reason, I suddenly thought of the word deserved.

After a long struggle, I decided to commit suicide by jumping off the building on the eve of the college entrance examination.

To die to cover up my faults, my hypocrisy, I wanted to make me a pure victim instead of myself that made me sick.

Of course, no one knows about this disgusting self except me.

I was on the rooftop and loudly said the names of all the people who had bullied me. Then, I want to jump down and find relief.

But I didn't expect that she would catch me.

She actually asked me why her name was not there.

Because, in my heart, you are a purely good person.

I was the guilty one from beginning to end.

She tried her best to save me, just because she felt that my misfortune was related to her, which made her unable to stand by calmly.

I looked down and saw an abyss.

I looked up and that was the only salvation.

I seemed to see my sins, along with my inferiority, cowardice and injustice, all falling without any struggle or restraint.

They died downstairs, and now I was pulled back to life.

I held her, and she was finally held by Lu Liang.

saved.

The me now is a new me.

I want to use my new self to get to know Qi Su again.

But she didn't expect that the day she received the admission notice would be the day she said goodbye forever.

Everything was very sudden, so sudden that I was a little stunned.

I repeated the class, and there were Su Ran and Jiang Shuo in the same class. And, Lu Liang.

No one is sitting next to him. I don't know how he feels about Qi Su's departure. I only know that he is often silent, as if no one deserves his words, and he is too lazy to laugh at others.

Again, everything has nothing to do with him.

Another year of college entrance examination, this time, we all did well in the exam, Jiang Shuo and Su Ran also officially got together, but I suddenly found that I could no longer remember what Qi Su looked like.

Even the memory of her began to fade away.

I don't want to forget her.

I wrote her and them down in my notebook.

They left a profound mark on my youth.

But many years later, at a class reunion, when we were chatting and laughing and reminiscing about the past, I deliberately took out the notebook and wanted everyone to go back to our high school days.

But when I looked at their names in the book, they were very unfamiliar. Even the memories in the notebook seem to be other people's stories, not my memories.

No one even remembers them. They said that there were no two people in our high school.

I wanted to find out, so I asked many of my former classmates, looking for every familiar or unfamiliar name in the book.

But, without exception, no one knew about them. They said that there were no two people in the class.

Qi Su, Lu Liang.

Did you really exist?

Or are you just saying that I was too stressed out in high school and made it up to save the inferior, cowardly, sensitive and selfish me?