Mr. Gu, stop being abusive, Miss Xu is marrying your brother.

Zong Qingjun’s residence.

Shen Nan couldn't remember how many times Xu Chen had mutilated himself, but when she saw Xu Chen sitting in the bathtub covered in blood again, her heart still stung.

What kind of family and experience destroyed this child like this.

"Doesn't it hurt? Or do you just want it to hurt?" Shen Nan entered the bathroom. She didn't go out, avoid it, or call Qin Chuan. Instead, she moved a small stool and sat beside the bathtub.

Xu Chen was wearing light gray pajamas, and a large area of ​​his body was stained red with blood.

His face was pale, his hands were shaking, and he was holding a shard of glass.

He opened it on his wrist, his whole body trembling. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry...Auntie, I can't control myself."

Shen Nan lowered his head, tears gathering in his eyes.

She knew that Xu Chen didn't really want to commit suicide, he was simply committing suicide.

Maybe he felt that he had not atone for his sins enough and the pain he had experienced was not one ten thousandth of Xu Yan's, so he did not dare to die.

"You're not sorry for me." Shen Nan reached out and held the glass shards in Xu Chen's hand. "The only thing you're sorry for is yourself."

Xu Chen's body was shaking violently, his eyes were red and he lowered his head, not knowing what to say. "I'm still sorry... I agreed to be a family member for three months, but it's only been less than a month and a half... I've already tortured you until you're physically and mentally exhausted..."

Xu Chen could tell that Zong Qingjun was too tired, and all his body and mind were focused on him, trying to make up for the fatherly love he had lacked over the years.

But how could the memories of childhood and the misfortunes of the original family be made up for in just a few months?

Xu Chen is ill, suffering from severe depression and anxiety.

Xu Chen thought that he got sick after knowing that he had wronged Xu Yan and hurt Xu Yan, and felt guilty and blamed himself.

But Qin Chuan said that he had been sick for a long time.

Got sick as a child.

Unhappy in his native family, he overheard that he was not Xu Zhengguo's biological son.

When he was afraid of losing and admired his sister, he was already sick.

He has always been a sick, unhealthy person.

Both himself and his soul and personality.

"Xu Chen, this is not your fault. If you were born in a complete family, if you were the son of Zong Qingjun and me, you would have a completely different life." Shen Nan's voice was hoarse.

Sometimes she also thinks about how great it would be if she knew about Xu Chen's existence earlier.

If she had known earlier...even if Zong Qingjun didn't want to take Xu Chen back, she would have taken Xu Chen back to the Zong family without hesitation.

A woman like Jiang Mei is not worthy of being a mother.

She will raise Xu Chen and give him a complete and upright environment to grow up.

Xu Chen looked at Shen Nan, his eyes wandering, as if he was also dreaming.

"Rinse the blood stains off your body. The family doctor is waiting outside to help you treat your wounds." Shen Nan stood up and rubbed Xu Chen's head. "Good boy, be obedient."

The moment Shen Nan turned around, Xu Chen couldn't hold back any longer, hugged his legs and cried loudly.

Why...can't he die.

Why can't you live again?

Why should he be kept alive and tortured?

……

When Xu Chen came out of the bedroom, he had already changed into clean clothes.

His face was as pale and bloodless as ever.

Probably because he didn't eat well, he was so thin that he lost his appearance.

The injury on his leg has healed well, and he can now walk slowly with a cane.

Outside the door, Qin Chuan rushed in anxiously and was relieved to see that Xu Chen was still alive.

On the one hand, he was using stimulation therapy, but on the other hand, he was under a lot of pressure. He was also afraid... afraid that Xu Chen would not be able to hold on and commit suicide.

In this way, he will blame himself for the rest of his life.

"Has the wound been treated?" Qin Chuan breathed rapidly, but continued to pretend to be calm and asked.

Xu Chen said nothing and didn't pay attention to Qin Chuan.

Qin Chuan looked at the family doctor. "Do you need stitches?"

The doctor shook his head. "No, I've just had the injection. I'll just take care of the wound later."

Qin Chuan took the medicine and gauze and nodded apologetically to Shen Nan. "Auntie, leave him to me."

Shen Nan nodded and went to the kitchen with red eyes.

Xu Chen frowned. "There's no one here anymore, so you don't have to be pretentious."

Hypocritically pretending to care.

It was Qin Chuan who clearly wanted him to live worse than death.

Qin Chuan said nothing and pushed Xu Chen.

Xu Chen lost his balance and fell directly on the sofa, looking at Qin Chuan angrily.

He is so thin now, and his muscles have been lost even if he doesn't exercise. He still has no strength left, and he is no match for Qin Chuan.

Qin Chuan deliberately bullied him like this just to laugh at and stimulate him.

Xu Chen clenched his hands and stared at Qin Chuan angrily.

Qin Chuan just sneered and squatted aside to apply medicine to him. "Do you think you can make up for it by doing this?"

Xu Chen said nothing.

The scar on his wrist hasn't healed yet, and new injuries have been added to it.

He was too hard on himself.

Not just scars, but cigarette scars of varying sizes.

"Xu Yan almost died during childbirth. How are you going to pay back? Are you going to give birth to a child too?" Qin Chuan mocked Xu Chen with a smile.

Xu Chen thought that walking through the path Xu Yan had walked and being injured by him would make him feel better.

But Qin Chuan always poured cold water on him when he just felt better.

He thought he could pay it off, but Xu Chen stubbornly thought that if he paid it off in this life, he would have the honor to see Xu Yan in the next life.

But Qin Chuan always ruined his hopes and stimulated him again and again.

Yes...Xu Yan almost died during childbirth, how could he pay back.

He is a man, why should he have children...

"If I stab myself and cut open my stomach, can that be enough..." Xu Chen went crazy.

Qin Chuan paused while treating the wound, and felt that Xu Chen was crazy. "Then if you leave, you still have to suffer the pain of separation? If you have to leave your young son behind and go to jail...are you going to repay it like this?"

Xu Chen was speechless, lowered his head, and held his hands tightly, his joints turning white.

He still couldn't figure it out, and sure enough he still couldn't figure it out.

"Give it up. You hurt yourself, but you can't make up for Xu Yan's pain. If I were you, I should cheer up, live well, give Xu Yan what she wants, help her, and protect her. , even if you pay silently behind the scenes, don’t let her know.”

Qin Chuan looked at Xu Chen and spoke again. "Zhong Wantong is still thinking about dealing with Xu Yan's two children. Gu Xingye is also eager to hurt Gu Chenyan. Gu Chenyan killed Xu Yan's Achilles' heel. If something happens to Gu Chenyan, Xu Yan will never live alone. If you really have the ability to hurt yourself, , just cheer up, make yourself capable and strong, help her in the mall, and protect her from behind, instead of being like a useless person now."

Xu Chen was stunned for a long time, looking at Qin Chuan, his eyes twitching.

After a long time, he spoke in a hoarse voice. "You psychiatrists are so scary..."

It always makes people full of hope, then pushes them into the abyss, gives you another hope, and then makes you run towards this road and run to the end regardless of your own safety.

"No, it's you patients who are more terrifying." Qin Chuan sneered, stood up and sat across from Xu Chen. "You choose."

Xu Chen didn't speak. He looked back at the kitchen for a long time. "Mom... I want to drink the pumpkin porridge you cooked."

In the kitchen, Shen Nan took a step back in confusion and dropped the bowls and chopsticks on the floor.

Holding back tears, Shen Nan answered loudly with a smile. "Okay, mommy will cook porridge for you right away."

He has never forgotten that he will be her son for three months.

Shen Nan has not forgotten that Xu Chen has been her son for these three months.