After rebirth, I made the princes cry

The moonlight is cool this night.

In fact, it was already the hottest month of July before we knew it, but the weather had not noticeably cooled down. Only when we saw the big Mars setting in the west in the evening did we realize that summer was gradually coming to an end. Yingshu followed Nanci. This was their first time to watch the moon in Baoguang Hall. Nanci sat down on the stone under the catalpa tree, and Yingshu naturally leaned beside him. The shade of the tree had become much thinner in the past few days.

"After listening to Sikong Yuehu's overall plan, Yingshu, I feel there is still a risk." Nanci was worried. He even resisted the first step of his plan to make Yingshu attract the wrath of Queen Mother Yao. But reason told him that Sikong Yuehu's plan was indeed not to put Yingshu in danger. He could not refute it, nor could he come up with a more perfect plan.

Yingshu picked up a fallen flower that had fallen on Nanci's green dress, and rubbed the flower stem with her fingers, and the flower spun and danced between her fingers.

Nanci looked at the flower. He knew that when Yingshu was in a good mood, she would like to pick up objects at hand and play with them, such as fallen leaves, fallen flowers, and sometimes even small stones. All objects seemed to become interesting at her fingertips. In their previous life, they had a carefree time. They often made appointments to go fishing together. Yingshu's happiness was not in the harvest from fishing. She often put the fishing rod aside, picked up the fallen flowers, gathered barnyard grass, removed the leaf spikes of the barnyard grass, and strung the fallen flowers with the grass stems to make a bracelet, which she would always wear on his wrist. Every time he caught a fish, there would be an extra string of garlands on his wrist.

It has been many years since I had nothing on my wrist, but now I think of all these trivial things.

"I have done most of what I promised you, right?" Ying Shu looked at Nan Ci with a smile: "Sikong Yuehu will not let the Lord be trapped in the Northern Han. If the Lord can escape safely, then of course I can escape safely too."

As departure is imminent, Yingshu just wants to enjoy the clean moonlight.

"Nanci, we first saw the customs of Chang'an in a travelogue written by an anonymous author. Do you remember?"

"The most impressive one is Tianhe."

"Emperor Wu of Han dug the Tianhe River, which actually had nothing to do with the legend of the Cowherd and the Weaver Girl. However, as dynasties changed, the Tianhe River, which was originally located in the Imperial Garden, gradually became a place for subjects to play. The travelogue records that every year on the Chinese Valentine's Day, countless men and women would make appointments to go to the Tianhe River to play, release river lanterns, and make wishes. We in Jiankang did not celebrate such a Chinese Valentine's Day, and I don't know if the two banks of the Tianhe River still have the grand scenes described in the travelogue."

"What do you want to wish for?"

"I have too many wishes. I am a greedy person."

"Don't be greedy, the wishes you make will come true on their own."

"I think if I have the chance to come to Chang'an with you again in the future, I must go and see the Tianhe River with my own eyes."

Nanci suddenly reached out and took the purple flower from Yingshu's fingers. He didn't know where the flower fell. He held the other hand, reluctant to let go.

His eyes looked up at the stars and the moon in the sky, and a cool emotion filled his chest.

"Capture Hanzhong, aiming at Chang'an." Nanci knew Yingshu's real wish. Traveling with him was not just a wish, it was something that should happen. She hoped that when they came to Chang'an again, Chang'an would have returned to the jurisdiction of Dayu.

Yingshu let Nanci hold her hand. She did not resist such intimacy. In their youth, both she and Nanci did not know what love was. When Nanci taught her how to ride a horse, she would hold his hand every time he reached out his hand. Nanci also taught her how to play cub hand-in-hand. Intimacy had become a habit for them.

And habit creates dullness.

"I haven't had a good time in Chang'an yet, and I won't be able to see the snowy Ba Liu this time, but I don't feel sorry. I always wanted to have a chance to travel around the nine provinces, but this time I was away from home for only a season, and I already miss my hometown."

"There are people and things in Jiankang that we care about." Nanci looked at the moon in Chang'an, and seemed to see his former self who was full of contradictions and sadness: "When I was traveling far away, I actually missed Jiankang every day. I regretted not saying goodbye to you, and even more regretted not stopping you from getting married. Every time I wanted to write to you, I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to report that I was safe. At that time, I thought that without any news from me, you might miss me and blame me."

"Yeah, I complained." Ying Shu smiled, "At that time, I felt that growing up was really boring. When you were a child, you wanted to leave Jiankang but were not allowed, so you had to read travel notes with me. I was the most interesting playmate around you. But when His Highness Gui Sujun grew up, he gained the freedom to travel, and he couldn't wait to realize his wish, leaving me aside."

"You never complained to me." This was another thing that disappointed him greatly.

Ying Shu raised her eyebrows: "That's why growing up is so boring. You can't be unreasonable anymore. You have to think about what you say first. What's the point of complaining about you? I'm destined to be unable to go anywhere. I can't restrict you to stay in Jiankang City with me. In fact, I also hope that you can travel. The travel notes you write will definitely suit my taste the most."

"Yingshu, people change." Nanci turned his face to the side, the moonlight leaked through the flowers and leaves, and attached to her hair. Her hair was soft and shiny, but he wanted to brush away the hair to expose her earlobe. He couldn't even bear to make a more intimate move. His heart felt hot and itchy, but he still suppressed the desire. He just made a promise, but he hadn't fulfilled it yet. Before the promise was fulfilled, more intimacy would be tantamount to obscenity. He couldn't treat his girl like this.

"People change." Nanci looked away. "When I was young and ignorant, I wanted too much freedom. I always thought that only in the mountains, rivers, forests and springs could I feel the real pleasure. I have changed my mind long ago. It is not my fortune to be born into the royal family of Sikong. My greatest fortune is to be the heir of my father. My greatest fortune is that my father was helped by the Duke of Linyi and was able to continue the national prosperity of Dayu.

In fact, I know that Sikong Beichen, Sikong Yuewu, my four elder brothers, did not live a much more comfortable life than I did. My seventeen years of carefree time were a gift from my father. At that time, I did not realize my father’s hardships and never thought about sharing his worries and solving his problems.

Now, I know the trajectory of my previous life, and I can't watch my father fall into disaster again. Hatred has been planted in my heart. Sikong Beichen killed my mother first, and I can't forgive him for persecuting me.

Yingshu, now that you have not been reborn, you don't know how sinister Sikong Beichen is. I will get rid of him. I can't watch him harm my uncle and loyal generals like Zhou Jinghe. Living in seclusion is no longer my wish. I stay in the court not because of you. After my rebirth, I have never thought about leaving. "

she knows.

But it doesn’t mean there are no regrets.

Perhaps it was because she had witnessed with her own eyes the suffering that Nanci had endured when they were separated by life and death, and she could not accept the tragic death of the once handsome and handsome boy. She hoped that Nanci would stay away from this cruel power scene and never realize the responsibilities he was born with. She became more willful and unruly, even cold and selfish. However, as God had destined, Nanci was reborn.

He can never go back to the carefree days of his youth.

"I won't feel burdened." Ying Shu raised her face and looked at the flower shadows swaying in the moonlight and breeze. "Since you are reborn, you will definitely not let me fight alone. In fact, I have never been sure that I can protect so many people by myself. Nanci, we want to overthrow this cruel power. We can stand in the court and enjoy the fun of the forest and the spring. Look, hasn't the Third Prince changed his mind? How could we believe that Lord Jiao Su would care about the feelings of brothers and the loyalty of comrades in arms before?

You are right, people change. I used to feel sad when I thought of you. I would blame myself and even resent myself for not realizing earlier that it was Sikong Beichen who had murdered you. But we were both reborn. I am especially glad that we went back to the time before all the disasters happened and you were not persecuted or poisoned. So I forgave myself and I will no longer blame myself. I am very happy that you are willing to stay and move forward with me."

On a night with clear breeze and bright moon, a couple whispers to each other.

But at the other end of the low wall, there was a lone figure.

Sikong Yuehu finally got rid of his third brother's repeated "interrogation" and hid in the flower garden to get some fresh air. He was half leaning against a stone table with his eyes closed, but he heard a slight sound of footsteps coming from afar, pausing for a moment, and then continuing to come over here. He opened his eyes and saw the Lord of Shenyuan Palace holding a lantern in his hand.

So he stood up.

"If Your Highness wants to enjoy the moon, please go inside where the view is more open." The prince suggested while looking at the lights.

"Fifth brother is inside." Sikong Yuehu bowed and said, "I won't disturb you, my lord."

The Palace Master watched the person turn and leave, then moved to the side of the stone table and looked through the lattice window. In the inner courtyard, there were two figures lying on the stones under the shade of flowers, and the lanterns in their hands were falling down.

No wonder he looked lonely and tired from afar. He must have seen the two figures through the window. But if she hadn't heard him say that the fifth prince was inside the wall, she wouldn't have been able to recognize who the blurry figures were. Did he really recognize the fifth prince, or did he recognize another person? So she guessed who the couple inside the wall were.

Dianjun had no mood to admire the moon. She remembered that when she was wandering in the mountains, she couldn't sleep at night. It seemed that she blamed the moonlight for being too bright. When she couldn't sleep at night, she would have wild thoughts and she didn't know when she fell into a nightmare. She was forced to the edge of a cliff by the pursuers of the Yi tribe. She had no other way out: to be humiliated or fall into the abyss.

The bright moon could never give her comfort.

It seemed that she really could not and should not have any more unrealistic fantasies. In fact, as cowardly as she was, she had already enjoyed too much luck. She should not be jealous of someone who was a hundred times stronger than her, just like a firefly should not be jealous of the bright moon.

The palace lady hesitated, but the next morning, she still told Yingshu her proposal: "Actually, Ah Shu can go back to the court first."

When he said this, the Palace Lord felt extremely guilty, his eyelids drooped, his gaze still unfocused: "Xinsu Lord is now disguised as a personal guard. With his support, I can handle it. Ah Shu doesn't need to stay and take risks..."

"There are many things that Xinsu Jun cannot deal with directly. It is not necessary for Dian Jun to be by his side. I stay here just in case. If anything happens, the two countries will have to fight to the death. Dian Jun's safety is related to the prosperity and decline of the country, and there must be no mistakes."

The palace master sighed deeply.

"Even if your Highness's provocation to Queen Mother Yao angers her, Queen Mother Yao will certainly not ignore Jiang Tai's ambition to unify the world and harm your Highness. In Queen Mother Yao's eyes, I am just a female official, no different from a palace maid. My life or death is not enough to cause a war between the two countries and undermine Jiang Tai's plan.

If I return to the court first, Jiang Tai will never allow Dianjun to leave Weiyang Palace and live outside. Even if Northern Zhao rises up in rebellion and Jiang Tai has to personally lead an expedition to Tongguan, as long as Dianjun stays in Weiyang Palace, when the Ran clan attacks the city, Dianjun will become a hostage used by Queen Mother Yao to force the Ran clan to withdraw!

The Ran clan will not abandon King Zhenyuan, because they do not have the strength to directly seize the throne of Northern Han. They must support King Zhenyuan in order to stabilize the situation in Northern Han. Before the Ran clan succeeds in their uprising, King Zhenyuan will not return to Northern Han. But if the Palace Master does not get away, Your Majesty will never let King Zhenyuan leave the borders of Dayu!"

It is crucial for Dianjun to escape from Weiyang Palace first. This must happen after Northern Zhao raises its army and Jiang Tai leaves the capital, and before the Ran clan attacks the city. Of course, it must also happen before the raid on Hanzhong!

"I just can't bear to let Ah Shu take any more risks." Dianjun sighed again.

If she had one third of Yingshu's talent, perhaps she would be able to handle this crisis. If she could handle this crisis, would she be able to win the respect of Xinsujun? But she was such a dull person that even after she heard his complete plan, she still found it difficult to understand the key to the plan.

"This is a danger, but also an opportunity." Ying Shu stretched out her hand and waved it under the palace master's lowered gaze: "My ambition has never been limited to being a female historian in Qianyang Palace. As a woman, I don't want my fate to be controlled by others. I want to be like a man and make achievements. The palace master is willing to take risks and give me a chance to gain a foothold in the court."

She is not the bright moon, she is the golden crow.

Her radiance is brighter and hotter than the bright moon. She can make everyone feel ashamed of themselves, but they are all obsessed with the warmth she gives.

Dianjun only felt a sharp pain in his eyes.

It is unfortunate to have such a person in life, and it is also fortunate to have such a person in life.

"Ah Shu, have you never thought about the Fifth Prince? The Fifth Prince is worried about leaving you in Northern Han, so he has to leave first, but he will definitely be worried..."

"Nanci and I have known each other for too long." Yingshu withdrew her hand and stopped forcing Dianjun to look at her: "He would never obstruct what I decided to do, and he trusts me. He knows that although I am ambitious, I cherish my life more than anyone else. I would never take risks without thinking, and I would never do something that is impossible just for the sake of loyalty."

"Ambition. This is the first time I've heard someone openly admit that he has ambition." Dian Jun shook his head: "What An Yu fears most is admitting that he has ambition. He tries every possible way to excuse himself and deceives himself. What ambition do you have? You just regret being born a woman..."

"I have never regretted this." Ying Shu smiled: "First of all, if I were a boy, my father would not indulge me like that. I have such a naughty temper and I don't know how many times I got punished with a ruler when I was a child. Secondly, if a boy wants to achieve success, it may not be easier than a girl. If I were a boy, I would not have to dream of being appointed as a Shangshu Lang at this age, and concurrently being granted the position of the Left Deputy Envoy. Even the Third Prince is only the Right Deputy Envoy.

In this world, it is not easy for women, but how easy is it for men? Even if you are born in an imperial family, look at the ignorant and fearless Second Prince of our dynasty. He dared to provoke the prince, but had to flatter Lord He of Jiangdong. Did he have too many choices? "

"I think men have more freedom, after all, they are less restricted."

"No one can do whatever they want." Ying Shu thought of Nan Ci and sighed softly: "I used to be indignant about the difference between men and women. I always wondered why men could take concubines but women could not have multiple husbands?"

The prince was stunned.

She had never been indignant about this rule!

"But what made me even more indignant later was that the marriages of men and women were not decided by themselves. Parents' orders and matchmakers' words had caused so many lovers to be unable to marry. But if there were no rules and restrictions, if one party changed their mind, they could abandon the other party without restraint. The disadvantaged position of women was actually caused by the laws of nature.

Women are generally not as strong as men, but they bear the natural law of bearing children. Therefore, being a good wife and a good mother becomes a rule that men set for women. Similarly, men must also bear the responsibility of supporting the family. In a small family, men are the main labor force. If they are lazy and cannot support the family, they will be blamed and despised. In a big country, when war breaks out, men must go to the battlefield to fight the enemy, and women and children should be protected.

The strong protect the weak, which is also a rule made by humans. I am a woman, but I want to join the court like a man, but I cannot lead the army to fight, because I am a woman, and no one requires me to fight the enemy. In terms of talent, I am not really amazing. For example, if it is not necessary for the Palace Lord to go to the Northern Han Dynasty this time, or if the Palace Lord is a man...

There are still many officials in the court of Dayu who are more talented than me, so I won’t be the only one to be the Left Vice Envoy.”

The Lord of Shenyuan Palace sighed one after another.

He is a man, and a man of such great courage and wisdom, so it is difficult for him to do whatever he wants, right? The woman in his eyes is also out of his reach.