I was reborn, and so were they

Chapter 146 Memories of Past Life · Qin Keqing · 1 (5000)

[Don’t you always want to know why I am so obsessed with Su Qi? 】'Qin Keqing's eyes were soft, and she quietly looked at the seventeen-year-old self in front of her, at her delicate temples, and at her flirtatious eyes. The self in front of her was so young and had not yet understood love and hate.

Don't worry, don't worry, he has already recognized himself, 'Qin Keqing' still has a lot of time to teach himself how to love someone.

'Qin Keqing' relaxed her brows, softened her tone, and sat gently beside her bed. Outsiders could not see the existence of her spiritual body, but in the eyes of the seventeen-year-old Qin Keqing, 'Qin Keqing's' soft and charming face was... Little by little became calm and peaceful.

[I fell in love with him is a slow story. The beginning of the story took place in the spring of 2019. He returned to high school as an outstanding graduate to give a speech to us senior students. The climax of the story was seven years later, when he had just met Lu Xian is getting divorced. People always say that there is a seven-year itch between husband and wife. It is said that a friendship of more than seven years is a lifetime. But what about me and him? He can hear my whispers for those seven years, and he can hear my whispers for seven years. The pounding heart inside? 】

The restlessness and sorrow in Qin Keqing's heart calmed down little by little in the words of 'Qin Keqing', and she quietly listened to the stories of the past told by her future self.

[The seven-year secret love is too long, and it will take too much time to tell, so let’s tell the climax of the story first, which was a time in the gutter without the sun...]

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Life is not like making a movie, and you don’t have to wait for years for someone. I have been a very realistic person since I was a child, and I will not spend too much time on vain things that I can’t get.

The four years when I had a crush on Su Qi in college actually didn’t take up too much of my efforts. I was keen on club activities and various competition speeches, and my academic performance in various subjects was always among the best. I actively ran my own self-media, and I also had a lot of success online. Fans of the school, youth is rich and colorful, and I am definitely the most conspicuous among thousands of colors, so that many teachers will be shocked when they know that Qin Muzhi is my sister.

"But Qing is actually that Qin Muzhi's sister, she doesn't look like her at all!"

Qin Muzhi is cold and self-possessed, with a phlegmatic temperament. We are indeed two extremes from each other, but we two sisters are very similar in one thing - we don't need to deliberately maintain relationships with others.

Growing up, there were too many people who wanted to have a relationship with our two sisters. Qin Muzhi had a cold temperament and refused to interact with others. He did everything himself and did not ask much from the outside world. This is an efficient way of dealing with people, and he can reject the people around him. All the Yingying Yanyan who wanted to surround him, even if there was no one around him, Qin Muzhi was happy to be alone.

I am more flexible in temperament and do not object to treating others with a gentle attitude, but I maintain an absolute standard. I can be called acquaintances with many people, but I can never be called friends. This is also efficient for me. In terms of interpersonal relationships, many times as soon as I open my mouth, many acquaintances are willing to help.

I know the thoughts behind those people, and I also know that if you get something, you have to give it, so I rarely open my mouth. Even if I do, it is normal for everyone to get what they need. Over time, most people will lose their minds and be at peace with me. Treat each other.

During the four years of college, I made a lot of friends, got to know a lot of people, had a lot of things happen, and figured out a lot of life principles. I thought I had a complete youth, except for the matter about Su Qi.

Su Qi is a very legendary person, hard to forget, very memorable, but he has Jiang Chuyao by his side.

To be honest, I always felt that I didn’t like Su Qi that much because we were students from the same high school. I was considered his elementary school girl and I had not much communication with him, but those interactions were too ordinary. The four years they spent together are not worth mentioning.

He graduated from college a year before me. On the eve of graduation, he broke up with his girlfriend of four years and later secretly married a young director of the school.

After only two years of marriage, he divorced the female school director, and then there was no news about him.

I learned this news thanks to the half-familiar circle of friends. The news of his divorce made a big fuss in the circle of our college graduates. Men, women, and children were eager to show off, saying that it was finally their turn to appear.

But in fact, no one really took action. At that time, everyone had just graduated and began to understand that life would not be just snow, moon, wind and flowers, and they really couldn't find his whereabouts. They all said that the regrets of youth should be left alone.

That's what I was joking about, but after all, my life has been so smooth, and it's a pity that he is the only one, so I still care about him in my heart. I often inquire about his news casually, and I don't worry if there is no news. After all, I graduated from high school in one year and college in four years. One year, I am a very patient person.

When he and I really started to have a relationship, it was in the spring of 7, the 2025th year we knew each other.

I found him in Junsha. The person who informed me of the news was the leader of our university dance troupe. Perhaps he was too hard to forget. When the leader told me the news, his tone was very conclusive. It seems that she took his household registration book and checked it in person, saying that if he admitted that he was wrong, she would come to see him.

"It's absolutely impossible to admit my mistake. I'm so impressed! I followed the trend and poached Princess Jiang, so I didn't really get caught in it. Su Nanshen, everyone's Bai Yueguang!"

I really hate the title Princess Jiang. What kind of princess is she? She is clearly a giant baby who cries when she is not awake, and it drags down my time with him for four years.

It happened that my economy was in a slump at that time, and because I refused the opportunity to transform myself into self-media, I was ostracized and suppressed, so I simply packed my bags and traveled thousands of miles to meet him. At that time, he lived in a mid- to low-end apartment in Junsha. He also rented a house nearby so that he could observe him more easily.

He has changed a lot since he was in college two years ago. He has learned to smoke and drink, and has nothing to do all day long. Except for going downstairs to go shopping at the convenience store every early morning, he almost never leaves the house.

It seemed that something had seriously injured him. This man always had his waist hunched over, and his shoulders seemed to be pressed down by something heavy.

He likes to lie on the balcony railing in a daze, and his black eyes are like the sea reflecting the world. I peek at him from several buildings away, just like in college.

It was a few years after the epidemic, the economy was slowly recovering, the air pressure in the sky was always low, the people in Junsha were hot-tempered, and the sounds of card games and quarrels in the neighboring buildings could often be heard.

I have a proactive personality, and since there was no one around him now, this was the best opportunity, so I looked for a job in the convenience store he often went to.

The first time I saw him was in the early morning. I deliberately stayed in the convenience store to work until late at night, and then I saw him walking out of the alley with his slippers drooping.

Unlike those people who always wear formal suits or big T-shirts late at night, his dressing style is very casual, not formal, but not shabby either.

It should be that certain habits in the past have deeply penetrated into his bone marrow, so that he will not lose his composure in dressing.

"That man, everyone in our area has noticed him! It seems that he has been living here for a few months, and he is too hard to forget. Don't think about him, Xiao Qin will definitely fail."

The person who took over my shift was a 30-year-old local young woman from Junsha. She would get excited when talking about him, and her eyes would shine with the secret love of a 20-year-old girl.

Of course he is unforgettable, for example, I have been thinking about it for seven years, and now I have come here.

"He should be a weird person, with a very low aura. If you stay with him, you might cry within half a minute, right?"

The thirty-year-old female sales clerk who is already a mother of two children chatted and went to work.

How long can a man like him live?Like the kind of person who would go to Tianhu to commit suicide in spring.

I met him several times at night in a convenience store, and I finally couldn't help it. It was another early morning, and I stopped him.

"Su Qi? Is that you?"

The overhead light was too bright, and his skin was so pale that it was dazzling.

The oden was still churning, and it was a little misty. He raised his head in surprise and looked at me. After checking it carefully for a while, I quickly took off the mask, and he remembered.

"Qin Keqing?" He raised his head and smiled, leaving a piece of Green Arrow gum behind. "Why did the elementary school girl appear here?"

I said I was unemployed, and I came here with my friends for a break.

So like the beginning of many art films made by people in their twenties, we started chatting.

He is still very easy-going as before, as long as I want, he can chat with me for a long time, maybe he also needs to find someone to talk to, in short, we two are "the same people who have fallen into the world, and we have met before."

Su Qi, neither young nor old, lives alone, is a freelancer, and is not short of money. He comes to Junsha to relax because of some things, and rarely comes out during the day.

I like to eat tofu in oden because it absorbs the soup.

Been obsessed with radishes the last few days.

"I also like quiet places." I said to him. "Can I visit your home?"

As soon as I finished speaking, I felt that it was not good, and my wolfish ambition was a bit exposed.

He just smiled, found a day off for me, and led me to his house.

As seen through the telescope, his home is very quiet and clean, and the floors are swept and mopped frequently to keep them clean.

But it was still messy and dark.

"I don't like places that are too bright. Why? Hospitals, schools, offices, those places are all too bright. I have a psychological shadow on these places."

He kept frowning when he talked about these places, and he didn't seem to be lying.

I helped him install a small desk lamp.

The small desk lamp with a cherry blossom shade was a bit pink. He seemed to be troubled by the light of this color. He looked at the room that turned pink after turning on the light, squinting his eyes.

“It doesn’t feel like serious lighting.”

baffling.

I often went to his house to help him clean up his daily life. When I was working with him, he would occasionally look at me and ask questions in confusion.

"Such a gentle person like Xiaoxiaomei, why didn't I see you fall in love in college?"

"I have no time and no interest."

Because I have been secretly crushing on you throughout college.

The fact that I found him spread like wildfire in the circle of friends, and many people came to me to inquire about him.

"Are you still with Brother Su now? How is it? Has he become ugly?" Best friend Chen Zhao sent me an emoji with stars in his eyes, a nympho.

"Is he in good health recently?" Jiang Chuyao specially added me on WeChat, and asked me a little nervously.

"Su Qi, you actually found me? Huh, you really care about me." Li Yuxi, who knew me well, always spoke in a sour tone.

"Help me take good care of him. Please save him. After he divorced Lu Xian, he was very bad." It was Su Luo who called me at the end, and it was rare to see her bow her head.

I told her of course I would.

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He took a deep breath of cigarette and passed it through his lungs in front of me.

A Furong is a relatively popular type of cigarette among Junsha cigarettes. It is neither cheap nor expensive. It is just like the life he and I are living now.

Just right, that's the best.

Junsha is very prosperous, with high-rise buildings, lights, chess and card halls that never close, delicious food on the street, and a night market that only opens at eleven o'clock.

How did he start smoking? When did you contract alcoholism?

He sees through the love of women at a glance, and turns a deaf ear to the admiration of men.

He didn't care about many things as much as he did at the beginning, including food, clothing, shelter, food, drink, and toilet. As long as he was comfortable in life, it was enough.

I get to know him better and better.

The lampshade I bought him was an ugly, pink lamp, and he told me later that it made his room look like a brothel.

"Don't throw it away! Only replace it if it breaks!"

So he began to calculate the time and said how long it would take.

I told him that every thing has a bad day, and so do people.

I asked him if it was broken, and he shook his head and said he didn't know.

"Am I broken? I don't know. I think it's good how I am now. I left a lot of money to Aunt Luo Er'an and the others. It's a big sum. It won't matter if I'm gone in the future."

He told me that he did not take everything lightly and did not forget anything. He could think of Lu Xian every day. He was in pain and wanted to die, but he did not give up. He also wanted to stand up, but He couldn't find a way to stand up.

It's just that now that the cigarettes and alcohol in his house are gone, it makes people want to give up.

He put out the cigarette butt in his hand in the ashtray, and the man lay down on the balcony. It was raining lightly in Junsha again today. The tiny raindrops floated into the balcony and fell gently on his plain skin.

The room was very quiet. I was with him, and he told me that he could hear the rolling air above the clouds, the drizzle falling on the world, and the heartbeats of the two of us.

Finally hear my heartbeat? It has been dancing for you for seven years.

"Let's go downstairs and do some shopping." He muttered, put on his hoodie, took the change, put on his sneakers, picked up the garbage bag, and went out.

This time we did not go home directly from the convenience store. With a rare surge of emotions, we decided to go to a nearby park for a short walk.

It is drizzling, but the raindrops are also delicate, filling the air into a white mist. This mist sinks to the streets, just like clouds coming to the world.

The signboard lights on the street were on persistently, so red and blue lights shone out from the fog, dyeing the street beautifully. Sometimes a taxi passes by, leaving a bright trace in the fog. Maybe some newly replaced leaves happened to fall, and were picked up by the air current and floated high into the sky.

There are many tall buildings, and many lights are on even in the middle of the night. Under the effect of rain and fog, the lights dim into a sea of ​​yellow stars.

It is a very beautiful scenery.

The air just after the rain was damp and cold, with the smell of fresh leaves. Neither of us had an umbrella, but we just helped each other put on our hoods. Neither of us spoke, nor did we hold an umbrella. Walking under the high and low eaves, wandering aimlessly.

The sewers were flowing in an orderly manner, and some petals and leaves flowed along with the small river on the ground. The water droplets on the leaves reflected the light and shadow of the city. From time to time, water droplets hit the leaves, and they swirled in small circles.

Su Qi looked at this county sand with a sense of aimlessness. The city looked warm and quiet in the hazy spring rain. The drizzle melted the edges of all the buildings and light, making everything quiet.

He suddenly turned his head.

"Shall we have a dance?"

I took his hand and walked to the yellow street light next to him and started dancing.

I was wearing a black trench coat, and he was wearing a big cotton-padded jacket. We were dancing under the lights, it was a tap dance, the rain was foggy, and the lights were also foggy.

I know a lot of dances, and he learned a lot from no one, but in the end, we hunched over each other in circles meaninglessly, like barbarians around a campfire.

To outsiders, all this is really absurd. In this rainy early morning, a man and a woman dance passionately under the street lamp, which is weird and fascinating.

Suddenly, the wind blew through the street, blowing my long hair, blowing through his moist eyes, carrying unknown emotions, and blowing deep into the streets of the city.

"You gave me a dance, what gift do you want?" he asked me.

There is a pink peony in the closet of the flower shop on the street.

"peony."

"Peonies like that are sold all over the street. Why don't you choose other more interesting flowers?"

"do you have it?"

"I don't, I'm not your Peony."

I was holding the bunch of peonies and wearing my black windbreaker. I believed that at this moment, in his heart, my waist was as slender as a willow.

"Su Qi, I came here specifically to find you."

"I guessed it from the beginning."

"Su Qi, it's time for you to try to love another person."

We didn't talk anymore, we just hugged each other under the streetlight.

Su Qi, actually I have the last half of the sentence left. I hope that other person can be me.

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[Later?There are many stories later, if you want to hear, I can tell you slowly. 】

'Qin Keqing' looked at the confused Qin Keqing next to him with a smile.

"But you paid unilaterally from the beginning to the end. I didn't see his feelings for you." Qin Keqing was still confused.

[Well, I know you will have such doubts, but don't worry, Jiang Chuyao's birthday party will start in a few hours, you should go out and get ready. 】

Qin Keqing sighed, "Listening to what you said, I finally understand. If I have paid so much but not repaid, I will never forget it for the rest of my life."

Seventeen-year-old Qin Keqing shook his head, "Forgive me for not being able to sympathize with you. I will help you punish that Su Qi, and at least let him love you equally."

"I want to make him unable to love her! Chasing my wife to the crematorium!" The seventeen-year-old girl ignited great fighting spirit and wanted to go for revenge.

ps: I’ve been holding it in for a long time, I hope you’re satisfied.