Start by pursuing a talented girl

"Monday, February 2, sunny."

"Today's part-time job went very well, and I got an extra few hundred yuan."

"In this case, if the school still has holidays every two weeks in the next three months, then I no longer need to worry about money."

"But you still have to save some money in daily life and set aside some money to prepare for unexpected events."

"It doesn't matter if you don't eat dinner. I'm used to being hungry."

"However, in order to solve the problem of part-time job, I was forced to agree to Wang Ge's somewhat rude request."

"Pretend to be his girlfriend this weekend and show him off in front of his friends."

"I really didn't expect that the plot in this kind of light novel would actually happen to me."

"And I actually agreed to it out of nowhere."

"It's definitely not that I have any feelings for him. I just felt soft for a moment - well, my being soft-hearted proves that I do have some feelings for him."

"When writing a diary, I can always realize some things that I usually cannot notice. This is probably a kind of introspection. I observe and reflect on myself from the perspective of a bystander. This can effectively prevent me from falling into misunderstandings and getting into trouble. , is also one of the driving forces that has always supported me to write down my diary.”

"I am not hard-hearted, and I am far from being as cold-blooded as I appear. Being together for a long time has made me unable to restrain myself from being shackled, so that I will become soft-hearted and cannot bear to refuse his request."

"Actually, this is not entirely my problem. If what Wang Ge did disgusts me, I will naturally not feel 'soft-hearted' and I will not have the heart to refuse the request to pretend to be my girlfriend."

"Well, I feel much better when I think about it. Wang Ge is right. Being Ah Q is also good. At least it can make me feel less bad."

"Objectively speaking, Wang Ge is indeed an extremely outstanding male individual. He has experience and knowledge far beyond his age. He is very measured in what he says and does, and he is very comfortable to get along with. This is why I was willing to work with him in the first place. One of the reasons to read in the library.”

"What is described here is the former Wang Ge. Now as we become more and more familiar with him, he has slowly begun to show his true colors. He is getting thicker and thicker, and he is becoming more and more unscrupulous. Today, he is even called "wife" directly. calls me."

"I don't know how he could shout that."

"..."

"Speaking of which, I talked with him tonight about some concepts about 'chastity'. He and I have similar views in this regard. This is a very rare thing and it makes me happy."

"Many of my thoughts and concepts are different from those of most of my peers, and it is always difficult to be recognized. I don't think I am wrong, but being criticized all the time will inevitably undermine some of my self-confidence."

"I'm glad that there are people my age who have similar ideas to me, even if it's just a trivial aspect."

"Wang Ge said that this concept is still a bit advanced for people of this era, but in fact, as early as 1920, Hu Shi published an article in the newspaper titled "On Women Defiled by Rape". That was This idea was mentioned for the first time."

"That was 1920. This concept was indeed advanced at that time, but now a hundred years later, is it still advanced?"

"I do not know."

"I lack sufficient social experience and my understanding of the world is not yet mature, so I am not qualified to make evaluations in this area."

"I just hope that more people will have similar and identical ideas to me."

"That way I might have a few friends and not be so determined to reject all intimacy."

"Wang Ge's ideas are similar to mine. I think he may be like me, and he doesn't have many friends with whom I can really talk."

"The truth seems to be true. He frankly admitted that this is why he likes me. He can find something in me that other girls don't shine in."

"I don't think these ideas that are different from most people are shining points, but if he is also such a person, it is understandable."

"...At first I thought he chose to pursue me because I was number one in academics, good-looking and independent, and would be proud to have me as his girlfriend - boys of this age are always like this. I pursue being unique and different, and feel that this is very beautiful - I even wrote this guess in my diary in December."

"I apologize to him for my malicious speculation."

“He is indeed a very good boy. It is really difficult to find another person as good as him at this age, so I sincerely hope that he can give up this dead end of mine as soon as possible and find a bright road. "

"Everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses. Everyone is unique. I also have many shortcomings, but he was blinded by his good impression of me and ignored those obvious shortcomings."

"For example, if he was chasing another girl, he might have caught up with her a long time ago. Now he has entered a sweet and passionate period of love, instead of having a girlfriend by pretending like now. He has to be careful to ask for help when holding hands. agree."

"Well, the above sentence is just a simple complaint. I don't have such a thing as a 'best friend', so I can only complain in my diary."

"At this point, it is very difficult to persuade him to give up. Then I have to think carefully. In the last three months, should I be more indifferent to him so that he no longer has expectations for me? Or should I treat him better? A little bit, leaving some warmer memories for both him and me.”

"The advantage of the former is that he won't be too sad after I leave. The disadvantage is that it is also a kind of torture for myself, and it may be difficult for me to do this. I am always soft-hearted."

"As for the latter, the advantage is that you can spend a better three months before the college entrance examination. The disadvantage... As good as we were together before, the separation afterward will naturally be cruel."

"hard to decide."

"Well...if I could get to know Wang Ge earlier and get to know him before I made the decision to 'reject all intimate relationships', maybe I wouldn't have to be so entangled."

"I can't say for sure. I was still very naive at that time, and he might have been trying to attract attention at that time."

"...Let's wait until after the weekend to make a choice."

"If he performs well, then I will choose the latter and let him take advantage; if he performs poorly, then choose the former. The long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain."

"that's it."

"..."

"Haha, it seems that I really have some inexplicable feelings for Wang Ge. I wouldn't be so entangled in the past."

"It's pointless to think about this. I don't know whether the path I chose is right or not, but I have to try to go on to find out."

"Everything in this world is conserved. If you want to gain something, you have to lose something first. I have understood this truth a long time ago and have been mentally prepared for it."

"I will be free."