Zongman: I have really retired!

"You seem to be getting more and more irritable recently, are you a little out of control?"

Meng Shuxu, who was on the other end of the phone, suddenly spoke with a worried tone after listening to Xia Youjie's rant in silence.

Xia Youjie swallowed back the words that came to his lips. He actually knew that he had many problems now.

He irritably repaired the ground that had been shattered by the battle, and after letting the two children over there leave, Xia Youjie sat back on the chair, closed his eyes, took a slow breath, and calmed down the man who had become increasingly irritable in recent times. His temper was suppressed, and after a long time he finally calmed down and said:

"Well, it's pretty good. There's not much physical problem. I'm barely getting used to it, but mentally..."

Xia Youjie's tone was a little bitter, "It still has some influence. By the way, you must have experienced these feelings before."

Ever since he became weird, he could clearly detect the changes in his mood. From time to time, he would hear confused whispers in his ears, and suddenly he would feel irritable in his heart.

He became more sensitive and irritable, but as his mastery of this power increased, his emotions began to become more reserved, not...disappeared, that is. His normal human emotions were disappearing, and his thinking was becoming increasingly calm. Familiar emotions such as happiness or sadness began to fade away, as if blocked by a layer of fog.

He couldn't help but panic, and began to doubt whether he could still experience the real and rich human emotions.

He also tried to adjust his emotional state through meditation, artistic creation, exercise and even fierce fighting, but it didn't have much effect. In the end, he calmly accepted his changes.

It doesn't matter, as long as there is reason, the person named Xia Youjie will still exist. He has neither lost his memory nor all his emotions, so is there anything worth complaining about?

"Are you under control of yourself now?" Meng Shuxu asked calmly.

With a puff, Xia Youjie laughed. His tone was calm and a little strange: "It's okay. I've been used to it for a long time. It's much better now. I'm not a guy who goes crazy casually."

He closed his eyes and recalled his previous life. His second life had more tragedies and more stories than his first. Death and curse were the background of that life, and love and hate were meaningless.

To him, lies, deceit, praise, honor, the attitudes of others, and even what he once considered to be right opinions now mean nothing to him.

Yes, those cruel realities, those despicable requests, that decision he made on his own.

"For this world to have a glimmer of hope, for the continuation of mankind, and for their sacrifices to be meaningful, so... please die."

………………

"Jie..."

"Ok?"

"You promised"

"what?"

Xia Youjie opened his eyes suddenly: "When did I agree?"

"You just hummed."

Meng Shuxu said the most unreasonable things in the calmest tone.

"What the hell, can you act like an elder?!"

Xia Youjie angrily yelled at Meng Shuxu on the other end of the phone.

beep...

Meng Shuxu hung up the phone very directly.

creaking——

Xia Youjie crushed the poor phone with an expressionless expression. Very good... I remember you, Dazai Osamu, right? It's best to pray. Pray that I will have forgotten you by then, otherwise I will definitely …

When Xia Youjie finally came to his senses, the scrapped mobile phone had become an "iron ball". Xia Youjie stared at it for a long time, and finally used his power to restore it to its original appearance.

…………

"It doesn't matter to you, right? He's your nephew after all." The voice seemed to be tempting someone sweetly, and the rising tone at the end was as seductive as a small brush.

But unfortunately, the object of its temptation is the inhumane Meng Shuxu.

"Don't use your poor seduction skills on me, Yu Jia."

Meng Shuxu slapped away Yu Jia's hand on his shoulder and said coldly.

Yu Jia wasn't angry either. She just looked at the man with a smile and said, "Please, it's obviously you who brought me... through all the hard work. Why are you so unkind now?"

Her tone was vague and sticky, making people shudder as if being stared at by a terrifying creature. There seemed to be some kind of ulterior secret hidden in those black eyes with Asian features.

But Meng Shuxu didn't care. He just said calmly: "The experimental subjects you want will arrive soon. Remember your promise. Although I don't care about their life or death, you can at least make some achievements, otherwise I will have to deal with you."

Yu Jia said in a faint tone: "It's really hard to meet you, but then you threaten me like this when you don't even want to say hello? At least you can say a few words of concern~"

"Don't do unnecessary things." Meng Shuxu warned Yu Jia, but Yu Jia hummed and moved her eyes to the door with a playful look in her eyes:

"They worship you like a god, but you do that kind of thing. Do you really have any humanity left? Or... are you just like us?"

You are a saint in their eyes. Why do you pursue power, play with people's hearts and even betray the meaning of your own existence?

“I am not a saint beautified by history, nor do I bother to beautify my behavior to cater to others.

I don't care if my actions are right or wrong, I just do what I want to do.

Human beings are just one type of all things in the world. They are only different from animals and plants with low intelligence and have more rationality and sensibility. This is not something to be proud of.

On the contrary, if you are obsessed with the meaning of human existence and forget the meaning of your own existence, then you are putting the cart before the horse, meaningless and pitiful. "

Meng Shuxu knew that there was someone outside the door, although he didn't know who it was, but because of Yu Jia's temperament, it was probably a trap. Instead of letting Yu Jia instigate him later, he simply told the real reason. As for what the person who heard it thought, this is It's out of his control.

Yosano Akiko covered her mouth. She wanted to ask Yu Jia, the person in charge, for a leave after hearing that Meng Shuxu was coming, but...

What did she hear?

Experimental subject!

Was it something she imagined?

wrong……

Ueno-sama is a good person...

He would argue with superiors on behalf of soldiers because of their psychological condition and unwillingness to go to the battlefield. He would carefully remember the hobbies and habits of each soldier, and would try every means to give them the opportunity to return home and communicate with the outside world. He opposed war. , even when he became Prime Minister, he worked diligently for the development of this country. Why...

Someone like him would...