Primarch and Honkai Impact

Jizi said that if she loses her mind and is controlled by Honkai, she must end her life without hesitation.

But...why? Why? Kiana!!!

Why!! I can't bring myself to end my life.

The heart is full of contradictions and pain.

On the one hand, she knew that being controlled by Honkai would bring about a huge disaster, and she didn't want to become Honkai's puppet, and didn't want to hurt the people she loved. On the other hand, she couldn't accept the fact that she had to end her own life with her own hands, and she still had too many concerns and reluctances.

Kiana thought of her past dreams, and the good times she had spent with her friends. She thought of Jizi's teachings and expectations, and her responsibilities and mission. She knew that she couldn't let the collapse succeed, and couldn't let Jizi's sacrifice go to waste.

However, her hands were out of control and she could not raise her weapon. Her heart was struggling painfully, as if two voices were arguing in her ears.

One voice told her that this was the right choice and the only way to save the world, while another voice cried out to her not to give up and to hold on.

Kiana's tears blurred her vision, and she felt that her heart had been torn in two. She didn't know how to choose, and she didn't know if she had enough courage and strength to face all this.

"Humans always make the same mistake, sacrificing everything they have to save others. But they never think of the sacrifice that goes along with it."

There was a wound in Kiana's heart that could never heal, a crack that would allow Xilin to return again.

"That's why you can never get away from it."

"Any brief distraction, any painful memory, will give me more freedom to turn every place you stay into ruins." Xilin sneered.

"Kiana~Where can you escape to? Because I am you."

"Kiana, the energy in your body is getting out of control. Take a deep breath and stay calm." Fu Hua noticed that Kiana was on the verge of losing control and quickly reminded her.

"Why don't you use your power?" Xilin continued to tempt Kiana, wanting to drag Kiana into the endless abyss.

"Do you want to die here? Humph, how pitiful!"

"You are a coward who only knows how to run away. But where can you run to? There is no place for you in this world. Finally, you give in."

"I will never let you..."

"Hey~ Now is not the time to despair."

"Kiana, wake up!"

At this moment, the feather that Zero left on Kiana came in handy.

Unlike before, warm blue flames surrounded Kiana.

"You are a spirit that won't leave. Is it the hidden feather that gives you the power? Whether in the real world or in the spirit world, you are trying to stop me."

"It seems that Xilin, you still haven't given up."

"It's just that no matter how hard you try, it's in vain. This girl was destined to be the vessel for my return to the human world from the beginning. Her past and her name are the shackles you humans created to imprison gods."

"The girl you're trying so hard to save was just an illusion from the beginning. She has completely given up everything. He won't respond to you."

"She... Is there a possibility that I have to save not just one of you, but both of you?"

"Kiana, what are you waiting for?"

"Zero..." Kiana looked at the figure that shouldn't appear in front of her in a daze.

"Remember? You once asked me why I didn't care even though I had lost my memory?"

"I told you that I want to recover my memory because now I want to know what happened in the past, but I will do what I want with my current life. No one can deny it, and no one can decide for me."

"the same as you."

“But I was born...”

"Shut up!"

Zero interrupted Kiana directly. "Those who shouldn't have been born should not have existed in this world from the beginning. There's no such concept."

"Then why are you here now? It means that your existence itself is you. You are you. You are Kiana."

"Can..."

"There's nothing wrong with that."

"Eat when you should, drink when you should, play when you should, destroy the world when you should, do whatever you should do."

"Why do you care about other people's opinions? Did I say I care about other people's opinions?"

"I killed you."

"Okay, then I'll die, it's that simple." Ling said indifferently.

"The world will not stop spinning because of my death, and the world will not be destroyed directly because of my death. Just do what you should do."

"Don't lose to this guy. If you want to escape, just escape. Why bother with so many people's business? Just live your own life well."

"So tell me now, Kiana Kaslana, what is your choice?"

"Should I continue to escape and just go on like this, or should I not choose to escape and face everything in front of me?"

"I won't run away anymore."

Kiana said firmly, and slowly stood up from the ground.

"That's good. Since you've already made your choice, all I can do is help you a little bit based on your choice."

"Xilin, please take a nap now."

"Damn it! You won't let me live in peace even after I die. Sooner or later, I will succeed. I will kill all of you. Just wait for me."

Amidst the shouting and cursing, Xilin and Ling returned to peace again.

Relying on her own will, she controlled the power of the Herrscher. Kiana felt the strange power in her body.

But if it could have been earlier, if I could have done it earlier.

"Perhaps your guilt and repentance are not what Zero wants to see. The reason why he is willing to risk his life until the last moment is because he believes in you with all his heart."

(I never believed it...)

"I believe you will change all this eventually."

"I see."

"I will not let myself get sucked into the pain of the past again."

"Although the personality of Volume 2 has been sealed temporarily, no one can guarantee that he will not wake up again. From now on, we still have a long way to go. There is still a lot to do."

"Zero may not be dead. It is possible that Zero is still alive."

Kiana's eyes widened, her face full of disbelief, and her hands clenched unconsciously, as if she could still feel the touch of assassinating Zero at that time.

"How is this possible? I saw it with my own eyes. I clearly pierced Zero's heart!" There was a hint of trembling in Kiana's voice. She hoped this was true.