When I traveled through time and became a player, I just wanted to commit suicide

"I have some ideas I want to talk to you about."

Li Shanren looked at Tifa's wine-red eyes and said seriously.

"You...come in first."

Tifa opened the door. She seemed to be a little surprised by the arrival of "Lithern".

Although Lithen promised her that he would come back to her in the next two days.

Li Shanren nodded and walked into the dark, narrow room. The faint musty smell in the air made him frown.

As the cheapest hotel, a day stay here only costs one copper rupee.

Of course, such a cheap price cannot provide a good living environment.

Tifa's room was located on the first floor of the hotel. In order to prevent homeless people from sneaking in through the window and staying in the king's room, the boss didn't even open the window and sealed it up.

And because of the dampness on the ground floor and the lack of maintenance and cleaning, dark brown mold spots can be seen everywhere on the walls, floors, and gaps in the room, and the air is damp.

If you live here for a long time, you will probably contract rheumatism...

The layout of the entire room is extremely simple, with no extraneous things except a single wooden bed.

"Just... just sit on the bed."

After closing the door again, Tifa came back and saw that there wasn't even a chair in the room, and she felt a little embarrassed.

"it is good."

Li Shanren didn't care much about this and sat directly at the end of the bed.

After all, he had spent a month bunking in that cold and dark alley, and Tifa's room could at least provide protection from wind and rain, and even had a bed.

"I thought you would stay in the village for two more days." Tifa gently sat on the side of the bed.

"I have indeed had such thoughts." Li Shanren smiled with relief, "However, in comparison, your incident seems to be more urgent. The children you care about will be in danger for one more day in Charles' hands. "

As he spoke, Li Shanren's expression became solemn, "I'm very grateful that you didn't abandon Alice and the others at that time and helped me bring them out."

During this time, Li Shanren slowly realized the importance of Alice and others to him.

He couldn't let go of these children, not only because of the moral sense he had developed in a civilized society, but also because of other things.

Li Shanren came to this world alone and without worries.

As a person who is lazy by nature, if he does not have certain goals or concerns, in this unaccompanied world, he will undoubtedly be like a lonely and carefree fallen leaf.

Compared with other senior time travellers, Li Shanren is a person with little ambition and desire.

He doesn't have the idea of ​​being born to reach the top or pursuing arbitrary decisions for eternity. He prefers a comfortable life.

If there is no way to return to the original world and there is nothing special about him, he will either die in obscurity on the street.

Either he would slowly accumulate some money, buy a small manor, and grow fruits there alone. When summer comes, he would put on a straw hat and hide under the shade of a tree to sleep in the gentle breeze.

Such a life might satisfy him.

However, for a person who has no worries, living alone for a long time will gradually make him fall into great emptiness and loneliness.

He has no relatives, no friends, and even no enemies...and this world is so strange, and his hometown is so far away, a distance that cannot be returned...

Everything will make him float around like a rootless duckweed.

Eventually, in this isolation from the entire world, he grew into an extremely eccentric existence.

Therefore, he needs something to really connect him with this strange world. It can be a goal, it can be someone or some people, or it can be a place.

In the maxims on the water, the first words Li Shanren said to Li Shanren from those mysterious beings who were suspected of being "fellow villagers" were -

[Alice is an important anchor. 】

An anchor is a stopping tool that is thrown into the water by a ship to temporarily stop it when sailing. It is very dangerous for a ship to sail on the sea without an anchor. The ship that is drifting around and unable to stop will sooner or later collide or run aground.

After reuniting with Alice and other children, Li Shanren gradually understood the meaning of "anchor".

This is his connection point with the world. It can break the cold water and let him feel the reality of the world.

Otherwise, he would think that everything in this world is fake. After all, how could there be such a ridiculous thing like sleeping in another world when he wakes up?

Li Shanren needs to feel the reality of this world, which is not just about warmth and coldness, hunger and fullness. He needs to understand that people in this world also have emotions, warmth, their own life experiences, joys, sorrows, and joys, and these things can relate to him. Make a connection.

The encounter with Alice gave him these things.

What would happen if he didn't meet Alice, or if he chose to refuse to help Alice and stay alone to survive?

Long periods of loneliness.

Almost no one interacts with him.

Everyone is very indifferent and only repeats those few sentences over and over again——

"If you don't want to die, stay away from here."

"Go away, there's no food here."

"Go dig in the trash!"

......

In this environment, Li Shanren's sense of alienation and illusion from this world will become stronger and stronger, and his longing for his native world will be infinitely magnified.

In the end, this complex emotion and sense will reach its peak after he dies for the first time and is resurrected in the game world he once played. The sense of absurdity in his heart will also be able to travel through time because of his sleep, and at the same time he can resurrect this game. Two things taken to the extreme.

【The world is fake. 】

Li Shanren will eventually think so.

Believing in materialism, he would only come to such a conclusion when he was alienated from the world and encountered many unexplainable things.

And in a world that is false and in which he can be resurrected, he is a player.

There is only one reason why players act unscrupulously in the game, put aside their moral principles, and act solely based on their interests and preferences -

The game world is fake. Players are not responsible for anything they do in the world. They only need to rely on their imagination to derive pleasure from it. Things like moral emotions can be completely put aside.

And Li Shanren, who re-examines the world with a player's mentality, will be a very dangerous and terrifying existence for both the current world and the borderlands.

Of course, in Li Shanren's native world, there are also some impressive games that will make people truly feel the reality of that game world, and this largely comes from the emotions and warmth displayed by the game characters.

Those crucial game characters are the "anchor" between the player and the game world.

For example, before time travel, Li Shanren once played a game without sleep or food. After the game ended, he was in a trance for several days and truly felt that a friend of his had died in the game.