As the empress who breaks off her engagement at the beginning, I choose the evil little black lotus.

March 18: On this day, Su Yan gave me a bottle of fragrant spiritual liquid, saying that if I use it to wash my eyes, it will cure eye diseases.

If someone else had given it to me, I would have put it on the shelf, but if he had given it to me, I still didn’t want to live up to my feelings.

March 19: Hey! ! !

March 20: I didn’t expect that! It’s incredible! The ectoplasm actually worked, even my character card changed. Now it’s Gu Xixue, the transfiguration piano master.

How exactly did he do it?

Yesterday, I was so excited that I ran to see them immediately.

Seeing it in reality and seeing it in my memory are completely different.

I am more and more certain that when what a person sees is turned into memory, a layer of knowledge will be added to it, and it will become different from its original appearance.

He and Nan Yi are much more beautiful than they were in my memory.

The two of them stood together, as if they could nourish each other.

May 28th: ​​This day is Nan Yi’s birthday.

I composed a song called "Flowers and Butterflies" as a congratulation to her and Su Yan.

Dielianhua, I hope that the butterfly encounters a soft flower like Nanyi instead of a prickly flower like this one.

In the sound of my piano, they kissed each other.

This time I am more angry than ever before. I don’t think I can wait until my fourth birthday.

May 29: I thought that I might not leave this diary behind. I am going to throw it into the river and let it be carried away by the water.

I shouldn't have to search across the rivers just for it.

The pages of paper cannot withstand the erosion of the river, but the words I left behind with the fire of life cannot.

They will follow this water flow, either scattering or appearing in a piece in some corner of the world.

If anyone saw it, they would just think it was crazy talk.

More likely, they will appear at the bottom of rivers, lakes and seas, where no one will ever see them.

Such an existence seems meaningless.

But the meaning of existence itself is that it has existed.

From the moment a person is born, he clenches his fists, trying to catch something.

When I die, I always want to leave something behind.

Children, articles, achievements...

Although I was not a person born normally, I am not exempt from this.

When I disappear, the sound of my piano, the flowers and plants I plant, the cats I raise, and even the impression and goodwill in Su Yan's and his friends' hearts will all be accepted by this deity.

The only thing she couldn't accept were these words.

……

On the first day of June, there were still five days before the birthday Gu Xixue had set for herself. It was when the flowers were at their peak, but the music in the small building suddenly stopped.

Gu Xixue covered her heart. At this moment, all the colorful things in the small building turned into peach blossoms when she saw them.

After Shen Xiaoxue was reminded by the Dragon Palace Goddess, she had already prepared numerous backup plans before using the character card.

She can do it, look at every flower, it is a peach blossom; look at every fruit, it is a loquat.

And so what if you don't have these.

There's Su Yan and Xue'er.

The resurrection of seeds requires causes and conditions, and it happens that causes and conditions are everywhere around her.

If Gu Xixue wants to fight against this deity, she must completely cut off her obsession and cut off everything in her lifetime.

Stay away from Su Yan, stay away from Xue'er, and isolate everything related to me.

In this way, she has a chance to become another person who has nothing to do with herself.

And this is exactly what she cannot do.

As Gu Xixue knew from birth, the birth of Gu Xixue's character card was for Su Yan and Xue'er.

To cut off these is to deny oneself.

"You didn't have to disappear."

Among the peach blossoms, Gu Xixue's eyes also showed the fiery red figure of the deity.

The phoenix eyes that this deity looked at her were filled with chills to the core.

Gu Xixue had known for a long time that she was not a flower, but snow.

It looks good but has no warmth.

In this world, I am afraid that only Su Yan can keep the snow warm without melting it.

"I didn't expect that Su Yan's favorability towards you would rise so quickly. It surprised me."

"If you can replace me and let him abandon the little beggar and choose you, I can even never come out and let you exist forever on my behalf."

"But what have you been doing?"

As the illusory Shen Xiaoxue stepped forward and approached her step by step, Gu Xixue's heart hurt more and more intensely.

She knew that when this Shen Xiaoxue became one with herself, that would be her end.

But she smiled and said softly: "You hate what I do today, but maybe one day, I will be your final escape route!"

Shen Xiaoxue was furious: "A way out, what you call a way out, do you mean being a slave to that little beggar? Then I would rather not leave such a way out."

In the blink of an eye, Shen Xiaoxue and her were close at hand.

Just when Gu Xixue thought that her consciousness was going to disappear in the next moment, she heard her say: "Leave a letter to Su Yan and say that you are going to travel far away."

"After today, Gu Xixue will disappear in the Holy Land."

Half an hour later, the woman who still looked like Gu Xixue, but whose temperament had completely changed, walked out of the small building.

He glanced back, with undisguised disgust in his eyes.

Without any hesitation, he waved his sleeves and burned it and the flowers completely.

Most of those flowers were planted by Gu Nanyi, and she didn't want to keep any of them.

The next day, Shen Xiaoxue went to say goodbye to Su Yan as if she were Gu Xixue.

She said that she finally saw it and wanted to leave the Holy Land and walk around in the world.

Although Su Yan and the others were reluctant to give up, they also felt that this was natural.

When the little beggar held her hand and said goodbye to her, Shen Xiaoxue only felt uncomfortable for a while, and she suppressed it so as not to show her true colors.

Although Su Yan vaguely felt that Gu Xixue today was a little different from the past, he would never have thought that she had been replaced by Shen Xiaoxue inside.

When they sent Gu Xixue away from Dragon God Island, they thought it was just a short farewell.

This friend may return in three to five years.

And even if she really left for decades, she would only be able to deal with the long-lived Ya Sheng with just a snap of her fingers.

But here, after Shen Xiaoxue separated from Su Yan and the others, she changed back to her true self.

Because she often moves in the sea, she is already very familiar with the environment around Longshen Island.

She found a safe island and prepared to attack the Life Lantern Realm for the second time.

In the previous system missions, for every 50 Su Yan's favorability towards Gu Xixue increased, she could get a Heavenly Rank Barrier Breaking Pill.

But now, Gu Xixue's favorability level for Su Yan has already exceeded 200, and Shen Xiaoxue already has four heaven-level barrier-breaking pills in her hands.

However, Shen Xiaoxue felt that she might no longer need them.

What Gu Xixue did before was the best barrier-breaking pill for her.