Douluo: I didn’t want to become a god, but I actually became a god

Yu Yuyi was extremely tired, and her brain was moving extremely slowly.

She just felt that while her body was experiencing the pull of two energies, destruction and healing, it seemed that it had created too many unnecessary illusions.

Such as auditory hallucinations, unnecessary warmth in front of you...

Yu Yuyi closed her eyes, thinking that her mind was wandering, and she inevitably thought of the question that she didn't know the answer to.

["...What do you think?"]

She didn't know the original answer. Whether the fisherman chose to open the devil's bottle cap had nothing to do with her. She had...

I can't afford to open those bottle caps anymore.

After experiencing so many similar things:

……

["Is your name Yiyi? What a lovely girl." The woman whose face was blurry but could still feel her gentleness squatted down and held Yiyi's little hand with both hands, as if to gain the little girl's trust, "We are not I don’t mind the color of your hair and eyes, would you like to go home with us?”

The girl's thin and waxy voice asked with some uneasiness: "Are you really taking me home?"

"It's true." The woman and the man with the same vague face next to her looked at each other, "We all like you very much and welcome you to our home."

She believed it and gave her first trust.

Finally got it.

But he was holding the puppet and watching the man and woman take away another well-behaved girl.

"Aren't you taking me home...?" The girl murmured to herself.

She didn't know why she was abandoned, but she didn't dare to step forward and ask. She only dared to hold the doll and hide behind, watching the same smile and the same soft words, but they no longer belonged to her.

However, this is not the only thing like this.

Many times girls don’t even know what they did wrong?

"I like you very much."

"I'll take you home."

"I'll take you back when the room is tidied up tomorrow."

"..."

"Sorry, we still can't choose you."

"Your eyes are so scary when you look at people..."

"I'm sorry, you are very good, please find another parent."

The waves in the girl's heart gradually calmed down, and the trust she had repeatedly surrendered was either returned to herself or discarded on the ground.

In the former case, she can only keep the trust and patiently tell herself that there will be someone, someone who is willing to accept her trust and will not return it to her; in the latter case, the girl can only pick up the abandoned trust. Just like the old trust, dust it off, put it into storage again, and wait for the next person who treats you sincerely.

But it never came.

As the girl grew up and went to school, she thought everything would get better.

It's a pity that the attitude towards aliens in the school is even worse.

She could only carefully hold on to the trust she dared not give up, and comfort herself: It will be fine, it will be fine, and it will get better if you be patient.

She built barriers around herself little by little to protect herself. But he is always willing to hand over the trust that has been abandoned many times.

When you work part-time, even if you use disguise to cover up your unusual hair color and eye color, the cliques and ostracism among your colleagues don't care about you at all. They just stick together, facing the people who don't fit in, and the new ones. People lay traps like honey.

A girl grows up, but she is still the same girl in her heart.

She was a little happy that her years of trust could finally be handed over to others, but she got unexpected results not long after.

"...I'm sorry, Yiyi. But if you are here, everyone will make a noise, so I can only fire you. I'm sorry."

"it does not matter."

The girl knew that it was not the store's fault, it was just that she delivered those things that made people feel heavy.

None of them were wrong, it was probably her fault. 】

……

"Ah...really, why do you think of those things?"

Yu Yuyi blinked her eyes, trying to focus back to her senses.

But just looking at her pale face that blended in with her hair color, her originally rosy lips were now a bloodless white because she had clenched her teeth to suppress her screams of pain.

Sweat aroused by the pain slipped from the corners of his forehead and past his eyelashes.

Yu Yuyi blinked in discomfort, and the drop of sweat was like tears in memory of the former girl's innocence. It hit the ground heavily, splashing dust, and became silent until no trace could be found.

It was rare for her to focus and see, and she grinned somewhat self-deprecatingly.

What the hell, it’s like I’m crying.

Obviously he doesn't care at all.

If you hand it over too many times, you are destined not to be treated well and trusted.

Yu Yuyi felt that instead of letting herself suffer successive disappointments, it would be better to hold it in her hand and never hand it over.

——If the bottle containing the devil is opened again and again, then she would rather be a fisherman who will not hear the devil's words.

The fisherman Yiyi, who was thinking like this, raised her eyes and saw the devil himself, kneeling on one knee in front of her.

Supporting her body, he looked at her pale face, her dusty clothes soaked in cold sweat, and the box containing the remnants of Ma Hongjun's evil fire.

Yiyi: ...ah, I'm going to suffer. But it doesn’t matter.

She fearlessly met Tang San's gaze, forced herself to lift the hand that was still clean on her throat before, and patted Tang San's solid arm.

"Hey, mistress, how long have you been here?"

Tang San's eyes were dark and his tone was as low as the storm, "I've been here for a long time, and I saw you swallowing the evil fire from a distance and taking the elixir in pain. Yu Yuyi, have you forgotten what you promised?"

Yu Yuyi raised the corners of her lips and tried to play it off as usual: "Ahaha, how should I say...?"

"I have done everything I promised you."

"Where are you……!"

Yu Yuyi's forehead was directly pressed against Tang San's shoulder, and she weakly counted the requests she had made before:

"Pay attention to safety when dispensing the medicine, carry the protective soul guide with you when dispensing the medicine, and eat three meals a day on time."

"I've done all of this very well, haven't I?"

Tang San gritted his teeth, wanting this little bastard to take advantage of the loopholes. It was obvious that these were all broken down for her safety.

"But..." Tang San still wanted to refute.

But her next words were interrupted by her actions.

Yiyi's forehead knocked against Tang San's shoulder bit by bit.

It's not painful, but it's too attention-grabbing.

Yu Yuyi continued to use the trick of deception, "Besides, I have finished dispensing the medicine, and now it is time to test the medicine... We can't let the patient take this three-no product without knowing the nature and efficacy of the medicine."

"why not."

Tang San hated Yu Yuyi from the bottom of his heart for being so obedient and considerate of others.

Why couldn't she care more about herself.

always like this!

In this way, you constantly rely on hurting yourself to get results.

Thought it would be good for everyone.

He hated Yu Yuyi who was so sensible and ruthless that he would not allow others to get close to him, not even allowing the two childhood sweethearts to get close to him.

Yu Yuyi: "...ah?" Did she hear it wrong? Why did the innocent and kind-hearted friend she raised say something like a villain?

"Oops, mistress...is the medicine not fully effective? Why am I hallucinating words that are not in line with your personality?"

Yu Yuyi was really panicking. If the medicine didn't work, she would have to make the medicine with her body suffering from auditory hallucinations, which would add fuel to the fire.

Yiyi collapses: What kind of hell mode refining is this!

Tang San held down Yu Yuyi's head and tried to raise his head, looking and pinching his face to confirm whether he had any symptoms other than auditory hallucinations, such as visual hallucinations. His chin rested on the top of Yu Yuyi's head.

He whispered: "That's what I said, you don't have auditory hallucinations! Why don't you just let Ma Hongjun test the medicine! Why do you do such a dangerous thing! Do you know that I...we are all worried about you! Idiot! Why are you doing this? You’re so stupid at this kind of thing!”

Originally it should have been:

[Yiyi: I don’t know who to believe anymore. If the bottle is opened again and again and it’s the same thing, I’d rather be a fisherman who won’t hear the devil’s words. 】

This sentence echoed the previous answer, but unfortunately it didn’t feel right anywhere, so I changed the sentence.

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There will be a lot of psychological narrative in the next chapter