Northern Myanmar: Years of Dehumanization

"Eat, there's no need to be polite to me."

Bao Qing next to me saw me sitting upright and not moving my chopsticks, so she reminded me in the same way.

There was a softness in her voice, and she held her chin with her right hand, looking at me with her peach blossom eyes blinking.

I had no choice but to bite the bullet, picked up the chopsticks on the table, and started eating.

"Try this, this is delicious, and this..."

Bao Qing, who was next to me, began to frantically put vegetables into my bowl. Then, when he was picking up my side of the food, he arched his body forward.

After a while, the dishes in the bowl in front of me were piled up like a hill.

"Okay, I'll just eat these."

I saw Bao Qing still wanted to pick up some food, so I stopped her.

"You are just in time now. Your body is still very weak. It is time to supplement your nutrition."

Although Bao Qing explained it like this, he listened to my words and didn't add anything more to my bowl.

"Why don't you eat?"

I looked at Bao Qing next to me, holding her chin, looking at me intently, and couldn't help but ask like this.

"I usually don't eat at night."

Bao Qing shook her head and said this to me.

I was stunned for a moment, you didn’t want to eat tonight and you asked me to come over and have dinner with you?

I didn’t dare to think about the deeper meaning behind it, so I could only lower my head and eat.

During this period, Bao Qing didn't bother me with anything.

Instead, he waited until I finished eating before he started talking to me.

"You know? When you rescued me, I realized that the ideas my father instilled in me were not completely correct..."

After finishing the meal, Bao Qing took me to the sofa, sat down face to face, then looked at me seriously and said.

"Oh? What do you say?"

I glanced at Bao Qing's long legs that were so white that they shone under the light, and answered like this.

"At that time, I became curious about you and had a crush on you... Why did you want to save me?"

Bao Qing said this, sat next to me, and then asked like this.

"Why should I save you? Do you need a reason to save someone?"

Hearing Bao Qing's words, I shook my head, but I never thought that saving someone would need a reason.

"You know? When my sister sent me to military school, every time I wanted to give up, you would appear in my mind."

"I also want to be a person like you, and then support me through that time."

When Bao Qing said this, she leaned against my body and put her hand on the back of my hand.

I could feel her hands trembling, and I turned to look at her. Her eyes were blinking, and her long eyelashes seemed to be shaking.

In other words, the series of actions she did like this required great determination.

However, I can also tell from his expression that Bao Qing's feelings for me are not the kind of love between a man and a woman, but rather a complex emotion.

Maybe it was because of her time in the military academy that she took me as a role model, and then I appeared in her mind more often.

So she remembered me as a person, so much so that she thought she liked me.

However, from my point of view, it is obvious that she has a crush on me, but she does not like her.

"I understand your feelings, but this is not about liking. When choosing a person, you should first consider your heart. I guess your heart is very messy right now, right?"

I looked at Bao Qing and said seriously.

Did you say taking advantage of the situation? It's still hard for me to take advantage of a good girl like this.

"But I..."

"Okay, I know you mustered up a lot of courage to do such a thing. You are very beautiful, but I don't deserve it. If you really think about it, then I can do it at any time."

When Bao Qing wanted to speak, I interrupted her, reached out my hand, touched her head, and then said this.

With a warm smile on my face, I obviously regard her as my sister.

I enlightened her like this because I wanted her to stick to her inner correct thoughts.

When Bao Qing heard what I said, she lowered her eyes, as if she had made up her mind and stopped saying anything.

"The food is delicious. It's too late today, so I'll leave first."

Seeing that Bao Qing didn't speak any more, I just said this, then stood up and left the place.

When I went out, on the way back, I took out a cigarette, lit it and started smoking.

He looked up at the sky with a complicated look in his eyes.

how to say?

If it were me in the past, I would definitely have followed Bao Qing half-heartedly, because this way is undoubtedly the most beneficial to me.

However, after experiencing so many things, I realized that there are many things in the world that cannot be measured by interests.

Bao Qing has already helped me with so many things, and now if I deceive someone else's body, then I am a bit of a beast.

Thinking of this place, I had some vague expectations in my eyes. If the negotiation could really succeed, wouldn't I be able to leave this place?

In the next few days, I was well taken care of.

If you have nothing to do, just go talk to A Ding and the others. They have been well arranged and have not been threatened.

Of course, during this period, I never saw Bao Qing again. After all, he is a battalion commander, so there must be a lot going on, and it is very normal to miss people.

……

June 7.

In the morning, the door to my room was kicked open.

I was surprised when I propped myself up and saw a heroic woman standing in front of me.

It was none other than Bao Qing’s sister Bao Xue.

To be honest, the person I least want to see in this place is undoubtedly Bao Qing's sister, Bao Xue.

The thought of Asheng's death is still vivid in my mind.

If I had some kind of relationship with her sister, wouldn't I have to call her sister?

Now that I think about it, there are some horror elements in it.

I can't even imagine what she would do if she knew I had done something to her sister?

"Sister Xue, what brought you here?"

I asked with a smile on my face and twitching the corners of my mouth.

Is it too much to call me sister? It's not too much at all...

There is a saying that goes like this:

Don’t reach out to hit the smiling person.

It's just that I want to refute it now.

At this time, he did ask with a smile, but he was beaten really badly.

I saw Bao Xue with a cold face, raised his palm and hit me hard on the face:

"What kind of ecstasy did you pour into Bao Qing to make her do such a stupid thing? If I hadn't arrived in time..."