Northern Myanmar, the hell on earth I experienced

After Brother Hao left, he closed the door for me. I wrapped myself in a quilt and got out of bed and locked the door again. Then I quickly got dressed. After getting dressed, I sat on the bedside and let out a long sigh.

Wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes.

I hope that I can please Brother Hao verbally, and I can coax him in any way I want, but I still feel that I can't do it by betraying my body again and again.

I think that kind of thing should be done with someone you really like, preferably as a couple. My previous romantic relationship was just because the other person suddenly found me one day and took out a condom in front of me, and I broke up with him.

I remember that the other party also said nasty things to me at that time.

"Why are you pretending to be so noble? You're still the same when you take off your pants. If you don't want to sleep with me, I think you've been looking forward to it for a long time! Maybe your lower body has been stabbed to pieces by someone! You If you have the guts, don’t have sex with a man for the rest of your life, otherwise I’ll look down on you.”

Because I used to hang out in society, everyone agreed that I was no longer a virgin, and some people even made up rumors about me, saying that my elder brothers in society were willing to shield me from knives because I had given my body in exchange for it.

So when my first love took out a condom, I felt that he, like them, thought I was an indecent person.

Although I beat him so much that he was admitted to the hospital, he still left a thorn in my heart. Maybe that’s why! I think that kind of thing is more important!

In the past two days since Brother Hao has been away, I have also thought about how Brother Hao and I will get along in the future. I also thought that Brother Hao will definitely continue to do that kind of thing when he comes back, but I still hope that Brother Hao will not always be so forceful. .

But no matter how reluctant I am, I can't do anything.

Because if I leave Brother Hao, let alone survive, I might not even be able to eat.

I stayed there for a long time. When my stomach growled again, I felt hungry again, so I just came down to find Brother Hao and go to eat with Brother Hao.

As soon as I opened the door, I heard Brother Hao talking on the phone downstairs.

"Okay, it's okay. Thank you Bai Xue!"

"It's okay. I know you're busy. I just happened to finish all the things over there, so I rushed back early."

"Yes, she's fine. She probably just didn't go to eat! It's fine. There's no need to worry or feel embarrassed. It made me worry in vain. Okay, it's fine. She must be homesick!"

"Well, thank you anyway. By the way, tell me the price of the thing you want to buy and I will transfer it to you later."

"Okay! It should be."

Since I could only hear Brother Hao's words, I didn't know what they were talking about, but I always felt that it seemed to be related to me, and it seemed to have nothing to do with me. I didn't believe that Brother Hao would be worried about me.

Just like I don't believe that Brother Hao will like me, his so-called liking is nothing but robbery and usurpation.

After seeing me coming downstairs, Brother Hao and Bai Xue hurriedly ended the phone call.

Then he looked me up and down.

"You seem to like light-colored clothes."

I nodded.

“Dark clothing makes me feel heavy.”

I used to like black clothes very much, because my adoptive mother and father would only buy me dark clothes when I was a child, because they were durable and cheap.

Once upon a time, I dreamed more than once that I was wearing a snow-white floral skirt like other little girls, chasing each other with a group of playmates on the green playground.

Unfortunately, this dream never came true in my childhood.

The time when I really wore white clothes was after my adoptive father committed suicide. In order to marry me to Zhang Dashan's son, my adoptive mother made various changes to me during that period, which was euphemistically called: belated maternal love.

That’s when I started to have an inseparable feeling for light-colored clothes, because I really liked them so much that I loved them in my heart. I also went to work part-time in a bar because the overalls there were white shirts and they looked so comfortable. Especially energetic.

Of course I am telling the truth.

"Well, you are indeed suitable for such light-colored clothes. I will buy you more later."

"It's already a lot."

I suddenly remembered that the car that Bai Xue sent yesterday contained almost everything, including some women's clothes. When I was packing it, I deliberately looked at the size and it actually matched my size.

"Well, you still need to prepare some, because you won't find too many clothes."

I didn't refute, because Brother Hao was right. I used to really hope to have endless beautiful clothes to wear, but when Brother Hao said he would prepare some for me, I didn't feel too happy.

"Have you tried it? The size should be suitable!"

I nodded.

"I compared several pieces and they all fit."

"That's fine."

Then I deliberately looked for topics to avoid embarrassment.

"Brother Hao, how do you know my clothing size?"

Brother Hao raised the corners of his mouth slightly.

"My eyes are rulers, there will be no mistakes. If there is a mistake, it's a matter of clothes."

Brother Hao said confidently, but it made me feel a little embarrassed. Of course I found this myself.

After Brother Hao finished speaking, he leaned close to my ear.

"Did you see that I also bought some small clothes?"

The small clothes Brother Hao is talking about must be referring to those sexy underwear.

My face turned red and I said hard:

"Didn't see it."

"That's probably because Bai Xue didn't have time to buy it. I'll pick it out myself soon. The size will be very suitable."

I didn't speak.

Brother Hao put his arm on my shoulder.

"I told you that as long as you behave, I will take you out. I hope you know what to do."

I nodded.

"it is good!"

No matter how much I hate Brother Hao, no matter how much I resist Brother Hao, I can't escape Brother Hao's clutches in the end, so if I want to leave here as soon as possible, I can only obey, which I can understand.

At this time, I thought of Wang Shanmei and Liu Qiao, and I seemed to be able to understand what they were doing better.

Just like Brother Tong said, no one is willing to seize the opportunity when it comes.

"By the way, what happened last night and this morning? Why didn't you go to the cafeteria to eat?"

"Because I happened to be asleep at that moment."

"Fell asleep?"

"Well, since there is nothing to do here, I can only sleep."

I lied. Of course I couldn't tell Brother Hao that I already knew the secret of the utility room.

"nothing to do?"

Brother Hao said lightly, then walked to the middle of the living room and patrolled for a week before saying:

"It will indeed be boring to stay here. It seems that I will have to find something for you to do later. Just feel sorry for yourself these days! Oh, by the way, there is a study room on the second floor. You can use it when you have nothing to do. Go there and read books, I brought many books from China, you should like them."