Northern Myanmar, the hell on earth I experienced

The pain didn't feel like I was falling, it was clearly like someone was hitting me hard with a hammer, it hurt so much.

I finally cried out in pain.

When Yanyan noticed it, she immediately stood up and helped me up.

"Do you want to go to the bathroom?"

"it is good!"

At this time, I was in so much pain that I couldn't even straighten my back, but fortunately I had Yanyan.

She helped me up and took me to the toilet.

The toilet here is very simple, built with a few boards, but fortunately the toilet is clean. After I sat on the toilet, Yanyan closed the door for me.

"Sister Piao, call me when you're ready, I'll be outside."

"it is good!"

I shouted weakly.

Then the pain became stronger and stronger, and my whole body was soaked in sweat.

It hurts, it hurts so much.

In order to make myself feel better, I could only press my body down and squeeze my stomach with both hands, hoping that this would relieve some of the pain.

After a long time, the pain in my lower abdomen subsided, and it seemed like something had fallen. I looked down and saw a splash of bright red. The bloody smell was overwhelming, and then I wiped it with toilet paper and put on my pull-up pants with difficulty. When I wanted to flush the toilet, I turned around and vomited.

He could still stand, but at this moment his legs went limp and he collapsed to the ground.

Then everything went dark before my eyes and I passed out.

When I woke up, I was still lying on the same iron bed with IV drips hanging from my hands. It was the first time I had seen such an operation.

At this time, I was surrounded by caregivers.

"Awake, awake. She's awake!"

A nurse shouted.

"Move aside and let me see."

The fat woman I saw first squeezed to the front.

"How do you feel, Sister Piao? Is everything okay?"

I nodded, and I wasn't feeling so bad anymore.

"Is there water?"

"Yes, yes! Go get some warm water for Sister Piao."

"Ok!"

After I drank the water, I seemed to regain a lot of strength.

"Sister Piao, your physique is so special. I've seen women with difficult labor and heavy bleeding, but this is the first time I've seen such an amount of bleeding from a miscarriage like yours. I was almost scared to death. You have to be careful next time! Fortunately, it was discovered in time, otherwise I really wouldn't be able to explain it to Brother Hao."

"Sister Piao, you must replenish your nutrition after you go back. The amount of blood you lost is a bit scary. And you must rest more."

After the fat woman finished speaking, she looked at her watch again.

"It's time for dinner, why don't we have dinner together before going back."

I shook my head.

"no need."

"Then let them take you to wash your body briefly, and then we will change clothes and go back."

"I can just do it myself!"

"That won't work. You're very weak right now. I'll let them help you. We're all women, so there's nothing to be embarrassed about."

"It's better not to use it."

At this moment, Yanyan on the side suddenly said:

"I just happen to need a shower too. Can I help her? Sister Piao?"

Yanyan asked me after she finished speaking, and I nodded.

"That's okay!"

Since I was feeling quite weak at that time, it took me an hour to finish my shower and get dressed.

After taking a shower, I rested for a while and then left with Yanyan.

When she reached the door, Yanyan turned around and whispered something to the fat woman, who nodded and said,

"Don't worry! I know what to say and what not to say. I love money, and everything will be fine as long as the money is in place."

Then Yanyan whispered to me again.

"After we get out of the door, we'll just pretend we don't know each other. You go find Brother Hao directly, and I'll leave in my car. If Brother Hao asks, just say you don't know me. At most, just say we just met. As for my name, don't tell him."

I nodded.

Then he said to Yanyan:

"Thank you."

I feel like if Yanyan hadn’t been here today, I might have really died here.

"I'm also doing this for money, so you don't have to thank me."

After going out, Yanyan walked fast and soon distanced herself from me. Then I watched her get into a white SUV and the car drove away.

And I continued to walk slowly towards Brother Hao's car.

Although the distance from the entrance of the greenhouse to Brother Hao's car was less than a hundred meters, it felt like a century for me to walk there, and every step was filled with desolation and loss.

It really feels like this is all a dream.

I turned my head and looked at the word "abortion" on the blue iron shed, and my eyes became wet again.

I just killed the two little lives in the belly with my own hands here.

I think if they could speak, they would hate me to death!

I sighed and walked towards Brother Hao's car again.

If I have a choice, I hope to never get in Brother Hao’s car again, because all he has brought me is pain and bruises all over my body.

But I had no choice.

After I got in the car.

Brother Hao, who was playing games on his mobile phone, said something meaningless.

"Is it done?"

I nodded.

"kindness!"

"What took so long?"

There was a hint of complaint in his words.

I didn't say anything, but a murderous intent surged in my heart. At this moment, I really wanted to kill Brother Hao with my own hands. This was the first time I had the intention to kill Brother Hao, and I wished he would die immediately.

His existence will only bring harm to more people.

I had this killing intention before, but I didn't dare because of fear. But now I'm not afraid anymore, but I know clearly that if I kill him I might not survive, and it's still unknown whether I can succeed.

I feel that if I confront Brother Hao head-on, it would be like hitting a stone with an egg. Not only will it not have any impact on Brother Hao, but I will end up in pieces.

"are you hungry?"

"kindness!"

I nodded.

Brother Hao looked at his watch.

"There aren't any good restaurants left now, let's go back to the park!"

After saying this, Brother Hao called Brother Xiang and asked him to cook some delicious meals.

It was very hot on the way back, so Guang turned on the air conditioner slightly.

On the way back, I kept looking out the window. I don't know why, but my heart felt like it was thrown to the bottom of the Arctic Ocean. It was cold, so cold that it was uncomfortable, so cold that I had cramps, and so cold that I was frozen. I didn't want to think about anything else except quietly waiting for death.

After arriving at the park, as soon as I got off the car, my vision went dark again and I passed out.

Then I slept for a long time and dreamed for a long time.

I dreamed that I went back to the past and saw my adoptive mother swearing to me that she would never play mahjong again after she changed her ways, and that she had only one wish from now on, which was to work hard to earn money for my studies.

Then we both made up our minds, hugged each other and cried bitterly.

"mom-"

"My dear daughter, don't cry, mom is here."