After rebirth, she first killed the book thief, and she was busy writing articles to save people

Jiang Baige typed out a lot of text.

After she sent the message, she actually felt a little regretful. It wasn't that she didn't believe in Sunny, but she was worried that the other party would think she was being too hypocritical.

Being pretentious is not a bad word. In fact, it is a necessity for creators.

But sometimes, she wishes she could be more carefree - people always want to become someone they cannot be.

She has also seen authors who would fiercely respond to comments, delete them, or report them.

To be honest, she was envious.

But she is a soft persimmon, and she has no choice but to stop updating, which is a way of killing 800 enemies but hurting herself 1,000.

She sighed and prepared to close the chat box. At this time, Sun Sweet Egg replied: [Madam, your original intention of focusing on writing stories about women is to awaken more women? Or is it just to relieve the emotions that have been suppressed for many years? ]

While Jiang Baige was thinking, Sun Tiandan posted again: [I am doing this for myself.]

[When I was growing up, there were always people who held me to an invisible “girl” standard. I couldn’t be naughty or I wouldn’t be like a girl. If I had better grades than boys, I would be reminded that “boys have more stamina than girls.” I had a good job, but people only cared about whether I had a partner…]

[But when these standards were imposed on me, no one asked me, "Xiao Tian, ​​do you like this?" Instead, they just assumed that I should be like this.]

[So I began to imagine what kind of life I would live if I became a man... But I am not a man, so my protagonist is still a woman, but she will have everything a man has: power, handsome men. ]

[Because I have always been writing to release my own pain, I am not that afraid even if the data is not good or readers do not understand. The only thing I am afraid of is not making money doing something I like, so I opened a small account and wrote sweet articles that everyone likes to read.]

[I was once again divided into two selves by reality: one of me said, I don’t want the things imposed on me by society, and the other said, if you don’t want them, you will starve to death.]

[Since then, it has been difficult for me to write something satisfactory... After several struggles, I decided to withdraw from full-time writing and put two-thirds of my energy into preparing for the exam. When I passed the civil service exam, had a stable job, and could support my family, the two of me finally became one me.]

[I can write for myself again. This time, I am not afraid of bad data, readers not understanding me, and even having no money. But you see, what happened to me? I met readers who can really resonate with me! This of course also includes many people who supported me on Nanlin.com. ]

Looking at the words written by Taiyang Tiandan, Jiang Baige was somewhat touched.

She recalled that when she had talked with editor Damai about why they chose to come to Ariel Blue, Damai had been worried, saying that making a real "female channel" was very risky, and she was always worried that Ariel Blue would not be able to hold on.

Jiang Baige asked her why.

Damai said that it was very simple, because there is still no consensus on what is "female frequency". Take the word "loved daughter" for example, what is a loved daughter?

She also said that based on her experience as an editor for more than ten years, many female readers love women, or perfect female characters, so the requirements for authors are also harsh. This is actually another form of misogyny - although she dare not say it, for fear of being criticized.

But how can it not be misogyny to hate those moments when women are weak, entangled, and controlled by desire? But she herself is not the standard answer, because the so-called women who are always criticized as "spiritual men" do exist.

Then she said: [Look, even I can't justify myself, let alone so many women gathered together? ]

Jiang Baige asked again, aren’t there also so many men gathering together on the men’s channel?

But Da Mai said that was completely different. The men's channel, like the patriarchal society, has already taken shape and has many rules that everyone accepts as true and is very stable.

Just like men can unite no matter what they do, the same goes for male channels. Of course they will curse and make bad comments, but it does not affect the fact that what they pursue at the core is the same: power and beauty.

This may also be related to the structure of their brain - reproduction, because they will never know whether their children are their own children.

Hearing this, Jiang Baige asked her: "If that's the case, why don't you become an editor for the men's channel?"

Da Mai did not answer directly, but asked her: "Now that you know these rules, why don't you write male-oriented articles?"

At that time, Jiang Baige felt that Bilan was the right choice and Damai was also the right editor.

It was as if it was destined that they were all the rewards for her choosing to write and write for women in her rebirth.

But now, this idea has to change.

The sweet egg reminded her: Was she writing for the readers? No. She was writing for herself.

Readers are also an extra reward, just like the kind-hearted people you meet when you are walking on a lonely road in the dark.

If I can make more people realize that “Oh, I’m not alone”, that would be an extra reward.

It's just that she hadn't looked back on the past for too long, so she accidentally forgot it.

She remembered what Da Mai said at the end of that day: [When we question others, I often ask myself, can I love her shortcomings as much as I love her perfection, just because she is a woman? ]

Jiang Baige: [What is your answer? ]

Editor Damai: [Same as you. ]

——I am a woman, she is also a woman, and I am born to love her.

This "she" is sometimes abstract and sometimes concrete.

But as long as they are of this gender, they are willing to give priority to believing and supporting them at any time.

Jiang Baige’s answer on this point will not change.

She replied to Sun Sweet Egg: [Thank you, so sweet. Actually, I was very conflicted before. On the one hand, I was very discouraged and sad when I was questioned. I couldn't write a single word. But on the other hand, I felt that it was not worth it to be sad and give up because of someone who didn't understand me.]

Sun Sweet Egg: [What about now? ]

Jiang Baige: [Now I live for myself and for those who understand me. So, I don’t need to torture myself for irrelevant people anymore.]

Sunny Sweet Egg: [Actually, I think I’m very lucky. I have food to eat and can still write. Recently, some of my friends who focused on writing stories about women have given up because they can’t make money in this niche field, so they have to go to work. But no one can guarantee whether they can continue to write after going to work.]

Jiang Baige thought, then she was even luckier.

Because she can already support herself with writing: although the ideas are "despicable", they are very useful.

At the same time, Jiang Baige had just comforted herself when Zhou Ling called in a panic.

"I don't understand...why should we go to so much trouble to help someone who doesn't even want to get out of his predicament!"