Rebirth with Award

"Qianqian, do you dislike Kang Mingyu?"

Yan Yanyan had seen how the two of them interacted with each other. Compared to Kang Mingyu, Cheng Qianyun seemed a little colder, but because the Cheng Qianyun who interacted with Kang Mingyu was very different from the Cheng Qianyun they had seen before, she felt that the two of them liked each other. It was just Qianqian's personality that was like that.

Now that I heard that Qianqian actually proposed to date Kang Mingyu for the past two or three months just because he didn't like long-distance relationships, I became uncertain again.

Moreover, she broke up right away, not considering breaking up immediately, but just saying that they were just completing some homework after dating for two or three months. Therefore, Yan Yanyan suspected that Qian Qian had not thought clearly whether she liked Kang Mingyu.

"I like him very much. I like his appearance and I like getting along with him." After saying that, Cheng Qianyun hesitated for a moment before adding, "I also like kissing him."

As soon as these words were spoken, Yan Yanyan, who was lying flat on her back listening, choked on her own saliva.

"Sister, there's no need to be blunt. I know you like him." This bit of gossip sounds a bit embarrassing.

"Wouldn't you be sad thinking about breaking up with him?" Yan Yanyan tried her best to act serious, otherwise she was afraid that she would not be able to help but share the embarrassing kissing incident with Qianqian.

"I feel a little sad and reluctant. However, I will not choose to stay here because of him. My grandmother said that people should firmly choose themselves. I can't disrupt my life plan because of a relationship that I can't guarantee how long it will last."

Although she didn't plan this life plan too far ahead. It wasn't that she disliked this place or this school, but she felt that she had the ability to go to a higher place and see a wider world, so why should she give it up for the so-called love?

My sister's college entrance examination score was enough to get her into the university she had always liked, but because the man she liked confessed his love to her the night after the college entrance examination, she chose to go to the same university as him. Although they confirmed their relationship after deciding on the university, they broke up later.

We were in the same school, just different majors, and our love affair ended after less than half a semester.

They didn't know why my sister chose a university that was not her choice and a major that was not on her list of preferences. On New Year's Eve that year, my sister got drunk during the vigil and cried and said a lot.

Grandma hugged my sister and said to her, and also to them: No matter what time, people must firmly choose themselves.

Therefore, she does not want to change her plan for the fickle love. She can slow down and wait, but she cannot give up her own way and run after others.

Yan Yanyan felt that what Cheng Qianyun said made sense, but she also felt that she was a little too rational.

"Is it because I don't like you enough?"

Cheng Qianyun was silent for a moment and sighed: "Maybe..."

Looking at Cheng Qianyun's emotional journey and looking at her now, she feels that she may lack the ability to love.

"Cheng Qianyun" suffered both physical and psychological torture. She liked others' superficial and short-lived likes. She retreated when she felt that she could not give more responses to the other party, and withdrew her feelings in time when she could not feel that the other party was still passionate about her. She was sensitive, unconfident, and did not trust others.

Apart from her family, and Lin Huihui, the swindler who persuaded her when she was about to commit suicide and saved her life, "Cheng Qianyun" cannot confide in anyone.

After being away from Lin Huihui and experiencing the dream that Qianyi sent her, she also let go of some of her worries. Cheng Qianyun always felt that she was now in a situation where her family was carefree and the people who loved her were all there. She should be able to feel happy and be able to love others confidently and generously.

But looking back over the past two or three years, I have lost the ability to “fall in love with everyone I see” that I had in junior high school. Even my ability to appreciate other people’s beauty has weakened, and my “lust” seems to have become less.

"Then how do you know if you like someone deeply enough?" Cheng Qianyun asked and then laughed, "No emotion can become deep all at once. Love grows over time, which proves that some emotions need time to settle."

Kang Mingyu is different from the boyfriends that "Cheng Qianyun" has dated. The feelings of those people are not fake, but after confirming the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend, each of them is very anxious to take it one step further. They say, I love you, so I can't help it.

But Kang Mingyu is different. He also likes intimate behavior, but he is always cautious. At most he just holds hands, or hugs or embraces.

"How long did it take you and A Mao to kiss?"

Cheng Qianyun's question made Yan Yanyan sit up straight up: "Why are you asking this?"

"I'm just curious. I just kissed Kang Mingyu for the first time today."

Yan Yanyan touched her hot face, suppressed the shyness in her heart, and said, "I forgot how many days it was, but it couldn't have been more than a week. We just kissed when we were about to say goodbye after we went out together."

Then he asked curiously, "Don't you guys spend time alone together often? Why are you only... today?"

"Being alone is being alone. I write and he watches me write, or he plays with his phone or chats."

"And then?" Yan Yanyan thought that in a place like a hotel, they were often alone, and today they were together all day, so they would do something that would make people think something wrong. After all, Kang Mingyu also booked a room in this hotel last night, a king-size bed room. Although nothing would happen, she thought there would always be kisses and hugs.

"Then? I'll wait for you to come back for dinner, go out to buy some fruit, some drinks, and take a walk. There's enough to do. Which part is worth hugging and kissing?"

Ahem, it seems that both she and Mao Youlin had the wrong idea.

"It's mainly because I'm more interested in calligraphy now." After all, I have to make money. "When I finish learning and have my own ideas, I won't be shy about it."

"What do you mean by having an idea? What does that mean?" Yan Yanyan hadn't recovered from the guilt of having misunderstood her and Kang Mingyu yet, when she heard these words that she couldn't understand for a moment.

Is that another meaning she had in mind?

“Just do whatever you want to do and follow your feelings.”

"Oh my god, you, you... I'm confused. Are you conservative or not? You didn't do anything wrong, but why are you so... No wonder your brother complained that you are a bad-minded woman."

But Yan Yanyan just likes Cheng Qianyun to speak her mind and express her ideas.

"Actually, sometimes when we're kissing, I'll suddenly have the thought of killing him right there. A-Mao has exercised, so he has muscles and six-pack abs. They're super nice to touch, hahahahaha..." Yan Yanyan was willing to talk about this with Cheng Qianyun when she found out she could.

Sometimes when she had that thought, she wondered if she was too lewd, but she was too embarrassed to talk to others about it. Qianqian just copied and wrote all day, or sat and read books, and she was too embarrassed to tell her.

Now that she can talk, she no longer treats her as an outsider.

As they talked, Yan Yanyan also shared with Cheng Qianyun some of the scenes they saw while walking on campus.

Cheng Qianyun and Kang Mingyu also encountered quite a few when they went out for a walk. However, Qianyi had warned them of the more intense ones in advance and asked them to take a detour, so they didn't see many.

She was also curious and wanted to see how intense it was, but Qianyi wouldn't let her, saying it was too hot for the eyes. She took a step closer, and Qianyi turned up the brightness of the screen and sang a song she couldn't tell the tune of with its off-tune voice. So, she didn't know how hot it was.

But it doesn't stop her from sharing gossip.