Everyone I want to bully is abnormal

After notifying Wu Bingzhi to send a rescue team immediately, Bai Qingge no longer had to worry. What he should do was done, and the next step was to leave it to fate.

He lowered his center of gravity and sat on the wooden board. Just as he was about to have a heart-to-heart talk with Kan Zhiyu, pieces of crystal snow flakes floated down in front of his eyes, and Bai Qingge's sad look turned into surprise.

"It's snowing." Bai Qingge stretched out her hand to catch the snowflakes. The snowflakes melted quickly on her warm palms, just like fleeting fireworks.

Like willow catkins and goose feathers, from her perspective as a southern child, she could foresee that the snow would be heavy.

Snow melts quickly when you catch it with your hands, but it is different when you catch it with clothes. She discovered this after trying several times.

Kan Zhiyu didn't understand. It was just a few snowflakes. Why could he be having so much fun playing with them, especially in such a dangerous situation.

At first, I thought my cage would fall down soon, but now, after looking at the bottomless river water under my feet for a long time, I felt a sudden fear in my heart.

What is classmate Bai thinking now? Is he so happy because classmate Yan was saved?

She was so envious of classmate Yan, but it wasn't jealousy that was at work. She simply felt that classmate Yan wasn't worthy of classmate Bai's kindness to her... and she felt the same way.

The two of them were just casual acquaintances, and Bai was just feeling sorry for herself, so she shouldn't think of taking advantage of the situation and bothering Bai.

She was the sinner who killed her mother and should have died long ago. Mo Qianxing was right. She didn't even have the qualifications to chase that figure.

But Mo Qianxing was wrong about one thing: Bai did not leave the board for his own safety, and Yan cherished Bai more than she thought.

It was only me who presumptuously speculated about everyone else, which led to the current situation.

I should have chosen a place where there was no one to atone for my sins.

But when Mo Qianxing quietly mentioned, "Since you want to die anyway, don't you want to see how important you are in Bai Qingge's heart before you die, to see if you are just a stray cat or dog that he would touch casually on the side of the road, or a more important person?"

She agreed for some unknown reason, and it was as if at that moment, she suddenly had the urge to be freed from her mother.

I really want to know what kind of existence I am in classmate Bai’s heart.

A simple classmate? A pitiful cat or dog? A friend? Or maybe he just liked her as a person.

She didn't dare to ask for too much, but as long as she could be like a stray cat or dog, and just happen to be in the mood to comb its hair, it would be like what she ate that day or whether she drank water, which would not be easily forgotten. That would be enough.

In fact, there was a deeper selfishness hidden in her heart, which even she herself did not realize at that time.

That is, classmate Bai came to save me, not just because of classmate Yan.

The identities and status of the two people are very different from their relationship with classmate Bai, but he was actually delusionally thinking that his status was no worse than that of classmate Yan.

The cold wind blew, making Kan Zhiyu shiver all over, and the complicated thoughts in his mind were frozen.

When she saw Mo Qianxing running away with the remote control, and saw Bai pushing Yan away, and finally standing alone on the other side, she suddenly came to her senses.

When she had the idea of ​​testing Bai, she had already lost miserably.

Her choice can only lead to two results.

Either in order to leave the wooden board safely, Bai fell into the river alone, and even the last bit of her beautiful memory died along with the cold river water.

Either his suspicions did not exist from the beginning, or classmate Bai fell into the icy river together with him in order to save him.

Just like the sun, which sets in the west, her sun will never shine again, and the world will be left with only darkness.

But even if she died, she wanted to see the sun still hanging high in the sky, shining brightly, warming and nourishing all things.

But because of her own selfish desires, everything was ruined.

What my mother said was indeed right. I was a disaster and should not have been born.

“Crack—”

The sound of the iron cage loosening made Kan Zhiyu's infinite remorseful thoughts tremble violently.

Bai Qingge, who was on the other side, also heard the crisp sound of the iron cage about to fall away.

Bai Qingge's eyes narrowed and he looked into the distance, but still didn't see the rescue team.

She was just about to teach Kan Zhiyu what to do if he really fell into the river, when Kan Zhiyu, who had been silent all this time, suddenly spoke.

"Student Bai, if you lose your balance later, just hold on to the board. With your ability, you will definitely be able to wait until someone comes."

"You..." Bai Qingge was about to comfort the other party, but was interrupted by Kan Zhiyu.

"Student Bai is very gentle and a very good person. I like you, too, but people who do wrong should be punished.

"Student Bai also knows that I killed my mother with my own hands. That's true. Now I've dragged you into danger. I don't want to..."

"Do you want to die?" The faint question is like asking you if you have eaten today?

"Huh?" The sudden interruption made Kan Zhiyu stunned.

"I ask you, do you want to die?" Bai Qingge repeated again. She had stood up and started moving her hands and feet without knowing it.

The weather was very cold, and her whole body was frozen. She was shivering so much that the iron cage was creaking slightly. If she fell into the water, she might not be able to survive for even a minute.

"I..." Faced with Bai Qingge's question, Kan Zhiyu hesitated.

If she was trying to find freedom by pulling her mother to die together with her, she was not afraid of death at that time.

When she saw her mother's hideous face before she died, she was already unconscious, the river water rushed into her mouth and nose and she couldn't breathe. The pain of suffocation made her extremely terrified. If she had a choice, she would never choose to drown again.

But now there is no turning back for me. Even if I don’t want to die, I should die.

"Tell me you don't want to die, and you won't die. This is my promise."

Bai Qingge, who was floating in the snow at this moment, looked extremely fragile, as if she would melt away in the next moment just like a snowflake.

"I, I want to die..." It turns out that speaking by opening and closing the upper and lower jaw is such a difficult thing. Kan Zhiyu's lips were trembling, and even Bai Qingge, who usually had sharp ears and eyes, could not hear clearly.

"what?"

"I want to die. I have wanted to die for a long time. Why should I be abused since I was born? Why can I never be better than my brother? Why do my classmates treat me like that? What did I do wrong?

"If there's one thing I did wrong, it's that I shouldn't have been born into this cruel world in the first place.

"I hate my mother who loves to beat me, I hate my father who abandoned me when I was born and now wants to give me away, I hate that creaking house, I hate that hypocritical school, I hate those hypocritical classmates, I hate the teachers who do nothing."