Everyone I want to bully is abnormal

x month xx day

In order to see my father again, my mother is in urgent need of money, so even if the procedures are not complete, I will apply for poverty assistance.

I failed, I'm sorry mom.

x month xx day

I went to ask the director for help, and he seemed very angry. Why? In the end, he did not approve the procedure.

x month xx day

The director said that my mother was a bitch. She had agreed to give him 10 yuan and had taken so many gifts from his family, but now she was going back on her word.

Mom regretted it? I felt both happy and sad. I was happy that I could stay with her, but what was I missing?

The director said bad things about my mother, and I don’t like him anymore.

December xx

Today, classmate Bai was standing on the podium like the sun in the sky, so dazzling that people could not see her clearly. And I was the grass underground, and so were we all. She invited everyone to dinner after graduation. Should I bring my mother and brother with me?

December xx

I accidentally bumped into classmate Bai today. The director said that my face is the most beautiful he has ever seen, but I think classmate Bai should be better.

Bai is still someone that classmates say is someone that no one should ever approach because it would make everyone angry, so I ran away in a panic. I'm sorry.

December xx

Classmate Bai said that he would bully me from today on. Shouldn’t I have run away that day after being bullied by classmate Bai?

December xx

Classmate Bai bullies me once a day, and it seems that she is really angry.

But why, every time after bullying me, she becomes so gentle and puts all the delicious and fun things in front of me?

Classmate Bai said that this is her hobby and that I just need to accept it. This hobby is so strange. Is it like my mother will beat me because she loves me?

But my mother said that I can’t take other people’s things without permission, and I refused...but I couldn’t refuse at all.

December xx

Classmate Bai forbad me to apologize, but my mother said that I should apologize if I did something wrong. Classmate Bai said that I did nothing wrong, but how is that possible? I make mistakes all the time, both at home and at school.

Classmate Bai is so gentle. Just think of it as being just to classmate Bai. I'm sorry, mom, I might be a bad kid, but I won't say it, so mom won't know.

January 12

Today I became a desk mate with Bai. I feel so happy. I know I will be bullied, but I feel so weird.

January 12

He was splashed with cold water. It was very cold in winter, and Bai moved very quickly...he took the clothes very quickly.

Did you hear someone outside calling her Your Highness? Bai is indeed not an ordinary young lady.

My mother often says that my father is not an ordinary person.

She was helping me wipe the water off my body, but why was she so slow? I felt so cold and hot at the same time. I felt a little strange and didn't dare to look back at Bai, nor did I want to urge her.

Someone came, it was Bai’s friend, I knew they had a very good relationship.

So I was very unhappy, and I didn’t know why I was unhappy. Before I even thought about it, I had already rushed out.

In the end, classmate Bai took me away, so does that mean he still has a better relationship with me?

I know I'm delusional, but I can't help but think this way.

Classmate Bai said that bullying me was her hobby, and that my mother beating me was her way of expressing her love.

Now that my mother doesn’t beat me anymore, I’m sure that one day classmate Bai won’t bully me anymore, right?

I hope that day will come later. No, I hope that day will never come.

January 1

Recently, the relationship between Bai and Yan seems to have deteriorated. Is it because of me? I'm sorry, but I'm very happy.

Classmate Bai said that I don’t need to apologize to her, so I won’t apologize.

On the contrary, my relationship with classmate Bai is getting better and better, as if we will be good friends for the rest of our lives.

Friends…are we friends now?

January 1

Classmate Bai brought a fairy tale book over today. The book is nice and the story is wonderful. Just like in the story, Classmate Bai is the prince and I am like Cinderella, and we will live happily together in the end.

Fairy tales are all lies.

It was so strange. When I wanted to help my classmates, I was stopped by classmate Bai. Classmate Bai asked classmate Gu to help the whole class, just like I did. Classmate Gu would definitely agree because we have a good relationship.

Gu refused angrily and gave a long lecture. Bai whispered to me that Gu wanted to refuse but couldn't bring herself to do it, so she talked about all sorts of things. She said that this was hypocritical and that all the students in the class were as hypocritical as Gu.

hypocritical?

But isn’t this love?

Punishment? Love? Hypocrisy? Which one is right?

January 1

Classmate Bai is very nice to me every day. Although it makes me feel sorry for my mother to say this, Classmate Bai is better to me than my mother, 1 times, 1 times, 1 times better.

Perhaps as a punishment for me thinking this way, my mother didn’t come home until very late today.

My younger brother was also crying all the time. I knew why he was crying. My mother put a box of candies at the neighbor's house and waited to give them to my younger brother when he cried. Although he would be scolded every time, he would still get a candy.

But this time, not only did he curse and not get the candy, he was also kicked out.

The wind was so strong and the rain was so heavy, it seemed as if the whole sky was crying. My younger brother also held onto the neighbor's table leg, crying and refusing to come out.

The neighbor asked me if there was anyone else I knew so she could call to inform them. No one answered my mother's phone. I didn't want to tell her Bai's phone number, but for some reason, my vocal cords and mouth started moving uncontrollably. I guess I really wanted to see Bai at that time.

Looking at her gentle smile and touching her warm palms, it is different from the cold and painful wind and rain. Classmate Bai is the sun, the most dazzling sun.

When the call was connected, classmate Bai sounded worried, but I couldn't say a word because I didn't want her to come over and get wet in the painful and cold rain, but I also wanted to embrace her in the sun-like embrace.

This should be what Mr. Bai said was hypocrisy.

The neighbor speaks very loudly to classmate Bai, but classmate Bai is actually a person who likes quietness, so I seldom bother her.

I was grateful to my neighbor for taking my brother and me in for so long, but now I hate her.

It’s so cold and painful. If this is love, does God love me like this?

Oh, I must be crazy.

I don’t know how long I stayed outside holding my brother. I might die, but if I did, I wouldn’t be afraid at all.

That's what I thought at first, but when I heard Bai's voice, I admit that I was scared. I was afraid of dying and never seeing her again.

I was taught a lesson. My mother used to teach me a lesson often. She said it was out of love for me. So, is the lesson that Bai is teaching now also love?

I am so happy. Even if I die now, I will die happily. Even if I die happily, I don’t want to die.

When I heard my brother crying, I thought of my mother again. I should go find her, right?

I'm not sure, but I want to be taught more by Bai classmates and feel more love.

Not enough, not enough!

It's obvious that once you feel a little bit of your mother's love, you don't want it anymore, but Bai's love is never enough.

I don’t know when it started, but whether she was eating, attending class, sleeping or listening to her mother talking about her father, there was always only one person in her mind.

She had expressed her love to her mother before, but she didn't seem to like it. From then on, she began to suppress her emotions. She had always been like this, but now it had become so unbearable.

When I jumped off the motorcycle because I wanted more love, I truly understood that it wasn't that my mother couldn't live without my love, but that I couldn't live without my mother's love.

If I find my mother, she will definitely satisfy me more. I really want to feel it. After doing such a thing, classmate Bai will definitely teach me a lesson.

I know very well that graduation is coming and classmate Bai will also leave. She has never belonged here, just like my mother described my father.

Student Bai should live in a shining and magnificent castle, where there is no hunger, no cold, no noise from iron sheets, no foul and disgusting smells, no need to rush for a living every day, no thieves, no criminals. It is a place better than heaven.

I have never seen heaven, but if Bai could love me for once like my mother does, that would definitely be better than going to heaven.

I want to keep some good memories about classmate Bai, so no matter whether Bai beats and scolds herself like her mother, or compares her to anything unbearable to the ears, I will accept it all.

Yes, just like the last time when I was blocked in the toilet by classmate Yan, I did it on purpose this time.

I know very well that ever since my mother started to be nice to me, she never comes home more than two hours late because she is afraid that someone will hurt me.

So from the time my mother came home, I started planning.

Although classmate Bai said that I don’t need to apologize to you, I’m sorry this time.

I can rescue my mother at any time. She will always be with me anyway, so she will definitely not die easily.

Just like me, for my mother, I worked hard and persevered even if she broke my arms and legs.

But why, my pace has slowed down and classmate Bai has not caught up yet.

I pretended to be injured again, but still didn't show up.

The emotions in my mind slowly changed from excitement to panic and fear.

I seem to have never thought about this question: what should I do if classmate Bai doesn’t come?

What should I do? Should I go back? If I go back, I will definitely be punished, but Bai is in the car, so I won't be able to catch up if I go back.

Although he thought so in his mind, when he realized that Bai Qingge might not catch up, Kan Zhiyu turned around and walked back.

He started by limping, then slowly jogging, and then to running breathlessly.